This is a true account of my experiences as I attempt to attain enlightenment and ascend to a higher state of consciousness. I have discovered that there is a group of people, or beings, that are attempting to prevent my ascension, while others are aiding me in the ascension process. Original Site: www.i-am-xam.com - Kindle Book: The Prevention of Ascension Vol. 1
I cannot believe that it has been a few days over a year since my last post, "what a strange trip its been". I needed the time to myself to sort things out and reflect on the path my life has taken. I am a reddit member now and go by the flair of c-no-evil. I am subscribed to the psychonaut subreddit, as well as many others, so you can follow my online activity from there. I am starting to find others out there that have experienced similar acts of harm and intimidation. It is gratifying to know that I am not the only one suffering the scourge of those that are preventing postponing the expansion of human consciousness. I spent some time today reading my main site's past entries and I have to say that I was a mess, but the good news is that I am less of a mess today than when this all began. What has changed? Clarity of purpose, deeper connection to consciousness, purged my life of fear, and a knowing that karma is actively correcting the imbalance of this shared reality (those within the higher levels of consciousness are aware of what is happening here). I have tried, for a year, to apply the laws of attraction to my situation, but the specter of those I call the Nameless could not be removed. Most recently they attempted to cause me physical harm while I was driving. I had a car accident. A truck pulled out in front of me from a parking lot and I hit it broadside. The damage to my vehicle was extensive, but I walked away without a scratch, but a little shaken. Most say I was very lucky, but I know differently. This was not the first time something similar happened, many years ago I experienced a close call. I cannot be certain if I am consciously, or subconsciously, able to effect my reality in such a powerful and positive manner or there are other benevolent forces at work protecting me from harm (this seems more relevant given my experiences from the past couple of years). Conversely, I may have exited that level of consciousness (died in the wreckage) and continued onto another, anything within the realm of consciousness is possible. I cannot say that I will post everyday, but at least once a week. Until then, keep the love and light of consciousness well above the darkness of fear. Our conscious revolution (correction) is well underway.
The only heaven and hell that exists is
the one that you create for yourself. There is no salvation waiting
for the moral and noble, nor is there purgatory waiting for those
that choose a life that harms others as well as themselves. You don't
have to wait for the end of this existence in order to reap the
rewards or punishment for your actions, you are reaping them right
now. Some of you might be satisfied with all that you have
accomplished. Satisfaction breeds mediocrity and complacency. That by
which you surround yourself with, the accomplishments of your
actions, shrouds yourself from much more. Satisfied or dissatisfied,
it is mostly up to you and your actions.
What I am discovering is that the
Nameless are just as limited as the rest of us. Take a look at the
existence that is seemingly controlled by this group of people
(beings), they are as faulty as the rest of us. They have difficulty
in reigning in those that are lucid in the dreamworld of this
reality. They control by fear and desires of their own making. The
most difficult part of understanding this level of existence are the
habits that keep you here. Your actions no matter how insignificant
have a role in the amount of vibrational energy you possess at any
given time. The more vibrational energy that you are able to maintain
protects you from the influence and actions of the Nameless. I have
discovered that by quitting some habits, that I have known to be an
inhibiting influence in my life, I am making progress in ways that
were not expected.
Lead Me Not Into Temptation
I cannot be sure of what I am
experiencing at all (not necessarily a bad thing). I still struggle
with understanding everything that occurs an how much influence I
have on the creation or manifestation of everything within my
experience. I do see that I am constantly being tempted, but I cannot
discern between my thoughts and possibly the influence of others. As
I gain energy (vibrate at different frequencies) my conscious cloud
changes. It becomes less dense and expands to allow me to see more.
This also increases the amount level of temptation. In the past I
would succumb to those inhibiting habits and fall back to that
stagnant existence of my reality. I am more in command at this time.
The temptations are signs of progress and are no longer
desirable. My desires are focussed upon emancipation.
There is something to the many monks
that have given up on the temptations this existence has to offer. It
is beginning to make more sense to me as I sort out my own path
through the maze I have found myself within. There are as many levels
of temptation as there are levels of ascension. I am now using
abstention as a means to ascension. Higher (or different) levels of
vibration attract similar levels of tempting experiences. To indulge
(a form of attachment) causes a kind of “wait state” until you
are able to free yourself from it. It is an ever evolving process of
creation, manifestation and the resulting reaction that again
recreates and re-manifests. Think of a fractal image that is
collapsing or expanding upon itself with subtle vibrations altering
the image as it moves through time. Desirable elements of the fractal
image can carry you with it, thereby taking your attention from the
constant evolution. This is my best and current explanation for what
I am able to discern from my experiences. Temptations are
distractions and this existence is full of distractions. It is as if
we have entered into a level where we have given into the
distractions for such a long time that we can no longer escape it.
