This is a true account of my experiences as I attempt to attain enlightenment and ascend to a higher state of consciousness. I have discovered that there is a group of people, or beings, that are attempting to prevent my ascension, while others are aiding me in the ascension process. Original Site: www.i-am-xam.com - Kindle Book: The Prevention of Ascension Vol. 1
The last post seemed to bring a lot of
attention on many levels. It is always good to get some feedback and
I appreciate it. Some of the feedback has not been so good, but
appreciated. The Nameless have stepped up their use of
electromagnetic or RF (radio frequency) radiation on me. It has a
been a little different from the constant exposure I originally
received while in Hawaii. There seems to be a given protocol that is
followed when it comes to suppressing someone like myself regardless
of the geographical differences. I thought I would try to explain
what I have been experiencing. You might find that you may be
experiencing similar symptoms to the exposure.
I remember taking my HAM radio license
test and receiving interesting amount of attention from the members
of the local HAM radio club that was hosting the exam. The majority
of the members in the club as well as the majority of people taking
the exam were, on some level, part of the organization I refer to as
the Nameless. They spent a good deal of time scrutinizing me from the
moment I arrived to the time I departed. My knowledge concerning RF
radiation is limited, but I know a little bit about what electro
magnetic radiation is capable of, concerning the human body. It makes
sense that the Nameless would be keep their members informed and
licensed about the use of radio frequency if it was being used for
other purposes other than communication.
I am not going to go into depth
concerning the radio frequencies, because there are plenty of online
sources that could do a better job explaining what they are, how they
are generated, as well as the many different types. What I would like
to say is that our environment is saturated with them. The sun and
other stars produce radio waves. The radio active materials in our
environment produce radio waves. Power lines, the electrical current
in your home, the wireless router, your mobile device, the monitor
you are using to view this post, any electronic device can produce
levels of radiation. Most of the devices are subject to FCC
regulations, and they are all supposed to be safe for limited amounts
of exposure. We live in a sea of electromagnetic radiation and as the
use of mobile technology increases the level of saturation must also
increase. The thicker the levels of electromagnetic radiation the
easier it is to hide something within them (sub-bands, sidebands,
phase modulation, polarization modulation).
So you might ask, what's the problem?
The problem is that the human body is an electrical system.
Electricity flows through the body and is necessary in order to live
and function. Too much electricity (direct contact) is harmful or fatal
depending on the level of current, particularly amperes. Tasers uses high
voltage to incapacitate you, defibrillators use high voltages to
restart your heart while your home's electrical current can kill you
with low voltage and a mere quarter amp. We are electrical beings and
too much electromagnetic radiation in our environment produces
interference. But, what is the threshold? What level is low enough to
go unnoticed, but high enough to make you feel despondent, lethargic,
hyperactive, confused, depressed, angry, aggressive or indifferent?
There is also the aspect of more subtle electrical transmissions from
the brain that are being interfered with by this sea of radio waves
that permeate our environment. The radiation is not natural and
should be considered a kind of unseen environmental pollutant that
not only affects the physical body, but also spiritual consciousness.
Two people are
standing on the same street corner at the exact same time of day,
both are distracted and focused upon something else. There is a
commotion at a coffee shop across the street, and a man runs from the
coffee shop and into traffic. A car slams on its brakes and swerves
towards the two people standing on the street corner. The car hits a
fire hydrant, and the entire street corner is engulfed in a spray of
water. The two people run for cover in a nearby market and look up
and recognize one another. One says to the other where have you been,
I have been waiting for you for the past 15 minutes. The other says
almost the same thing. They both go over to the coffee shop for their
preplanned meeting and talk about what just happened. They get most
of their story right about what they witnessed, but they can't agree
on everything. A person is sitting next to them in the coffee shop.
He hears what they are talking about and smiles because he thinks
they are both wrong about what happened.
We are constantly interpreting the
reality we see, but we can only interpret what we have already seen.
