Who is Elisa Lam?

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I came across this video from a Targeted Individual Facebook group. Most of the attacks I describe on this site and in my ebook are mentioned in this video. There seems to be a lot of people being experimented on and controlled with weapons and a means of influencing the thoughts of people with microwave technology.

The above video has offered proof that what I have been experiencing is not a result of my lack of sanity. What I have endured and still endure is a real effort to silence what I have discovered. Even though I remained silent for a bout a year the microwave electromagnetic radiation did not. During that year, I continued to experiment with methods to increase my bioelectric and spiritual energy and they ensured that anything I did to raise my energy levels they countered with these weapons.

For me there is still unanswered questions I have concerning those I refer to as the Nameless. They seem to be at the center of this in my experiences. My relationship with these people is tangled. I recently stumbled across a few of them and in response to this they sent another stalking perp with a handler to try and scare me again. These are the same people I can sense when they are near me. They can sense me also, and often try to run off while hiding their face from me. What happens to them when I see their face? It is a strange aspect of my experiences. It seems like I am able to expose them, but to whom?

A lot of this is beginning to unravel for myself and others. When I hear the testimonials of victims I shutter in recognition of what they have to endure. I recall my own experiences and the hell they put me through, but what saddens me the most is that there is a group of people willing to do this to another person. There is someone (something) sitting at the controls and aiming a microwave weapon at them to torture them and to control them. Considering the amount of people reporting some kind of control or torture there must be thousands of people operating this technology. Who would do such a thing? Who would work at a job that tortures people on a daily basis? I never thought that it would be possible for a human being to do such a thing to another human being. The thought sickens me. What state of mind must a person be in to participate in torturing targeted individuals? A very sick mind...

One characteristic I have noticed. Whenever I had been mistaken by one of the minions of the Nameless, to be one of the Nameless, they have offered to help me. I have been helped in stores by people that did not work at the store. It was as if I they were programmed to respond. Women have stood next to me with their heads slightly lowered waiting subserviently to be acknowledged by me. I have run into many store cashiers that had suddenly become strangely confused and disoriented when I am purchasing goods. It makes me wonder if these people are mind controlled slaves for the Nameless. I have often hinted at this sort of thing, but the above evidence presented in the video might be used to create these mindless slaves. This is even a bit too much for even me to want to believe.

I have faith that this sort of thing cannot continue. I believe that consciousness cannot sustain such evil and unchecked malevolence. Karma is a law of consciousness that cannot be ignored or avoided. It is the force of karma that has allowed this information to be disseminated and once more people become aware of this the more these people and their organization will be revealed. Once it is out in the open the people of the world no longer allow it, and better yet consciousness will not be able to sustain such evil.

Watch the video (there are two parts) and visit the site. Tell other people about this strange thing called targeted individuals and gang stalking. Help us spread the word about this tragic era of torture and mind control we have entered unknowingly.

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Email Account Access Problems

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I have been experiencing problems accessing my email associated with xam@i-am-xam.com. Please use this forum to contact me. Even the comments on this blog can be deleted by my gang stalking friends. Please be patient and persistent. Will turn off moderation so comments will post immediately.

I will find other means of being contacted. I will join other forums and start posting conversations here. Let's find out what they are capable of, shall we. 

Not just casual stalking going on with me. Seems like the have some technical assistance from some crafty hackers. 

Stay tuned...

If all activity from me ends, the they won. I'll be helping from the other side. Stay strong. 

Gang Stalking

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Now how about that. There is a term for what I have been experiencing. Thank you, thank you, thank you, Herr A from Germany. A special thanks to Carissa Conti for her site and insight into this phenomena.

Now I know how to handle this. You cannot imagine what a relief this is for me. To know that there are many others that are dealing with this sort of thing. This actually gives me purpose. I now know I can beat this. I now know I can beat them. Let the games resume you poor pathetic little parasites. Like I told you last night, I will find you...

WTF!

What the fuck do they believe they are doing. I am both angered and elated. Whatever is controlling this is feeding off of our fears. Lately I have been in control of my fears and the Nameless have had difficulty controlling me. If you feel no fear and essentially ignore them as well as show them courtesy and send them love they will have a look of defeat upon their face.

