This is a true account of my experiences as I attempt to attain enlightenment and ascend to a higher state of consciousness. I have discovered that there is a group of people, or beings, that are attempting to prevent my ascension, while others are aiding me in the ascension process. Original Site: www.i-am-xam.com - Kindle Book: The Prevention of Ascension Vol. 1
The last post seemed to bring a lot of
attention on many levels. It is always good to get some feedback and
I appreciate it. Some of the feedback has not been so good, but
appreciated. The Nameless have stepped up their use of
electromagnetic or RF (radio frequency) radiation on me. It has a
been a little different from the constant exposure I originally
received while in Hawaii. There seems to be a given protocol that is
followed when it comes to suppressing someone like myself regardless
of the geographical differences. I thought I would try to explain
what I have been experiencing. You might find that you may be
experiencing similar symptoms to the exposure.
I remember taking my HAM radio license
test and receiving interesting amount of attention from the members
of the local HAM radio club that was hosting the exam. The majority
of the members in the club as well as the majority of people taking
the exam were, on some level, part of the organization I refer to as
the Nameless. They spent a good deal of time scrutinizing me from the
moment I arrived to the time I departed. My knowledge concerning RF
radiation is limited, but I know a little bit about what electro
magnetic radiation is capable of, concerning the human body. It makes
sense that the Nameless would be keep their members informed and
licensed about the use of radio frequency if it was being used for
other purposes other than communication.
I am not going to go into depth
concerning the radio frequencies, because there are plenty of online
sources that could do a better job explaining what they are, how they
are generated, as well as the many different types. What I would like
to say is that our environment is saturated with them. The sun and
other stars produce radio waves. The radio active materials in our
environment produce radio waves. Power lines, the electrical current
in your home, the wireless router, your mobile device, the monitor
you are using to view this post, any electronic device can produce
levels of radiation. Most of the devices are subject to FCC
regulations, and they are all supposed to be safe for limited amounts
of exposure. We live in a sea of electromagnetic radiation and as the
use of mobile technology increases the level of saturation must also
increase. The thicker the levels of electromagnetic radiation the
easier it is to hide something within them (sub-bands, sidebands,
phase modulation, polarization modulation).
So you might ask, what's the problem?
The problem is that the human body is an electrical system.
Electricity flows through the body and is necessary in order to live
and function. Too much electricity (direct contact) is harmful or fatal
depending on the level of current, particularly amperes. Tasers uses high
voltage to incapacitate you, defibrillators use high voltages to
restart your heart while your home's electrical current can kill you
with low voltage and a mere quarter amp. We are electrical beings and
too much electromagnetic radiation in our environment produces
interference. But, what is the threshold? What level is low enough to
go unnoticed, but high enough to make you feel despondent, lethargic,
hyperactive, confused, depressed, angry, aggressive or indifferent?
There is also the aspect of more subtle electrical transmissions from
the brain that are being interfered with by this sea of radio waves
that permeate our environment. The radiation is not natural and
should be considered a kind of unseen environmental pollutant that
not only affects the physical body, but also spiritual consciousness.
Two people are
standing on the same street corner at the exact same time of day,
both are distracted and focused upon something else. There is a
commotion at a coffee shop across the street, and a man runs from the
coffee shop and into traffic. A car slams on its brakes and swerves
towards the two people standing on the street corner. The car hits a
fire hydrant, and the entire street corner is engulfed in a spray of
water. The two people run for cover in a nearby market and look up
and recognize one another. One says to the other where have you been,
I have been waiting for you for the past 15 minutes. The other says
almost the same thing. They both go over to the coffee shop for their
preplanned meeting and talk about what just happened. They get most
of their story right about what they witnessed, but they can't agree
on everything. A person is sitting next to them in the coffee shop.
He hears what they are talking about and smiles because he thinks
they are both wrong about what happened.
We are constantly interpreting the
reality we see, but we can only interpret what we have already seen.
In other words we can only interpret something that has already
happened and not what is actually happening. In order to interpret
what is actually happening our mind would have to be capable of
prescience. That is to see it before it happens, interpret the
information and react as it actually happens. The lag between seeing
something and responding is called reaction time. It is within the
reaction time that details get discarded, or filtered out. The filter
is not a standard instinctual built in filter that we all share, it
is based upon accumulated personal experiences called your frame of
reference. You see it, interpret and filter the information and then
you react. We are all actually living in the past. The only time we
do not live in the past is when we are meditating. No thought, no
interpretation, no time, just the moment, for as long as you can make
it last.
We have all experienced a series of
events and tried to recall everything that happened. Some of us get
it right, but most of us miss key elements within the events. This is
partially because we are distracted, preoccupied with other thoughts,
or multitasking, but rarely in the moment. We are also limited by our
natural abilities and senses. Our eyes are capable of seeing a
limited portion of the known visible spectrum. We see by reflected
light and have limited night vision. Our ears are severely limited
and our sense of smell is one of the most retarded of most mammals.