In other words we can only interpret something that has already
happened and not what is actually happening. In order to interpret
what is actually happening our mind would have to be capable of
prescience. That is to see it before it happens, interpret the
information and react as it actually happens. The lag between seeing
something and responding is called reaction time. It is within the
reaction time that details get discarded, or filtered out. The filter
is not a standard instinctual built in filter that we all share, it
is based upon accumulated personal experiences called your frame of
reference. You see it, interpret and filter the information and then
you react. We are all actually living in the past. The only time we
do not live in the past is when we are meditating. No thought, no
interpretation, no time, just the moment, for as long as you can make
it last.
We have all experienced a series of
events and tried to recall everything that happened. Some of us get
it right, but most of us miss key elements within the events. This is
partially because we are distracted, preoccupied with other thoughts,
or multitasking, but rarely in the moment. We are also limited by our
natural abilities and senses. Our eyes are capable of seeing a
limited portion of the known visible spectrum. We see by reflected
light and have limited night vision. Our ears are severely limited
and our sense of smell is one of the most retarded of most mammals.
We know this because we have created tools that can see, smell and
hear the things we cannot. We also know that our tools are limited in
reading and interpreting everything contained within our reality. We
know this and we accept it without questioning.
We realize that our mind is limited,
well, most of us realize this. Many of us believe that what we are
seeing is real and not a series of electrical impulses interpreted by
our brain (hardware). The mind (software) then attempts to make sense
out of what we are seeing. If we are having difficulty understanding
what we see, or we are inundated with too much information in a short
amount of time, we become confused. Within confusion is a storm of
activity where some interesting things are happening. We begin ease
our confusion with information we are comfortable with. Our frame of
reference steps in to calm the firestorm of confusing synaptic
activity and filters the information leaving out the more confusing
aspects by substituting them with familiar images and information. We
know this and accept it without questioning.
We know that the mind is severely
limited by the accumulated images and information that is contained
within it (memory). It is very difficult if not impossible for the
human mind to create something that does not resemble something that
already exists. Even if we were to encounter something that we do not
have a point of reference to, it may not be possible to see it at
all. If the mind does not have anything closely related to what it is
attempting to interpret it might just make something up, something
that is the best possible mockup of what it is attempting to
interpret.
One of the tools we use to navigate our
reality is that we do so by making comparisons. If there is a need to
describe something then a common aspect must be established. If that
common aspect cannot be established communication, interpretation,
visualization, etc... stops. We know this because it is impossible to
describe the color red to a person that has been blind since birth.
People that have been blind since birth lack the visual information
necessary to understand what you are talking about. Blind people have the ability to feel and hear their surrounding environment. Is impossible to describe the
color red as a tactile sensation or audio vibration? It is also interesting to note that
people who have been blind since birth dream in what can be loosely
described as cloud like shadows. The emotional content of their
dreams are still present, because they have the necessary information
from their waking experiences. Emotions and sensations occur without
the visual imagery because the brain lacks the visual data. The
brain/mind cannot create something that it has no reference to. If the brain/mind was capable of creating something without any reference, then people that have been blind since birth would dream as
sighted people dream.
There are some people that have extra
sensory perceptions. The ability to see future events. The ability to
know what others are thinking. The ability to see apparitions; dead
people. We have seen these people in action on television and even
carnival side shows. On the other hand there are also people that are
able to turn off sensations and emotions in order to endure a painful
event. As well as, super human feats of strength during times of
crisis. We know this and accept it without questioning, but can
these abilities be turned on and off at will? The limitations of the
brain and mind might be due to the manner in which we use it. Could
there be a means of controlling and activating the known and unknown
(dormant) abilities of our brain and mind? I don't know of any
instructions on how this can be accomplished, but that does not keep
me from trying.
Psychedelics
The mind is a terrible thing. It
filters out much of your everyday sensory information. If the mind
tried to interpret everything within the so-called reality then it
would probably melt down (aka nervous breakdown). The mind filters a
very large portion of the various external stimuli from the environment and also
turns off sensations that cause too much of a distraction. It does so
without your conscious input. Attention to these sensations are
deemed unnecessary through environmental and social conditioning. The imagination is stunted at a very early age. A child that is able to see things that their parents cannot see is scolded or sent to a psychiatrist. We are all conditioned to disregard the strange and unusual that exists in our everyday conscious experiences. Our once open mind has been shackled and confined to one mundane point of focus. If you think I am wrong then you might consider turning on the external stimuli
that are shut off. If you are like most people you're not
going to be able to do it. It is not because it is impossible, it is
because you do not know how. Do not fear, there are chemicals abound
to help you temporarily turn on those sensations one by one or all at
once.