This existence is the island of the Lotus Eaters. Are the Nameless
are providing these distractions or are they exploiting our apathy
towards our true purpose?
I have gotten to a point where I can
witness how my conscious experiences are effected by others in my
life. I am able to see how their vibrational energy effects their own
conscious experiences, predominant thoughts and desires when they
are near me. I am not sure if my vibrational energy is amplifying
their thoughts or if I am just able to witness them create their life
in real time. I am able to see how people come into their conscious
cloud in order to facilitate a desire (thoughts, intentions, both
positive and negative in nature). I can observe a person move past me
and see the interaction of their conscious reality unfolding before
them. I can see this because I am still transitioning from one
paradigm of thought to the next. It is a difficult task to stay
focussed on the creation of my existence all the time. There are far
too many bad habits as well as the many years that have allowed those
habits to find a sense of permanence. I am aware, so I am able to
make corrections and adjustments in attitude to continue.
Paying For Attention
I am reluctant to post this information
here because of how it effects my conscious experiences. This is also
a forum that the Nameless have used in the past in order to
understand my current level of vibrational energy. I have posted some
experiences in the past that have proven to be helpful to the
Nameless in their endeavors to inhibit my progress. The Nameless are
doing their best to get close enough to me to know what I am up to,
but they are again standing out in the crowd. The higher level of
energy I am able to maintain the more difficult it is for them to
monitor me with their minions, they have to do it themselves. When
they come out to observe me I sense them. It is as if they were
transmitting a signal that lets me know where they are. I am doing
what I can to continue toward my path of ascension, but I cannot
reveal all that I am doing at this time. When I post my experiences
here I have to give them a certain amount of attention. The attention
I give them brings our conscious clouds together, it gives them the
opportunity to interact with me. The more time I spend giving my
attention to ascension and emancipation the farther I move away from
them. I look forward to the moment when I no longer grant them a
thought.
Correctional Institution
The days when I used psilocybin
regularly, prior to my journey into the void, I used to see my
existence as a mental institution. Living spaces (track homes, dorms,
barracks, apartments, quarters, communities) looked too confining.
Living spaces and work places confined and defined everyone. Good
behavior is rewarded and grants someone a opportunity to move up the
ranks (gain special privileges). Before discovering (or entering this
state of consciousness) the Nameless, I noticed that there were
people in my life that seemed to be attempting to influence me. Now
that I am aware of the Nameless I have these minor epiphanies
concerning the role of the Nameless in my past experiences. Join us!
Be more like us! I belong to this congregation! I am a member of this
organization! I work for this corporation! Most of them were all
steering me into a role of servitude, serving the group. It is funny
the only thing I ever really wanted was something they could not give
me, my emancipation from this existence.
This existence, reality, is a prison. I
try to stay away from quotes from popular films, but a quote from The
Matrix cannot be ignore. This reality is a prison for the mind. There
cannot be a better description than that. Heaven and hell can be
found here if you choose to follow the well worn paths that are made
available to you. The work you do is for them. The national pride you
have is for them. The cultural boundaries are to keep you segregated.
The limitations that you may or may not perceive are methods of
control. What you do not know is that there are many other
alternatives. Most of you will fail at finding an alternate path. It
is not because you are physically or mentally weak, it is because you
have too much invested in this reality to abandon it (family,
friends, property, cultural and social accomplishments). If you are
like myself and you are capable of risking it all to find what you
are looking for, you will find it.
Risking Everything
What can you give a person that wants
nothing?
I am kicking down the limitations of my
(un)conscious experience. That by which defines my reality is
breaking under the relentless stress of my will. I no longer feel
that I might be delusional. That affliction was just a phase
necessary to rationalize my experiences. What I experience is as with
any dream, both real and unreal. As I continue to understand this I
am better able to exist. Chipping away at the boundaries of this
prison is revealing a lot of cracks. Each one of those cracks
presents opportunities and further incentive to continue.