I just subscribed to the subreddit /r/Targetedindividuals now seven readers strong (LOL). Here are some other links to this phenom:

http://gangstalking.wordpress.com 
http://educate-yourself.org/cn/gangstalkingoverview15sep06.shtml
http://whatreallyhappened.wikia.com/wiki/Gang_Stalking
http://whatisgangstalking.blogspot.com
http://www.youtube.com/user/gangstalking
http://www.blogster.com/somebody/vacation-france

Just a few from a long list of sites.

What About The Rest?

I have had some other experiences that cannot be explained by Gang Stalking. The Nameless or ascended beings and their abilities to read the minds of others as well as the ability to cause a heart attacks as with, my assumption of, Rosie O'Donnel's close encounter with one of the Nameless (Also my theory that Steve Jobs was also a victim of the Nameless and their stalkers - Steve was standing in the way of the NSA PRISM program). And of course the Nameless hiding their faces from me, as well as leaving an area I enter. It seems that I have something they fear in me. And what about the etheric energy device I use to replenish the life force they sap from me on a daily basis. We'll figure all of this out in time.

I am a witness of consciousness. I asked for help and assistance and consciousness delivered. I cannot convey in words how I feel and the appreciation of those that have helped me since it all began in 2011.

"Forgive them for they do not know what they do"

http://iamxam.blogspot.com/2012/01/030111-transfered-from-original-blog.html

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This is might be a valid reason for all that I am experiencing. I will have to take a look at what Carissa Conti has to say about my experiences and possibly be prepared for what might still be coming.

I have asked for guidance and it seems to have arrived. I did not expect it in this form and noting the date of Herr A's comment it was presented to me almost a year ago. Obviously, I was not ready to hear nor heed its message. I will do some reading and research to see if this is what I am experiencing.

What lead to this has been noted in my Daily Journal. The strange and menacing behavior may be explained by the above comment. The character of these people are animated similar to a cartoon charter. Possession? I don't know if I am now influenced by the comment, but it kind of makes sense.

More on this on the next post...

Magicians, Deities and Consciousness

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Landing a helicopter in the early 1800s to talk to and help the citizenry with the knowledge and technology of our time would seem magical or downright godly.

The first time the Nameless used their technology on me I thought I was dying. They used their technology on me on a canyon road in Topanga CA. possibly hoping I would pass out and veer off of the steep clifs on that road. It happened again and after I made it home safely I made a farewell video for my then wife and family. The two instances caused me to think I was having a heart attack. Interesting since I was running from Topanga to Pacific Palisades on the trails of the Topanga Wildlife Preserve at least three times a week. I needed to be pretty fit to run the hills on those trails.

The next time I was hit by their E.M. beam I was in Hawaii. It was the climax of my escalating relationship with these people or beings. I remembered how the first two attacks felt and I knew I wasn't  having a heart attack, I knew they were doing it to me. On the day of a series of attacks I was telling them to fuck off and goading them to try and take me down. I moved from room to room trying to avoid the beam. I could feel the energy dissipate when I left one room and then build as it tracked me into another room in my apartment. I did not leave the apartment because I was afraid that I would lose consciousness in the hallway or elevator. The prospect that they might have been waiting on me to leave was also heavy on my mind. I ended the first evening wrapped in wet towels in the middle of my apartment in the fetal position. 

The next night it started again. Not knowing what was happening I began to apologized and begged for them to forgive me. I thought that some kind of UFO or aircraft from some powerful alien race was punishing me.I thought their ship was hovering above the apartment targeting me with another barrage from their death ray, Gods sent to claim my soul. As the attacks continued I was able to fend them off with aluminum foil and then a hastily and loosely constructed Faraday cage out of cardboard and foil grounded to the plumbing under the kitchen sink. I started to be able to discern where the beams originated from as the altered the position of the weapon to exploit the weakness of the faraday cage. Most of the remainder of the attacks where from a building adjacent to my apartment building and from the apartments above and below my own. Needless to say that what I once thought were Gods were just the acts of petty humans. The great Wizard of Oz was revealed to be a group of people living, or stationed, at my apartment complex. The journal of those attacks is located at the end of my ebook.