Natural plant substances that exist in
our reality that are capable of turning on parts of the brain exist
for a reason. Primitive cultures accidentally stumbled upon these
substances while they were gathering food. Various mushrooms, roots,
bark, plant leaves, flowers, cacti, minerals, elements are capable of
partially, or permanently, freeing the soul (consciousness) from the
body. Altered states of consciousness expanded their understanding of
consciousness. Imagine what occurred in the mind of the first person
to experience Amanita muscaria (the famous bright red mushroom with
white spots), psilocybin, or peyote. To not have a reference to an
altered state of consciousness and to then slide into a completely
foreign plane of existence is nothing less than extraordinary. What
is more interesting is how that experience changed their conscious
reality. Not to mention the frequent use of psilocybin having a side
effect of increasing visual acuity of primitive cultures as an aid in
surviving their natural environment. I am not going to continue on
about the relationship between plants and humankind because there is
plenty of information on the subject of ethnobotany by Terrence
McKenna and others.
I am not convinced that 2012 is anything to worry about, but it may be something to be consciously prepared for. Dec 21st may not end in a big bang, it may just be the beginning of conscious evolution. I do want to mention that we as a
society have outlawed and banned the personal use of psychedelics and
have suffered because of this. We live in a spiritually stagnant
evolutionary period because we are not comfortable with altering the
conscious experiences of this reality. I believe this is being done
on purpose to funnel our conscious experiences, or reality, through
only one of many possible avenues.
With all the limitations of our senses
how can we really know what is real? It is easy to trick the mind and
senses in believing something contrary to what actually exists.
Knowing all the limitations of our senses and mind how can we
consciously accept our reality as being absolute. We do so because we
have to conform to this pre-conceived (more in the sense of being
created or formed prior to our arrival) social construct in order to
survive it. Take note as to what I am saying: We have to believe in
something that might be a delusion, accept it and participate in it
because we fear that non-participation may lead to difficulty or an
premature end to the delusion, otherwise know as death. For some
reason , it resembles a snake eating its own tail. We still accept
this even though we agree that life is difficult. We do not want it
to be any more difficult so we participate. The current social
construct makes sure of this, participate and conform or perish. The
recollection of the act of repeating this delusional cycle is
sometimes celebrated. People talk about past lives as if it were some
kind of accomplishment. Are they? I believe that this cycle can be
broken, making the achievement of immortality more of an
accomplishment worth noting.
The constraints of our social construct
serves only the social construct and not the individual. We have well
established acceptable behaviors on all levels of social conduct (and
ethnic, cultural, national, juvenile, criminal levels). It is
possible to be too “out there” (crazy) for most people to
understand. There have been far too many visionaries that were
labeled insane or demonized, most of them being women. We proudly
protect our conscious reality by medicating, institutionalizing, and
killing any one that is a threat to its validity. We even search for
predispositions of divergent traits in children to shut them down
with medications before they have a chance to manifest.
When someone sees something that others
cannot see, or they see it in a completely different way, it is
tagged an abnormality. Because the majority cannot see it then they
must be abnormal or insane, even though, as I have mentioned above,
people are unable to see everything due to the physical and mental
limitations of our organs and senses. As a whole we have not evolved
in a direction that would appreciate thoughts that diverge from the
general consensus of this reality, mostly due to fear.
Seeing
When I describe what I see, I know what
has to happen in order for this to occur. I know that illusions, as
well as delusions can exist in my mind while I attempt to interpret
my conscious experiences. As this is happening, I know that I am only
seeing a small portion of what may be vying for my attention. I also
know that I may not be seeing everything that is happening nor am I
able to interpret everything; not at this time anyway...