I'm gett'n ready to rock my world... I
have never been so focussed. As things change I gain more focus and
gain greater desire to see this through to the end (if there is an
end to this infinite journey). I am actively conducting my conscious
interaction with the greater consciousness. A strange part about all
of this is that I should be amazed, but it seems all too familiar. I
cannot be sure (of anything), but I might have done this before. How
long have I been here? How many times have I gone through this? I
wonder if I am close or just stuck in a loop. It is important that
you never allow your mind to get caught in a routine (a downward
spiral).
She held a gun against my head. I had
a feeling that this was going to be it. I just closed my eyes and
surrendered to what was going to happen. I waited, the gun went off. I felt
a blow to my head and felt the blood running down my neck. I fell over on my face and everything began to go black. But, then I
became aware that this was just a dream. I grabbed for the gun and
took it away from her. I grabbed her by the throat and began to drag
her as I got up and walked away. I had no harsh feelings for her, she
was just a character, a prop in this unconscious experience. The awareness of the dream became
stronger and I woke up. My body was shaking, but my mind was calm. I
thought it was odd that my body shook almost uncontrollably, but my
mind was still and observant. I lay there and began to smile as I
thought about what had happened and observing my calm and content
emotional state. I was unmoved and unconcerned. My body became
relaxed and I fell back asleep unconcerned about the dream I just
experienced. I woke up a few hours later remembering the dream and
its significance.
With some of the things that I am doing
within the reality of my existence, I am again seeing the edges of
this reality. The amount of control I have in the creation of my
daily activities is fascinating, and also very humbling. The moment I
acknowledge my part in the manifestation of events in my reality I am
reassuring myself of the possibility of it. I am like a child
beginning to walk and move about. I am no longer confined to the crib
of my benightedness. My new awareness is changing me (whoever I am).
The habits that have kept me here (wherever here is) can no longer be
tolerated. Whatever that inhibits my ascension is becoming
detestable; a part of me that I no longer know. I am again dancing on
the edge of this level of consciousness. I see people that I don't
normally see. The attractive ones that stand out. The ones that I
feel or sense as they enter my conscious cloud.
The spooks (nameless minions sent to
scare me) are making themselves seen, but they don't bother me. I
know who they are and the purpose they serve, but they are unable to
override my feeling of content and my overall sense of well-being.
They come by and present themselves, but I have little fear or worry.
The awareness of dreaming that I had experienced in the dream I
mentioned above is similar. There is a part of me that takes over and
I realize that there is nothing to be afraid of. This is all just an unconscious dreamworld, I can no longer deny this. I refer to our waking reality as an unconscious experience, because it fits. This reality is so far from being conscious that we no longer know what it is to be conscious.
Eternal
I have recurring thoughts that I might have died on my way through the
void. There are other events in my life that I might not have
survived, but consciousness continued as if nothing had happened. The
vibrational string of my life continues. The many permutations of my creation
expanding as the universe of my consciousness expands. One thread ends, another begins and I never know it happens. But, I can now see the truth in it. I can see that there is no end. There is an end to this delusion though and it begins with the realization that there is no end.
We are eternal. Aging and death are just ways that consciousness gives us another chance to get it right. We spend too much time trying to get ahead when we should be trying to go beyond this reality.
Perseverance
I am starting to put it all together. One action causes a reaction within my conscious cloud and I am better able to interpret the meaning. I am learning what I need to do from consciousness itself. As I continue
to tear down the veil of this delusion I see the flaws. What I have
been perceiving as real is falling apart and the flaws can no longer
be set aside. It is as if the once perfect performance (theatrical) of this
reality can not longer stand up to the scrutiny of my new awareness.
I am driven by my dissatisfaction of this existence. I occasionally find myself fighting off a desire for retribution, to find those that
have worked so hard to keep me here in this deprived state for so
long and release my discontent upon them. I hope that those feelings will continue to fade.
I am diligently trying to hack this
reality. It is as if I am manipulating my conscious awareness,
knowingly altering my state of being, ultimately altering my state of
vibrational existence. I have taken the blue pill
and I am entering a state where everything (everything) is possible and
nothing is real.
The last post seemed to bring a lot of
attention on many levels. It is always good to get some feedback and
I appreciate it. Some of the feedback has not been so good, but
appreciated. The Nameless have stepped up their use of
electromagnetic or RF (radio frequency) radiation on me. It has a
been a little different from the constant exposure I originally
received while in Hawaii. There seems to be a given protocol that is
followed when it comes to suppressing someone like myself regardless
of the geographical differences. I thought I would try to explain
what I have been experiencing. You might find that you may be
experiencing similar symptoms to the exposure.