The last time they used their weapon on me while driving I pulled off the highway and moved amoung other drivers in close proximity. A few hazardous maneuvers placed me back on the highway without feeling the weapon again. I knew that the weapon was being used from one of the vehicles near me. It wasn't from an aircraft of any kind. They continue to use the weapon on my at my current residence, but since I am aware of them and their tactics it no longer frightens me. I know that they do so because I have reached a level of energy or life force that allows me to ascend to a higher state of consciousness. I know they just want to put me back in my place.

Today they resumed the attacks, but they were not as effective as they hoped. The EM field can be felt, but it is not as debilitating as it once was. I do not know if I am becoming immune or if I am being protected by some other source, but today was mild compared to the others. I went to the office of my appointment and the minions were just leaving, as they always do, casting a glance in my direction with the look of disdain and defeat.

It is not magic. It is not godly. It is not the behavior of some ascended being from another world. It is the behavior of humans that have acquired technology and use it to subjugate others to maintain power and control over others. It is the same behavior we have seen time and time again throughout our history. It is an unfortunate characteristic of people that have lost their sense of humanity and their respect for themselves and others. They do so without conscience and it can nolonger be tolerated by consciousness as a whole. Petty humans need to leave the magic to the real gods.

Magic

Is there such a thing? If someone was able to levitate or move over vast distances with a thought, would that be magical? Are we capable of such things? I have a feeling that we have always possessed these abilities, but they have been purposely hidden from us at this level of consciousness. Could you imagine this reality full of people floating around and poping from place to place. Supernatural abilities in the hands of a populace with our kind of maturity would be interesting to say the least. Should these abilities be purposefully hidden or obfuscated.

Are we not capable learning to use these abilities as any other ability. What about the simple act of walking. We did not just spring to our feet straight out of the womb. We learned to do so over time, both as a species (if you believe in evolution) and during our lives. Are we not capable of learning to use and respect our known and unknown abilities as we evolve and progress? Is this the reason why we are here in this realm? Are we too primitive to handle these so called supernatural talents that the Nameless use to exploit us on a daily basis?

Magic is just a word that describes things we are not capable of understanding or have not yet been able to understand. Consciousness is mysterious and magical because we are unable to interpret what consciousness itself is showing us. Consciousness uses this to invite us to take a closer look so that we may discover all it has to offer. Science has discovered the quantum weirdness of the universe. Things that do not make sense are usually written off or made out to be some sort of universal constant with some mathematical value. It may just turn out to be that consciousness cannot be explained with numbers and formulas, it may turn out to be far to dynamic and intrinsic to consciousness itself to warrant an explanation.

I have been reminded of Carlos Casteneda. His work has been dismissed as fiction. Much like my story has been dismissed as delusion. The greatest story ever told has garnered millions of followers. Why has it been so easy to believe in a story about magical events that had happened thousands of years ago but when someone talks about the experience of some magical or supernatural events in their life they are simply explained away as an act of God or dissmissed as lies or delusions? We have been conditioned to react this way. We have forgotten to look for the mystery in life. We have lost contact with consciousness and the magic and wonder held therein. Consciousness is trying to get our attention to the all the wonder, mystery and magic that it is willing to provide us. All we have to do is break from our inherited delusions. The easiest way to do this is with psychedelics. Psychedelics are an important part of our consciousness or they would not exist within it.

My Waking Dream

The Nameless are beginning to be more overt. They are antagonizing and provoking me. Standing in front of my home (female Mexican witches with their male handlers - they always come in pairs), driving slowly in front of me on my bike rides (typical minion thug), flipping me off on the highway (caucasian male in a blue BMW Z4), making faces at me when they drive by while I am riding my bike on congested roadways (goofy looking male of Asian descent). They are even sending their adolescent spawn out to provoke me (I have always wondered about the nature of the spawn of the Nameless and bullying in schools - as well as violent retaliation from others in events such as the infamous Columbine Massacre).

I no longer react because I view them the same as when I see them in my sleeping dreams. The menacing characters can do nothing if they are unable to incite a reaction. I am lucid in my waking dream and just view them, avoid them and laugh. This childish behavior is very odd, but it reveals that they are as petty as I have always stated. They have come to their wits end and the true nature of their character is coming to the fore; childish petty demons of myth and folklore. The oddity of our sleeping dreamworld is usually recognized just before we wake up. I am hoping that these odd experiences are an indication that I am close to my eventual awakening.