These people I call the Nameless are
real enough for me to have worked with them and for them. I have
stood behind them in lines and provoked them to become uncomfortable
just by taunting them with my thoughts. I have been mistaken for them
by their minions and treated as if I were important or a celebrity. I
was invited to their parties as they attempted to indoctrinate me
into their exclusive group (At these parties their women would stand
by my side as if they were presenting themselves to me as a gift).
They have presented me with opportunities to work among them, a
“privilege”, I rejected. I have sat in their offices and listened
to their medical diagnoses. I have attended and visited their
educational institutions and even dated their daughters. Many years
prior to my journey through the void, one of my best friends was/is
one of them. They are more than just a delusional artifact of my
conscious experiences. And, yes I have considered that I might
actually be one of them that had lost his way. In any event, I have been called a
mutation by one of them, but I prefer to be referred to called an
anomaly.
I see this reality differently. I
agree. As I started to notice the differences I could have
disregarded them. After my exit from the void, it would have bee a
lot easier for me to just ignored or to have submitted to them when they
attacked me in Hawaii. But, I was given a glimpse into something that
I cannot forget. Believe me I tried to forget, to try to be normal
and participate in this grand delusion as if it were real. Because of
this glimpse into an entirely different conscious reality I cannot –
I will not – pretend it never happened.
Am I deluded? I do not know for
certain, but I am on my way to finding out what it is I am actually
experiencing or unable to experience. I have chosen a path that leads
me away from the cycle of birth and death. I take nothing for granted
and everything is suspect. But I now have a lifeline that tethers me
to something substantial, something familiar. No matter what this
reality throws my way I have something to keep me connected to source
consciousness.
So what keeps you grounded? I hope it
isn't this reality, even the ground (earth) we stand upon might be
just a manifestation of consciousness and nothing more. But, that
might be enough for you. For myself, I want something more. If what I
search for does not exist then I will find a means to create it.
Note: I have used the word manifest as
a means to describe the act of creating something or to provoke it
into existence, but it does not mean the same thing. Manifest and
create are not completely interchangeable. Manifestation connotes the
sublime, while creation is etherial.
We live in a society that has many rules (requirements, guidelines, directions). There are rules that govern just about everything we do. There are even rules that govern spirituality, a.k.a religion. Most of the rules concerning any mention of ascension primarily concerns the life lived prior to death, with death being the gateway to ascension and the life lived prior to death that determines if you ascend to some state of heaven, nirvana, etc... In other words, the life you live determines if you will ascend (be rewarded) after death.
What I am looking for are the rules to ascend prior to death. I am asking anyone to show me where this knowledge exists. I have asked this before and I am still trying to find out if there are general rules that are well known, understood and practiced. Please feel free to provide the answer to this question in the comments section.
Just to be clear, I am not looking for rules that define ascension after death in the text of the Koran, Bible, Torah, Rigveda, The Diamond Sutra, Kangyur, Tao Te Ching, Bagavad Gita, etc... I am looking for rules that would allow anyone to ascend while they are alive. We have all heard that love is the true path to enlightenment, but does it also apply to ascension? If there aren't any rules or instructions to ascend, then why? It seems as if ascending to higher states of consciousness has been left out of our social dialog. Why is this the case? Shouldn't we all be trying to ascend and/or transcend our current state of being?
Let me be clear what I mean by ascension. Ascension is to rise to a higher state of consciousness where virtually anything is possible. To be able to be in harmony with consciousness in a manner that allows you to consciously create your reality in a more direct manner. To be connected to consciousness where all knowledge is available to you. It is a state where you no longer use your mind to think because you exist in a state of knowing. Because you are completely connected to consciousness, it is also a state of immortality.
My last post must have been more accurate than I thought. I can always count on the Nameless to react to my actions that threaten the paradigm they depend on to maintain this grand delusion. Now that I am inspired by, and connected to, source consciousness my journey is taking me away from anything that might be an obstacle to my ascension in its many forms.
A Mental and Physical Workout
The day was a good day, just as I intended. I have been humming along guided by an undercurrent of well-being. It is becoming easier to connect to it. A couple days ago I was overcome with the fact that I am truly fearless. It was a new aspect of my new state of well-being. Everything I did had an air of confidence. I did not concern myself with worry about anything. I found myself living in the moment and within the moment everything was beautiful.