I remember taking my HAM radio license
test and receiving interesting amount of attention from the members
of the local HAM radio club that was hosting the exam. The majority
of the members in the club as well as the majority of people taking
the exam were, on some level, part of the organization I refer to as
the Nameless. They spent a good deal of time scrutinizing me from the
moment I arrived to the time I departed. My knowledge concerning RF
radiation is limited, but I know a little bit about what electro
magnetic radiation is capable of, concerning the human body. It makes
sense that the Nameless would be keep their members informed and
licensed about the use of radio frequency if it was being used for
other purposes other than communication.
I am not going to go into depth
concerning the radio frequencies, because there are plenty of online
sources that could do a better job explaining what they are, how they
are generated, as well as the many different types. What I would like
to say is that our environment is saturated with them. The sun and
other stars produce radio waves. The radio active materials in our
environment produce radio waves. Power lines, the electrical current
in your home, the wireless router, your mobile device, the monitor
you are using to view this post, any electronic device can produce
levels of radiation. Most of the devices are subject to FCC
regulations, and they are all supposed to be safe for limited amounts
of exposure. We live in a sea of electromagnetic radiation and as the
use of mobile technology increases the level of saturation must also
increase. The thicker the levels of electromagnetic radiation the
easier it is to hide something within them (sub-bands, sidebands,
phase modulation, polarization modulation).
So you might ask, what's the problem?
The problem is that the human body is an electrical system.
Electricity flows through the body and is necessary in order to live
and function. Too much electricity (direct contact) is harmful or fatal
depending on the level of current, particularly amperes. Tasers uses high
voltage to incapacitate you, defibrillators use high voltages to
restart your heart while your home's electrical current can kill you
with low voltage and a mere quarter amp. We are electrical beings and
too much electromagnetic radiation in our environment produces
interference. But, what is the threshold? What level is low enough to
go unnoticed, but high enough to make you feel despondent, lethargic,
hyperactive, confused, depressed, angry, aggressive or indifferent?
There is also the aspect of more subtle electrical transmissions from
the brain that are being interfered with by this sea of radio waves
that permeate our environment. The radiation is not natural and
should be considered a kind of unseen environmental pollutant that
not only affects the physical body, but also spiritual consciousness.
Two people are
standing on the same street corner at the exact same time of day,
both are distracted and focused upon something else. There is a
commotion at a coffee shop across the street, and a man runs from the
coffee shop and into traffic. A car slams on its brakes and swerves
towards the two people standing on the street corner. The car hits a
fire hydrant, and the entire street corner is engulfed in a spray of
water. The two people run for cover in a nearby market and look up
and recognize one another. One says to the other where have you been,
I have been waiting for you for the past 15 minutes. The other says
almost the same thing. They both go over to the coffee shop for their
preplanned meeting and talk about what just happened. They get most
of their story right about what they witnessed, but they can't agree
on everything. A person is sitting next to them in the coffee shop.
He hears what they are talking about and smiles because he thinks
they are both wrong about what happened.
We are constantly interpreting the
reality we see, but we can only interpret what we have already seen.
In other words we can only interpret something that has already
happened and not what is actually happening. In order to interpret
what is actually happening our mind would have to be capable of
prescience. That is to see it before it happens, interpret the
information and react as it actually happens. The lag between seeing
something and responding is called reaction time. It is within the
reaction time that details get discarded, or filtered out. The filter
is not a standard instinctual built in filter that we all share, it
is based upon accumulated personal experiences called your frame of
reference. You see it, interpret and filter the information and then
you react. We are all actually living in the past. The only time we
do not live in the past is when we are meditating. No thought, no
interpretation, no time, just the moment, for as long as you can make
it last.
We have all experienced a series of
events and tried to recall everything that happened. Some of us get
it right, but most of us miss key elements within the events. This is
partially because we are distracted, preoccupied with other thoughts,
or multitasking, but rarely in the moment. We are also limited by our
natural abilities and senses. Our eyes are capable of seeing a
limited portion of the known visible spectrum. We see by reflected
light and have limited night vision. Our ears are severely limited
and our sense of smell is one of the most retarded of most mammals.