We know this because we have created tools that can see, smell and
hear the things we cannot. We also know that our tools are limited in
reading and interpreting everything contained within our reality. We
know this and we accept it without questioning.
We realize that our mind is limited,
well, most of us realize this. Many of us believe that what we are
seeing is real and not a series of electrical impulses interpreted by
our brain (hardware). The mind (software) then attempts to make sense
out of what we are seeing. If we are having difficulty understanding
what we see, or we are inundated with too much information in a short
amount of time, we become confused. Within confusion is a storm of
activity where some interesting things are happening. We begin ease
our confusion with information we are comfortable with. Our frame of
reference steps in to calm the firestorm of confusing synaptic
activity and filters the information leaving out the more confusing
aspects by substituting them with familiar images and information. We
know this and accept it without questioning.
We know that the mind is severely
limited by the accumulated images and information that is contained
within it (memory). It is very difficult if not impossible for the
human mind to create something that does not resemble something that
already exists. Even if we were to encounter something that we do not
have a point of reference to, it may not be possible to see it at
all. If the mind does not have anything closely related to what it is
attempting to interpret it might just make something up, something
that is the best possible mockup of what it is attempting to
interpret.
One of the tools we use to navigate our
reality is that we do so by making comparisons. If there is a need to
describe something then a common aspect must be established. If that
common aspect cannot be established communication, interpretation,
visualization, etc... stops. We know this because it is impossible to
describe the color red to a person that has been blind since birth.
People that have been blind since birth lack the visual information
necessary to understand what you are talking about. Blind people have the ability to feel and hear their surrounding environment. Is impossible to describe the
color red as a tactile sensation or audio vibration? It is also interesting to note that
people who have been blind since birth dream in what can be loosely
described as cloud like shadows. The emotional content of their
dreams are still present, because they have the necessary information
from their waking experiences. Emotions and sensations occur without
the visual imagery because the brain lacks the visual data. The
brain/mind cannot create something that it has no reference to. If the brain/mind was capable of creating something without any reference, then people that have been blind since birth would dream as
sighted people dream.
There are some people that have extra
sensory perceptions. The ability to see future events. The ability to
know what others are thinking. The ability to see apparitions; dead
people. We have seen these people in action on television and even
carnival side shows. On the other hand there are also people that are
able to turn off sensations and emotions in order to endure a painful
event. As well as, super human feats of strength during times of
crisis. We know this and accept it without questioning, but can
these abilities be turned on and off at will? The limitations of the
brain and mind might be due to the manner in which we use it. Could
there be a means of controlling and activating the known and unknown
(dormant) abilities of our brain and mind? I don't know of any
instructions on how this can be accomplished, but that does not keep
me from trying.
Psychedelics
The mind is a terrible thing. It
filters out much of your everyday sensory information. If the mind
tried to interpret everything within the so-called reality then it
would probably melt down (aka nervous breakdown). The mind filters a
very large portion of the various external stimuli from the environment and also
turns off sensations that cause too much of a distraction. It does so
without your conscious input. Attention to these sensations are
deemed unnecessary through environmental and social conditioning. The imagination is stunted at a very early age. A child that is able to see things that their parents cannot see is scolded or sent to a psychiatrist. We are all conditioned to disregard the strange and unusual that exists in our everyday conscious experiences. Our once open mind has been shackled and confined to one mundane point of focus. If you think I am wrong then you might consider turning on the external stimuli
that are shut off. If you are like most people you're not
going to be able to do it. It is not because it is impossible, it is
because you do not know how. Do not fear, there are chemicals abound
to help you temporarily turn on those sensations one by one or all at
once.
Natural plant substances that exist in
our reality that are capable of turning on parts of the brain exist
for a reason. Primitive cultures accidentally stumbled upon these
substances while they were gathering food. Various mushrooms, roots,
bark, plant leaves, flowers, cacti, minerals, elements are capable of
partially, or permanently, freeing the soul (consciousness) from the
body. Altered states of consciousness expanded their understanding of
consciousness. Imagine what occurred in the mind of the first person
to experience Amanita muscaria (the famous bright red mushroom with
white spots), psilocybin, or peyote. To not have a reference to an
altered state of consciousness and to then slide into a completely
foreign plane of existence is nothing less than extraordinary. What
is more interesting is how that experience changed their conscious
reality. Not to mention the frequent use of psilocybin having a side
effect of increasing visual acuity of primitive cultures as an aid in
surviving their natural environment. I am not going to continue on
about the relationship between plants and humankind because there is
plenty of information on the subject of ethnobotany by Terrence
McKenna and others.