The day was beautiful. A bright sun and crystal clear skies were joined by a windy chill. I could not wait for a chance to go for a bike ride. Late in the day I gathered my gear and set off my ride and a chance to capture some pictures of the setting sun. I exited the house and rolled down the street. I saw the one of the Nameless minions (half-bred hybrids of the Nameless and their brood) that lives at the corner walking out with his cell phone in hand. I did not care, I just hummed along my way.
I am aware that all I see is there for me, nothing is a coincidence. This is my dream unfolding before me, co-creation with source consciousness. I pay attention and make adjustments, nothing is taken for granted. I connected to the hum of source consciousness, set my sights on a wonderful ride and put the minion out of my mind.
I rode along the back roads I had not been on in a while. I saw the new homes and neighborhoods that have been built where there used to be nothing but pasture and open space. I was enjoying the ride and the accompanying feeling of well-being. I had traveled about 10 miles, I could have gone further, I wanted to, but the sun was about to set. I turned around to head back home and started to look for high ground to take in the setting sun.
I turned into one of the new neighborhoods and climbed to the top of a hill. I watched the sun set and took pictures at different intervals. Soon after the sun set I rode down the hill and headed back home. I started to notice that I was starting to worry. One thought lead to another and soon my mood went into a downward spiral toward fear and frustration. It felt as if something was dragging me from my connection to source consciousness, kicking and screaming. I fought back and began to focus on the moment and more positive emotions. I was locked in a battle to rid myself of the negativity that suddenly came on with my own style of mental kung fu.
Birds of a feather flock together. Because we exist in the same space we must be vibrating at the same frequency. We can only experience things of similar frequency, but what about things of the same frequency that are slightly out of phase? Is it possible to be slightly out of phase and not see something or someone that is occupying the same space?
Phase difference is the difference, expressed in electrical
degrees or time, between two waves having the same frequency and
referenced to the same point in time.[1] Two oscillators that have the same frequency and different phases have a phase difference, and the oscillators are said to be out of phase with each other. The amount by which such oscillators are out of step with each other can be expressed in degrees from 0° to 360°, or in radians from 0 to 2π. If the phase difference is 180 degrees (π radians), then the two oscillators are said to be in antiphase. If two interacting waves meet at a point where they are in antiphase, then destructive interference
will occur. It is common for waves of electromagnetic (light, RF),
acoustic (sound) or other energy to become superposed in their
transmission medium. When that happens, the phase difference determines
whether they reinforce or weaken each other. Complete cancellation is
possible for waves with equal amplitudes.
This page has been broadcasted over a satellite network and out into space. This page and the information contained within it existed in a variety of digital forms and frequencies. Is it possible that this web page can exist on many
different dimensions of time and space to be seen by beings of different vibrational frequencies? Crop circles might come to mind whenever I think about how this might be possible.
Phasers?
During the time when the Nameless were using their technology to drain my life force from me, the following day I went out to the market. I noticed that the neighborhood I lived in was different. There were sketchy people standing on the corners as if they were dealing in stolen goods. Most of the people I saw looked as if they were suffering from some kind of substance abuse. Everything looked as if it were run down. The vibrational level of my immediate environment was the lowest I had ever experienced. Just a few days before everything seemed normal, comfortable and pleasing.
The following days I was able to regain my energy and return to my normal state of being. I also saw an improvement in my immediate environment. The people I saw were healthier and the sketchy dealers were nowhere to be seen. The neighborhood was cleaner and clearer. I had always noticed the changes in my environment were a direct response to my thoughts and actions. These were the clues or breadcrumbs that sustained my curiosity and ultimately lead my psychedelic trip through the void and the resulting revelations.
Where the Nameless able to alter my vibrational frequency enough to change my conscious experience or put me out of phase with my perceived normal conscious reality? (Normal conscious reality? Is there such a thing?).
Anyone that had ever taken the time to define consciousness, was for the most part, wrong. They were also right and somewhere in the middle. Consciousness cannot not be defined universally. I mean to say that it there is not one single answer (I realize that I am trying to explain, and ultimately define, consciousness - the perplexing fuzzy nature of consciousness). All answers are right, and wrong.