It may very well turn out to be that I am not insane, I am just starting to view this reality as the insanely delusional world it actually is. What does that say about an insane person that starts to view normal people as insane? The more I witness this kind of behavior the more contentment I find within my own conscious reality. This is truly a mind fuck...


NOTE: I must apologize for the hastily written entry riddled with errors and typos. I did not have time to reread the post at the time ts was posted. I hope that I have corrected most of the errors. Much is starting to happen. I try to post as soon as I experience them.

Our Wireless World

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I mentioned in an earlier post that a new home security company has taken over the security at my current residence. I was not involved with the transaction. The company is named Security Networks and is based out of Florida. The company has a poor reputation and is somewhat of a predator. Their sales people comb the neighborhoods looking for ADT signs and then use pressure sales techniques and fear mongering to persuade the homeowner to sign up with their company. The salesperson sweetened the deal with security system accessories that were overpriced. One item was marked up 200%. The kicker is that the homeowner signed up for 60 months (5 years) and the contract renews automatically for another 5 years until it is canceled.

The new system that was installed is a cellular system. The system does no require a landline (hardline telco twisted pair). In the event of an alarm the system will contact the service provider via the cellular network. Since it was installed I did not notice any adverse symptoms from any of the components. Yesterday I did begin to feel a little strange (after the three day cancelation period ended). I started to have problems thinking when I was near the device. The light headed feeling was something that I experienced before. It took me some times to figure it out, but I remembered what had caused this before.

While I was in Hawaii I used a cellular internet provider that used a modem you could take anywhere. The company, I believe, is now called Clear. When I installed the modem at home I started to feel similar to what I am currently feeling, difficulty thinking, lightheaded, central nervous system stimulation (agitation). I had signed a contract for a year and kept the service for a year and the switched to Hawaiiantel's DSL. The week after canceling the cellular internet service I felt better and most of the symptoms subsided (prior to my life's deterioration when the Nameless started attacking me).

Light Headed and Negative

Last night and for most of the day I have been fighting off negative thoughts. I have been feeling sad and despondent. I know that these feeling can creek up now and again, but this time they were persistent. The general feeling of despair continues to grow while I am at home. My mind is awash with these feelings, but when I am away from the security cellular modem I have a more positive state of mind.

The device pictured above is GSM cellular transceiver. More powerful than the cell phone used by consumers because it is considered a home appliance by the F.C.C. The interesting thing is that the signal strength varies during the day and at the time of posting this entry it is fairly high.

Are the Nameless behind this (the first salesperson I chased away had the characteristics of one of them), they are suspect. I cannot be sure at this time, but one thing I am sure of is the cellular device is detrimental to my health and wellbeing. I am sensitive to EM fields. I can find most commercial wireless routers in a building with my eyes closed. I can feel the change in clarity of my mind as if I just drank a glass of wine or beer.

What is particularly menacing is the change in attitude. I am constantly monitoring my thoughts (a habit gained from meditation). When my thoughts become negative I seek a reason or source for the negative thoughts. Past posts have noted how I have been overcome with negative emotions and once I recognize them for what they are I am able to dismiss them. I can recognize negative thoughts of a certain type as coming from and external source. The Nameless have an ability to influence the minds of others, I have experienced this first hand while talking to some of them. I had that feeling of "why did I agree to that" after the conversation or meeting ended (a significant experience was while I was talking to some union reps while working for the state of Hawaii - all state employees must join one of two unions).

Technology's Negativity

Technology can be a godsend, but it also poses risks. Our wireless networks grant us access to communication and internet, but they do pose risks to the electrical system of the body (human biology is electrical) and mind (central nervous system). Exposure to this technology may not cause illness, but can disrupt the conscious subconscious connection, disrupt dreaming, disrupt brainwave patterns or sustain a particular brainwave pattern. If the cellular device is sustaining a heightened state of alert as when a person is confronted with a fight or flight situation it can alter the body's chemistry (cortisol, norepinephrine) and cause anxiety, paranoia, depression and hypertension. Depression and hypertension are at epidemic proportions in large cities (Los Angeles, New York) with large and often redundant cell networks providing phone service. Sadly we are being conditioned to accept these symptoms as being common and normal health conditions.