We know this because we have created tools that can see, smell and
hear the things we cannot. We also know that our tools are limited in
reading and interpreting everything contained within our reality. We
know this and we accept it without questioning.
We realize that our mind is limited,
well, most of us realize this. Many of us believe that what we are
seeing is real and not a series of electrical impulses interpreted by
our brain (hardware). The mind (software) then attempts to make sense
out of what we are seeing. If we are having difficulty understanding
what we see, or we are inundated with too much information in a short
amount of time, we become confused. Within confusion is a storm of
activity where some interesting things are happening. We begin ease
our confusion with information we are comfortable with. Our frame of
reference steps in to calm the firestorm of confusing synaptic
activity and filters the information leaving out the more confusing
aspects by substituting them with familiar images and information. We
know this and accept it without questioning.
We know that the mind is severely
limited by the accumulated images and information that is contained
within it (memory). It is very difficult if not impossible for the
human mind to create something that does not resemble something that
already exists. Even if we were to encounter something that we do not
have a point of reference to, it may not be possible to see it at
all. If the mind does not have anything closely related to what it is
attempting to interpret it might just make something up, something
that is the best possible mockup of what it is attempting to
interpret.
One of the tools we use to navigate our
reality is that we do so by making comparisons. If there is a need to
describe something then a common aspect must be established. If that
common aspect cannot be established communication, interpretation,
visualization, etc... stops. We know this because it is impossible to
describe the color red to a person that has been blind since birth.
People that have been blind since birth lack the visual information
necessary to understand what you are talking about. Blind people have the ability to feel and hear their surrounding environment. Is impossible to describe the
color red as a tactile sensation or audio vibration? It is also interesting to note that
people who have been blind since birth dream in what can be loosely
described as cloud like shadows. The emotional content of their
dreams are still present, because they have the necessary information
from their waking experiences. Emotions and sensations occur without
the visual imagery because the brain lacks the visual data. The
brain/mind cannot create something that it has no reference to. If the brain/mind was capable of creating something without any reference, then people that have been blind since birth would dream as
sighted people dream.
There are some people that have extra
sensory perceptions. The ability to see future events. The ability to
know what others are thinking. The ability to see apparitions; dead
people. We have seen these people in action on television and even
carnival side shows. On the other hand there are also people that are
able to turn off sensations and emotions in order to endure a painful
event. As well as, super human feats of strength during times of
crisis. We know this and accept it without questioning, but can
these abilities be turned on and off at will? The limitations of the
brain and mind might be due to the manner in which we use it. Could
there be a means of controlling and activating the known and unknown
(dormant) abilities of our brain and mind? I don't know of any
instructions on how this can be accomplished, but that does not keep
me from trying.
Psychedelics
The mind is a terrible thing. It
filters out much of your everyday sensory information. If the mind
tried to interpret everything within the so-called reality then it
would probably melt down (aka nervous breakdown). The mind filters a
very large portion of the various external stimuli from the environment and also
turns off sensations that cause too much of a distraction. It does so
without your conscious input. Attention to these sensations are
deemed unnecessary through environmental and social conditioning. The imagination is stunted at a very early age. A child that is able to see things that their parents cannot see is scolded or sent to a psychiatrist. We are all conditioned to disregard the strange and unusual that exists in our everyday conscious experiences. Our once open mind has been shackled and confined to one mundane point of focus. If you think I am wrong then you might consider turning on the external stimuli
that are shut off. If you are like most people you're not
going to be able to do it. It is not because it is impossible, it is
because you do not know how. Do not fear, there are chemicals abound
to help you temporarily turn on those sensations one by one or all at
once.
Natural plant substances that exist in
our reality that are capable of turning on parts of the brain exist
for a reason. Primitive cultures accidentally stumbled upon these
substances while they were gathering food. Various mushrooms, roots,
bark, plant leaves, flowers, cacti, minerals, elements are capable of
partially, or permanently, freeing the soul (consciousness) from the
body. Altered states of consciousness expanded their understanding of
consciousness. Imagine what occurred in the mind of the first person
to experience Amanita muscaria (the famous bright red mushroom with
white spots), psilocybin, or peyote. To not have a reference to an
altered state of consciousness and to then slide into a completely
foreign plane of existence is nothing less than extraordinary. What
is more interesting is how that experience changed their conscious
reality. Not to mention the frequent use of psilocybin having a side
effect of increasing visual acuity of primitive cultures as an aid in
surviving their natural environment. I am not going to continue on
about the relationship between plants and humankind because there is
plenty of information on the subject of ethnobotany by Terrence
McKenna and others.