Religion is a means to describe and understand consciousness. Most religions define consciousness as God or Gods. There are so many different religious beliefs and manifestations of those beliefs that have come and gone probably far too many to know or be able to record. The many faces of mythology are proof that consciousness is multi infinitely faceted. Not all religions agree, but anyone can see a single thread that weaves them all together. What is consciousness? What if it was up to you to decide.
If I would say that you are the center of the universe, this would be an understatement on a very grand scale. It does not matter if you are sitting in your room, standing on a mountain or at the center of a galaxy, you are at the center of consciousness. It can be no other way. You view everything from a single point in consciousness, your consciousness (your very own private Idaho). This is true for you and everyone else. Nothing new here concerning the self centered philosophies of old. This is one of my personal facets of what consciousness means to me. I am sure it will change over time or become irrelevant.
There have been many times when I have attempted to define consciousness. Pages of words that regurgitate the words of those that have come before me. When I read the drafts, journals and notes of my own attempts I see that they are very different form each other. I do not see a single thread that weaves them all together. Some of them no longer connect with me. I am beginning to see why.
Consciousness is a moving target. Consciousness is a metaphor, an apparition of the past present and future states of being existing in the moment. As I sit here again trying to put my feelings into words, I have a image in my mind of a child being tended to by its parents. I am a child of consciousness? I now get an image of cells dividing, expanding and again dividing. Anything is possible and everything is a valid representation of consciousness.
Before I posted this I was struck by the thought that any attempt to define consciousness also limits consciousness. A label or container that confines a concept. I can see why many people have used the terms infinite and formless as a means to describe consciousness. They still do not do it justice.
I posted this against my better judgement. I want to see how these words
effect my consciousness and how they manifest themselves within my
conscious experiences...
My goal is and has always been to ascend to a higher state of consciousness. When I discover how to transcend this plane of existence I will. I don't have anything to prove to anyone. I guess if I would have been successful I would not be maintaining this blog, I'd be connected to the source again and creating a new realm for me to exist in. Since that is not the case and I have run into a few sangs along the way, I continue my journey. With everything I have experienced, how do I know I am making progress? I pay attention to my conscious surroundings.
Everything that you experience is there for you. The moment when you change your world view to this paradigm is the moment when your life will change. There is nothing that happens in your life that is meaningless. Just as everything in a dream has purpose so does everything within your waking dream. The mind really does not distinguish a dream from your so called waking reality. When you sleep and dream you believe everything is real. You believe the same for the waking dream world, but you will not fully realize this until there is something else to compare it to.
I pay attention to what I experience during the day and just like my sleeping dreams my attention will be directed toward a significant character or event. When my life is stagnant or caught in a loop my life is uneventful concerning significant events. Sometimes I like it that way, considering my more recent experiences. The important thing to do is to pay attention to as many things a possible. To do this you need to be present in the moment. You will then notice the things that are trying to get your attention.
When I am paying attention I am connected to the source and in the flow of well-being. Things that need my attention get my attention and I am navigating the dream that is my life. When the activity of those trying to prevent my ascension is high I know that I am doing the right things. When their activity is low I know that I need to try harder. (There are other things I use as indicators that I am not going to mention at this time. There are some things I need to keep well withing the confines of my personal conscious realm.) They will always let me know when I am going in the right direction for me, and the wrong direction for them.
A couple days ago after basking in the glow of well-being, and posting about it, I felt the familiar sensation of having the life drained out of me. Whatever technology of ability that was used was identical to what I have experienced and endured in Hawaii and Los Angeles. What used to prompt fear in me know only excites me. As I felt the life being drained from me, I just smiled. I said in a low voice to them "c'mon you can do it" "send me back to the source". This was the first time that I had felt that sensation since moving back to California. It seems the Nameless in California haven't yet realized that I do not have a problem going back to the source. I will do the same thing I had done when I entered the void. I will recreate this life as I did before. This time, I will not be confused. The abilities and level of ascension I will attain will not be wasted the next time.