It is interesting that I find contentment in natural places where cell phone towers are absent. No bars, no carrier on the cell phone is an indication of a cell free area. I can refresh my connection with the greater consciousness spending time in natural rural areas. At this time I feel disconnected from the whole of consciousness. For someone that has spent a lot of time cultivating a connection with the whole of consciousness, it feels like being isolated from a source of love and contentment.

How will my current dilemma be remedied? Turning the security system off when at home. Since I am unable to remove the device I will need to relocate and/or shield the device. I will post my final solution here.

We should all limit the exposure to the cellular microwave spectrum in our homes. Turn off your 900 MHz wireless DSL modems, routers and cellular hotspots when not in use. Use the hardline. Wireless networks are not even close to the speed of copper. Wireless saturation of your living space could be similar to the lead pipes the Romans used to provide water in their homes. The wireless luxury could be our end.

Ed Snowden

Link to video if unable to view above: http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=5yB3n9fu-rM

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Ed Snowden was interviewed in Hong Kong concerning his whistleblowing about the NSA's unfettered and unwarranted wiretapping of American citizens. What does this have to do with this blog? I always thought that I was being watched, even prior to my trip through the void. After my experience I had discovered that I was not mistaken, never truly realizing just how far they would go. My whole experience in Hawaii with the Nameless had a feeling of disciplined behavior (timing and aggression) from some kind of military training.

I am a kind of whistleblower. Unlike Snowden, that has a lot more exposure in a more tangible endeavor, I am relegated to this blog. Most people have labeled me insane and written me off as a paranoid schizophrenic, but I am happy to say that I am not quite there, not today.

The movie "Conspiracy Theory" with Mel Gibson comes to mind. I have been drugged, my apartment has been broken into (they had a key), my computer hacked (Spiritual Networks account has been logged into recently - they sent me an email asking me to log in and two days later I received an email thanking me for logging in, even though I had not logged in in weeks), I have been under constant surveillance, as well as being subjected to an overdose of electromagnetic radiation. I have lost and given up everything. Not because I wanted to, but because I had no other choice. It is true that I could just play along and be quiet, but the greater consciousness would not allow me to do so.

Snowden in Paradise

In the interview he stated that he worked in Hawaii. That was a significant comment. Hawaii is more of an American military outpost in the Pacific Ocean. At the time of my battle with those I call the Nameless in Hawaii, I endured a lot of radiation from weapons that I had seen on documentaries concerning new weapons the military was developing. The microwave weapon that heats the skin of the target from a distance (I was able to defend against that onslaught with a foil covered piece of cardboard). A connection with the military industrial complex (CIA, NSA - intelligence; Army, Navy, Air Force - enforcement) and the Nameless is starting to become more evident. I thought there might be some minor connection, but there is too much jumping out at me for me to ignore the role of the Nameless in the military and intelligence agencies. I have encountered a number of the Nameless at Moffet Field and at Travis AFB, so it makes sense that the intelligence agencies would be infiltrated also. The Hawaiian island of Maui was infested with the Nameless, it becomes difficult to imagine that they are not more intimately related now.

I am pleased that Ed Snowden has risked so much to come forward like this. He is far more courageous man than I. I still hide behind a pseudonym and the perceived anonymity of the internet. He has become one of my heroes and deserves to hold that moniker on a very short list of people.

What gives me little comfort (meant in a positive manner) is that I see the beginning of the end of this covert and oppressive era. I see the unraveling of many years of preparation. I see those that have gotten away with crimes against individuals and humanity being exposed. It has always been my desire to direct my personal realm of consciousness to shine the light upon everything that causes unnecessary and intentional suffering (even before I awakened to my current state of mind). I believe that if I continue this intention I can infect the whole of consciousness or at least I will move into a realm where this is the norm. I hope that you will join me in directing consciousness to expose and root out those that cause so much harm and despair.