I am not convinced that 2012 is anything to worry about, but it may be something to be consciously prepared for. Dec 21st may not end in a big bang, it may just be the beginning of conscious evolution. I do want to mention that we as a
society have outlawed and banned the personal use of psychedelics and
have suffered because of this. We live in a spiritually stagnant
evolutionary period because we are not comfortable with altering the
conscious experiences of this reality. I believe this is being done
on purpose to funnel our conscious experiences, or reality, through
only one of many possible avenues.
With all the limitations of our senses
how can we really know what is real? It is easy to trick the mind and
senses in believing something contrary to what actually exists.
Knowing all the limitations of our senses and mind how can we
consciously accept our reality as being absolute. We do so because we
have to conform to this pre-conceived (more in the sense of being
created or formed prior to our arrival) social construct in order to
survive it. Take note as to what I am saying: We have to believe in
something that might be a delusion, accept it and participate in it
because we fear that non-participation may lead to difficulty or an
premature end to the delusion, otherwise know as death. For some
reason , it resembles a snake eating its own tail. We still accept
this even though we agree that life is difficult. We do not want it
to be any more difficult so we participate. The current social
construct makes sure of this, participate and conform or perish. The
recollection of the act of repeating this delusional cycle is
sometimes celebrated. People talk about past lives as if it were some
kind of accomplishment. Are they? I believe that this cycle can be
broken, making the achievement of immortality more of an
accomplishment worth noting.
The constraints of our social construct
serves only the social construct and not the individual. We have well
established acceptable behaviors on all levels of social conduct (and
ethnic, cultural, national, juvenile, criminal levels). It is
possible to be too “out there” (crazy) for most people to
understand. There have been far too many visionaries that were
labeled insane or demonized, most of them being women. We proudly
protect our conscious reality by medicating, institutionalizing, and
killing any one that is a threat to its validity. We even search for
predispositions of divergent traits in children to shut them down
with medications before they have a chance to manifest.
When someone sees something that others
cannot see, or they see it in a completely different way, it is
tagged an abnormality. Because the majority cannot see it then they
must be abnormal or insane, even though, as I have mentioned above,
people are unable to see everything due to the physical and mental
limitations of our organs and senses. As a whole we have not evolved
in a direction that would appreciate thoughts that diverge from the
general consensus of this reality, mostly due to fear.
Seeing
When I describe what I see, I know what
has to happen in order for this to occur. I know that illusions, as
well as delusions can exist in my mind while I attempt to interpret
my conscious experiences. As this is happening, I know that I am only
seeing a small portion of what may be vying for my attention. I also
know that I may not be seeing everything that is happening nor am I
able to interpret everything; not at this time anyway...
These people I call the Nameless are
real enough for me to have worked with them and for them. I have
stood behind them in lines and provoked them to become uncomfortable
just by taunting them with my thoughts. I have been mistaken for them
by their minions and treated as if I were important or a celebrity. I
was invited to their parties as they attempted to indoctrinate me
into their exclusive group (At these parties their women would stand
by my side as if they were presenting themselves to me as a gift).
They have presented me with opportunities to work among them, a
“privilege”, I rejected. I have sat in their offices and listened
to their medical diagnoses. I have attended and visited their
educational institutions and even dated their daughters. Many years
prior to my journey through the void, one of my best friends was/is
one of them. They are more than just a delusional artifact of my
conscious experiences. And, yes I have considered that I might
actually be one of them that had lost his way. In any event, I have been called a
mutation by one of them, but I prefer to be referred to called an
anomaly.
I see this reality differently. I
agree. As I started to notice the differences I could have
disregarded them. After my exit from the void, it would have bee a
lot easier for me to just ignored or to have submitted to them when they
attacked me in Hawaii. But, I was given a glimpse into something that
I cannot forget. Believe me I tried to forget, to try to be normal
and participate in this grand delusion as if it were real. Because of
this glimpse into an entirely different conscious reality I cannot –
I will not – pretend it never happened.
Am I deluded? I do not know for
certain, but I am on my way to finding out what it is I am actually
experiencing or unable to experience. I have chosen a path that leads
me away from the cycle of birth and death. I take nothing for granted
and everything is suspect. But I now have a lifeline that tethers me
to something substantial, something familiar. No matter what this
reality throws my way I have something to keep me connected to source
consciousness.