I am not convinced that 2012 is anything to worry about, but it may be something to be consciously prepared for. Dec 21st may not end in a big bang, it may just be the beginning of conscious evolution. I do want to mention that we as a
society have outlawed and banned the personal use of psychedelics and
have suffered because of this. We live in a spiritually stagnant
evolutionary period because we are not comfortable with altering the
conscious experiences of this reality. I believe this is being done
on purpose to funnel our conscious experiences, or reality, through
only one of many possible avenues.
With all the limitations of our senses
how can we really know what is real? It is easy to trick the mind and
senses in believing something contrary to what actually exists.
Knowing all the limitations of our senses and mind how can we
consciously accept our reality as being absolute. We do so because we
have to conform to this pre-conceived (more in the sense of being
created or formed prior to our arrival) social construct in order to
survive it. Take note as to what I am saying: We have to believe in
something that might be a delusion, accept it and participate in it
because we fear that non-participation may lead to difficulty or an
premature end to the delusion, otherwise know as death. For some
reason , it resembles a snake eating its own tail. We still accept
this even though we agree that life is difficult. We do not want it
to be any more difficult so we participate. The current social
construct makes sure of this, participate and conform or perish. The
recollection of the act of repeating this delusional cycle is
sometimes celebrated. People talk about past lives as if it were some
kind of accomplishment. Are they? I believe that this cycle can be
broken, making the achievement of immortality more of an
accomplishment worth noting.
The constraints of our social construct
serves only the social construct and not the individual. We have well
established acceptable behaviors on all levels of social conduct (and
ethnic, cultural, national, juvenile, criminal levels). It is
possible to be too “out there” (crazy) for most people to
understand. There have been far too many visionaries that were
labeled insane or demonized, most of them being women. We proudly
protect our conscious reality by medicating, institutionalizing, and
killing any one that is a threat to its validity. We even search for
predispositions of divergent traits in children to shut them down
with medications before they have a chance to manifest.
When someone sees something that others
cannot see, or they see it in a completely different way, it is
tagged an abnormality. Because the majority cannot see it then they
must be abnormal or insane, even though, as I have mentioned above,
people are unable to see everything due to the physical and mental
limitations of our organs and senses. As a whole we have not evolved
in a direction that would appreciate thoughts that diverge from the
general consensus of this reality, mostly due to fear.
Seeing
When I describe what I see, I know what
has to happen in order for this to occur. I know that illusions, as
well as delusions can exist in my mind while I attempt to interpret
my conscious experiences. As this is happening, I know that I am only
seeing a small portion of what may be vying for my attention. I also
know that I may not be seeing everything that is happening nor am I
able to interpret everything; not at this time anyway...
These people I call the Nameless are
real enough for me to have worked with them and for them. I have
stood behind them in lines and provoked them to become uncomfortable
just by taunting them with my thoughts. I have been mistaken for them
by their minions and treated as if I were important or a celebrity. I
was invited to their parties as they attempted to indoctrinate me
into their exclusive group (At these parties their women would stand
by my side as if they were presenting themselves to me as a gift).
They have presented me with opportunities to work among them, a
“privilege”, I rejected. I have sat in their offices and listened
to their medical diagnoses. I have attended and visited their
educational institutions and even dated their daughters. Many years
prior to my journey through the void, one of my best friends was/is
one of them. They are more than just a delusional artifact of my
conscious experiences. And, yes I have considered that I might
actually be one of them that had lost his way. In any event, I have been called a
mutation by one of them, but I prefer to be referred to called an
anomaly.
I see this reality differently. I
agree. As I started to notice the differences I could have
disregarded them. After my exit from the void, it would have bee a
lot easier for me to just ignored or to have submitted to them when they
attacked me in Hawaii. But, I was given a glimpse into something that
I cannot forget. Believe me I tried to forget, to try to be normal
and participate in this grand delusion as if it were real. Because of
this glimpse into an entirely different conscious reality I cannot –
I will not – pretend it never happened.
Am I deluded? I do not know for
certain, but I am on my way to finding out what it is I am actually
experiencing or unable to experience. I have chosen a path that leads
me away from the cycle of birth and death. I take nothing for granted
and everything is suspect. But I now have a lifeline that tethers me
to something substantial, something familiar. No matter what this
reality throws my way I have something to keep me connected to source
consciousness.
So what keeps you grounded? I hope it
isn't this reality, even the ground (earth) we stand upon might be
just a manifestation of consciousness and nothing more. But, that
might be enough for you. For myself, I want something more. If what I
search for does not exist then I will find a means to create it.
Note: I have used the word manifest as
a means to describe the act of creating something or to provoke it
into existence, but it does not mean the same thing. Manifest and
create are not completely interchangeable. Manifestation connotes the
sublime, while creation is etherial.