Soon after I acknowledged that I was ready and that I was not afraid, the sensation stopped. I cannot be sure if there was another intervention of some kind, if there was I am grateful nonetheless. After the effects of the experience faded I realized some things. I am ready to transcend by any means no matter what happens. The will is the strongest and important tool I have and with it I can do anything. And, when they do those things to me I know I am making progress.
They Can't Help Themselves
Today I went on a bike ride. Due to the weather I had not made a decision on my route. I came to a point in my ride where I needed to make a decision and so I stopped and checked out the direction of the clouds and waited for the right emotion to point the way. The Long flat route through the area or climb in the foothills. Foothills felt better than a flat ride because I also wanted to get away from the electromagnetic radio interference in the suburban sprawl, so I started up the hill. As I started to leave the more populated areas I suddenly felt that continuing up the hill would not be a good thing. I started to feel strongly about it and then I decided to turn back. As soon as I completed the u-turn, my attention was drawn to my left. I saw a Chinese couple, in their forties or fifties, staring at me. They were standing near the parking lot of a condo/apartment complex staring at me. One of them was smiling at me or smiling because of my action. I rolled down a few more feet and then realized what had happened. I turned back around and I peddled back up toward the hills and when I came back to the place where the couple was standing, they were gone. All this happened within a minute or less.
The Jedi mind tricks of the Nameless were in force, again. I am able to discern when they do this to me more now than before. There is a reason why I like to go to natural places that are free of the electromagnetic interference. I can regain and maintain a level of energy, or chi and I am able to make a deeper connection with the source energy (greater consciousness, life force, or God - take your pick). They know this and keeping me away from the natural places helps them keep me in check. They were there to influence me to ride within the confines of the suburban sprawl. It almost worked, but I am getting better at maintaining my attention and also realizing that my own gut feeling feels different than their Jedi mind tricks.
In the past here were many times when I felt a need to leave or suddenly change my mind. I believed that it was my gut, or intuition, that was directing me. I no longer believe this to be the case. The Nameless are capable to influencing you. Most of the time they do this to keep you out of an area they are occupying. Sometimes you may even encounter a person that will get right in front of you and stare at you. A blank stare with an intention to scare you off. They are effective in using your fear to do what they want. If this happens to you don't confront them, ignore them.
I do not need the Nameless. They serve me no purpose. I realize that there will come a time when I can stop writing about my encounters with the Nameless and write about my experiences as I continue ascending and transcending. They have my attention now, but I know that won't always be the case. Whatever they are and whatever they are attempting to do, they just can't help themselves.
The only thing standing in my way is me. I am more powerful than I realize. When I realize my own power within my own dream, nothing will be able stop me. Not even me.
I had always noticed that the time before, during and after dusk and dawn are special or auspicious. There is a change in the surrounding conscious energy during those times. It is as if a window is opened to connect with some form of energy. When I lived in Hawaii I was being attacked by the Nameless on a daily and nightly basis. The most consistent and intense attacks would always begin a half hour before sunset and increase as the sun set and then would trailed off a half hour later. There was something that the Nameless were trying to prevent me from doing. I suspected that they were attempting to prevent me from manifesting my desires and thoughts during this auspicious time. But, today was different.
Yesterday I spent most of the day in a blissful state. Today it was not as strong, but there were lingering effects and I could tell that I was still in the flow of well-being. I set off on a bike ride just before the sunset. I focused upon maintaining my connection to the source consciousness and increased my pace in order to aid in settling my mind and focus my intention. Some time after the sun set a wave of contentment came over me. I found myself in the same state of bliss as the day before. I sat up and opened my arms to take it all in. I looked toward the setting sun, the orange and blue sky never looked more beautiful. I was again in the flow of source consciousness riding along on my bike, my hands freezing from the cold night air without a care in the world.
I returned home and I noticed that I am seeing the world differently. Everything is as it should be. There is purpose and significance to all things. I am lucid in my dream and I no longer have issues with all that I experience. Everything seems to be falling into place or I am now in harmony with everything. I find myself experiencing things and then acknowledging that I understand its purpose. I pause and shake my head in amazement as I appreciate the significance of that experience. I can't help but want more of those experiences in my life. I think how cool this all is, but then I remind myself that this is just the beginning.