So what keeps you grounded? I hope it
isn't this reality, even the ground (earth) we stand upon might be
just a manifestation of consciousness and nothing more. But, that
might be enough for you. For myself, I want something more. If what I
search for does not exist then I will find a means to create it.
Note: I have used the word manifest as
a means to describe the act of creating something or to provoke it
into existence, but it does not mean the same thing. Manifest and
create are not completely interchangeable. Manifestation connotes the
sublime, while creation is etherial.
We live in a society that has many rules (requirements, guidelines, directions). There are rules that govern just about everything we do. There are even rules that govern spirituality, a.k.a religion. Most of the rules concerning any mention of ascension primarily concerns the life lived prior to death, with death being the gateway to ascension and the life lived prior to death that determines if you ascend to some state of heaven, nirvana, etc... In other words, the life you live determines if you will ascend (be rewarded) after death.
What I am looking for are the rules to ascend prior to death. I am asking anyone to show me where this knowledge exists. I have asked this before and I am still trying to find out if there are general rules that are well known, understood and practiced. Please feel free to provide the answer to this question in the comments section.
Just to be clear, I am not looking for rules that define ascension after death in the text of the Koran, Bible, Torah, Rigveda, The Diamond Sutra, Kangyur, Tao Te Ching, Bagavad Gita, etc... I am looking for rules that would allow anyone to ascend while they are alive. We have all heard that love is the true path to enlightenment, but does it also apply to ascension? If there aren't any rules or instructions to ascend, then why? It seems as if ascending to higher states of consciousness has been left out of our social dialog. Why is this the case? Shouldn't we all be trying to ascend and/or transcend our current state of being?
Let me be clear what I mean by ascension. Ascension is to rise to a higher state of consciousness where virtually anything is possible. To be able to be in harmony with consciousness in a manner that allows you to consciously create your reality in a more direct manner. To be connected to consciousness where all knowledge is available to you. It is a state where you no longer use your mind to think because you exist in a state of knowing. Because you are completely connected to consciousness, it is also a state of immortality.
My last post must have been more accurate than I thought. I can always count on the Nameless to react to my actions that threaten the paradigm they depend on to maintain this grand delusion. Now that I am inspired by, and connected to, source consciousness my journey is taking me away from anything that might be an obstacle to my ascension in its many forms.
A Mental and Physical Workout
The day was a good day, just as I intended. I have been humming along guided by an undercurrent of well-being. It is becoming easier to connect to it. A couple days ago I was overcome with the fact that I am truly fearless. It was a new aspect of my new state of well-being. Everything I did had an air of confidence. I did not concern myself with worry about anything. I found myself living in the moment and within the moment everything was beautiful.
The day was beautiful. A bright sun and crystal clear skies were joined by a windy chill. I could not wait for a chance to go for a bike ride. Late in the day I gathered my gear and set off my ride and a chance to capture some pictures of the setting sun. I exited the house and rolled down the street. I saw the one of the Nameless minions (half-bred hybrids of the Nameless and their brood) that lives at the corner walking out with his cell phone in hand. I did not care, I just hummed along my way.
I am aware that all I see is there for me, nothing is a coincidence. This is my dream unfolding before me, co-creation with source consciousness. I pay attention and make adjustments, nothing is taken for granted. I connected to the hum of source consciousness, set my sights on a wonderful ride and put the minion out of my mind.
I rode along the back roads I had not been on in a while. I saw the new homes and neighborhoods that have been built where there used to be nothing but pasture and open space. I was enjoying the ride and the accompanying feeling of well-being. I had traveled about 10 miles, I could have gone further, I wanted to, but the sun was about to set. I turned around to head back home and started to look for high ground to take in the setting sun.
I turned into one of the new neighborhoods and climbed to the top of a hill. I watched the sun set and took pictures at different intervals. Soon after the sun set I rode down the hill and headed back home. I started to notice that I was starting to worry. One thought lead to another and soon my mood went into a downward spiral toward fear and frustration. It felt as if something was dragging me from my connection to source consciousness, kicking and screaming. I fought back and began to focus on the moment and more positive emotions. I was locked in a battle to rid myself of the negativity that suddenly came on with my own style of mental kung fu.
Birds of a feather flock together. Because we exist in the same space we must be vibrating at the same frequency. We can only experience things of similar frequency, but what about things of the same frequency that are slightly out of phase? Is it possible to be slightly out of phase and not see something or someone that is occupying the same space?
Phase difference is the difference, expressed in electrical
degrees or time, between two waves having the same frequency and
referenced to the same point in time.[1] Two oscillators that have the same frequency and different phases have a phase difference, and the oscillators are said to be out of phase with each other. The amount by which such oscillators are out of step with each other can be expressed in degrees from 0° to 360°, or in radians from 0 to 2π. If the phase difference is 180 degrees (π radians), then the two oscillators are said to be in antiphase. If two interacting waves meet at a point where they are in antiphase, then destructive interference
will occur. It is common for waves of electromagnetic (light, RF),
acoustic (sound) or other energy to become superposed in their
transmission medium. When that happens, the phase difference determines
whether they reinforce or weaken each other. Complete cancellation is
possible for waves with equal amplitudes.
This page has been broadcasted over a satellite network and out into space. This page and the information contained within it existed in a variety of digital forms and frequencies. Is it possible that this web page can exist on many
different dimensions of time and space to be seen by beings of different vibrational frequencies? Crop circles might come to mind whenever I think about how this might be possible.
Phasers?
During the time when the Nameless were using their technology to drain my life force from me, the following day I went out to the market. I noticed that the neighborhood I lived in was different. There were sketchy people standing on the corners as if they were dealing in stolen goods. Most of the people I saw looked as if they were suffering from some kind of substance abuse. Everything looked as if it were run down. The vibrational level of my immediate environment was the lowest I had ever experienced. Just a few days before everything seemed normal, comfortable and pleasing.
The following days I was able to regain my energy and return to my normal state of being. I also saw an improvement in my immediate environment. The people I saw were healthier and the sketchy dealers were nowhere to be seen. The neighborhood was cleaner and clearer. I had always noticed the changes in my environment were a direct response to my thoughts and actions. These were the clues or breadcrumbs that sustained my curiosity and ultimately lead my psychedelic trip through the void and the resulting revelations.
Where the Nameless able to alter my vibrational frequency enough to change my conscious experience or put me out of phase with my perceived normal conscious reality? (Normal conscious reality? Is there such a thing?).
Anyone that had ever taken the time to define consciousness, was for the most part, wrong. They were also right and somewhere in the middle. Consciousness cannot not be defined universally. I mean to say that it there is not one single answer (I realize that I am trying to explain, and ultimately define, consciousness - the perplexing fuzzy nature of consciousness). All answers are right, and wrong.
Religion is a means to describe and understand consciousness. Most religions define consciousness as God or Gods. There are so many different religious beliefs and manifestations of those beliefs that have come and gone probably far too many to know or be able to record. The many faces of mythology are proof that consciousness is multi infinitely faceted. Not all religions agree, but anyone can see a single thread that weaves them all together. What is consciousness? What if it was up to you to decide.
If I would say that you are the center of the universe, this would be an understatement on a very grand scale. It does not matter if you are sitting in your room, standing on a mountain or at the center of a galaxy, you are at the center of consciousness. It can be no other way. You view everything from a single point in consciousness, your consciousness (your very own private Idaho). This is true for you and everyone else. Nothing new here concerning the self centered philosophies of old. This is one of my personal facets of what consciousness means to me. I am sure it will change over time or become irrelevant.
There have been many times when I have attempted to define consciousness. Pages of words that regurgitate the words of those that have come before me. When I read the drafts, journals and notes of my own attempts I see that they are very different form each other. I do not see a single thread that weaves them all together. Some of them no longer connect with me. I am beginning to see why.
Consciousness is a moving target. Consciousness is a metaphor, an apparition of the past present and future states of being existing in the moment. As I sit here again trying to put my feelings into words, I have a image in my mind of a child being tended to by its parents. I am a child of consciousness? I now get an image of cells dividing, expanding and again dividing. Anything is possible and everything is a valid representation of consciousness.
Before I posted this I was struck by the thought that any attempt to define consciousness also limits consciousness. A label or container that confines a concept. I can see why many people have used the terms infinite and formless as a means to describe consciousness. They still do not do it justice.
I posted this against my better judgement. I want to see how these words
effect my consciousness and how they manifest themselves within my
conscious experiences...