Some Things of Substance
My journey through the void was the beginning of a conscious transformation that continue to this very moment. The Nameless were revealed to me, but they tolerated me. Occasional small doses of DMT were not an issue with the Nameless, but whenever I used cannabis they went out of their way to let me know that they did not approve. I remember how my life changed whenever I would take a toke while at a party during the days of my youth before I knew the Nameless existed. There were even times when I would see an image in my mind of a future incident after taking a few hits and meditating. I never consumed cannabis on a regular basis. At that time I did not know how to use it properly.
When I was living in Hawaii I was using white powdered gold to bring
about a change in myself. I was determined to transform into what I
thought I should be. The image of a yogi, a monk, a peaceful warrior
with an awakened mind was always in the back of my own mind. I was
searching for something that opened my consciousness to the life I was living. I
searched for simplicity. The alchemical powder was, and still is, of great benefit to
me. I believe that when I combined the use of cannabis and white
powdered gold there was a shift in consciousness that I was not aware
of. Life began to unfold in interesting a dramatic ways. It was at that time that the Nameless
swiftly descended on me trying to send a message to stop what I was
doing. Since that time I have since stopped using cannabis, but my experiences with my past use are of great interest to me.
The
beauty and usefulness of substances that are capable of altering
consciousness is that they offer insight into other possibilities. The
realm of consciousness is vast. It should be explored, carefully. What
we see in your daily life is such a small measure of what is possible
that I cannot find a word that could describe it fully. Like a dream unfolding
before you where anything is possible. As you live this dream your
thoughts and desires influence the direction of the expansion of the
dream in an infinite ever changing possibilities and directions. There are many layers or dimensions intersecting and interacting. Creation in constant motion, the whole of consciousness expanding in relation to this creation.
The expansion of consciousness expands the range of infinite possibilities we are able to experience. There is so much more to this experience than we are able to experience or possibly allowed to experience. Don't allow anyone regulate what you can put in your body (as an adult) in the privacy of your own home.
I have spent most of the day in a state of well-being and contentment. I wanted to share this feeling with everyone and anyone, so I thought that writing a post would be a good way to do this.
When I first felt a wave of utter contentment engulf me, it was when I was spending a lot of time meditating. I meditated as many times a day as I could. One day I was cutting wood late in the day in preparation for a stormy evening. The wind was blowing the leaves from the tress above me. Gusts of wind were roaring through the branches. The environment was exciting and full of activity. I always appreciated the power of our natural settings. It was always an awesome sight to behold when things were unsettled. I sat down in a patch of grass and leaves to take in my surroundings, and the feeling of bliss began to wash over me. At first is was slow and then it began to build as I gave into it. Then I surrendered fully and it was nothing like I had ever felt before. There is nothing like the first time.
I have had several other moments of feeling blissful. I appreciate them when they come, even more so when I am able to sustain them. Normally those that are watching me do whatever is necessary to end my bliss, today was different. Even though I have become accustomed to having frequent days of bliss and feelings of love for everything, today was certainly the longest I have been able to sustain them.
In the past I had to focus and pay attention to it when it came to me. I would watch it rise and fall. It usually left me fighting to hold onto it. Today was different. Today it did wash over me, today if felt as if I was floating within it. I was caught in the flow of it. As I went about my day, I watched as it carried me along. It was always present even when I was distracted by my experiences. I could feel it pulling me along not allowing me to drift away. The time I spent with family members was flowing within it and everyone was happy. Life was easier.
Before I began to write, I felt compelled to sit and meditate and submit to it completely. It flows within me now even stronger than before and I hope that it will continue for the rest of my existence. If by chance when I wake up in the morning and not be able to feel its presence, it will not bother me. I now know that this will only be temporary. In its absence I will feel estranged, and I will realize that it is no longer normal to feel this way. I am beginning to believe that the state of well-being is our natural state. It is the way everyone should feel all the time. We belong in the flow of well-being to receive all that it has to offer. It feels like home to me. Like returning home after being gone for a very long time.
Today was different.
Love and light to all those that continue to help me find my way.