What gives me greater comfort is the knowing and understanding that the pendulum of consciousness has started to swing in another direction (envision a pendulum that is not limited to a 90 degree arc on a fixed path, but able to swing in any direction). We have reached a time where the force of so much malevolence can no longer be sustained. It is my desire that the force of such malevolence will now be directed back at those that have created it (Karmic retribution). We need to aid the momentum to ensure that consciousness makes examples of those that are responsible for our current tragic human condition. We want more people like Ed Snowden to stand up and effect change in our tangible reality and the spiritual conscious realm.

Everyone needs to become a witness of consciousness and for consciousness. In doing so you create light in the darkness where malevolence festers. You will attract benevolent people and beings into your personal conscious realm and grow in numbers. Together we will leave this era of immaturity and selflessness behind.

NOTE: Concerning technology... My family has recently upgraded to a more sophisticated home security system wired to landline. The system was monitored by ADT but is now monitored by www.securitynetworks.com. The home security can now be accessed (exposed) via the internet. The home user and anyone else smart enough to gain access to the home's portal can turn the alarm off, view connected CCTV, unlock doors, turn light and appliances on and off (if optional security modules are used).

The salespeople have been persistent in targeting this house shortly after my arrival I was successful in influencing the decision not to upgrade until recently. The first salesperson was an arrogant ass that had many of the personality flaws of the Nameless. The most recent salesperson arrived while I was away. Since the upgrade some more interesting anomalies have already begun to present themselves with this new system - more on that later.

Here is a video of Shia LaBeouf talking about a conversation with an FBI consultant while preparing for a movie on a late night talk show. Shia mentions the FBI using the ADT security to listen in on conversations in the home (with the aforementioned upgrade they can now do more). This was posted back in 2008, take it for what it's worth (it's Hollywood).

Link to video if unable to view above: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ux1hpLvqMw&feature=youtu.be

What If?

There have been very few genuine and significant spiritual awakenings. Why is that the case? Is there some concerted effort by a large and powerful organization to suppress the conscious evolution of humankind in order to sustain the current human paradigm? What if I am right. Just suspend disbelief and consider that I am right. You really do not have to do anything. Just hold on to the intention that consciousness (God or whatever you believe) will do unto those that have caused intentional harm to others. Don't hold that intention with fear, hold it with a knowing that it is the only direction that is possible.

I seem to be entering the realm of government conspiracy. It is not my intention...

UPDATE: 06.11.13 03:35

A thought just occurred to me that I could not wait to add. Ed Snowden caught the NSA completely off guard with his whistleblowing. Either Ed is smarter than the Q Group that is responsible for policing the NSA or Ed is one of those I refer to as the Nameless (he has one characteristic all ascended beings posess, uncanny intelligence - since he never graduated high school or attended college). 

Did Ed get away with it because they never suspected he could do such a thing? Loyalty amoung the Nameless has to be very strong in order for them to survive and gain power. Anyone breaking ranks with the organization poses a tremendous risk. What else is he willing to talk about? If he is one of the Nameless, does he know he is? This would be a grand event if some within Nameless started to obtain a conscience about the group's endeavors and defect. 

Are those I refer to as The Others former members of the Nameless and now help people like myself?

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I have placed my online journal on Google Docs. The journal can be viewed here for anyone interested in following my madness a bit more intimately.
 - https://docs.google.com/document/d/1vRTnAF4oonh_EgKe6-Qm9pq563T94zXqSFRjtuLV3TA/edit?usp=sharing -

I am getting into the habit of updating my journal via my iPhone during the day. Most of the thoughts are the inspiration for a blog post here. I do this mainly to track my progress or my mental decline. We'll see how this goes.

The Others

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There has been some activity from those I call The Others. I have no idea what their agenda may be. I started to see them in the places I usually go since I started to resume posting on this blog. They are friendly and usually reach out to me in some way. I am unable to discern them from the Nameless on most occasions since I am in a constant state of mistrust.

I encountered one of them in a Mall (another prior to this event in a local hardware store), but perceived them as one of the Nameless. I was in an altered state of mind that day. I felt a little light headed and agitated. This feeling subsided once I returned home. I cannot be sure if the Nameless were responsible for this feeling, but it did serve to alter my perception of the 'Other' person that was sitting nearby (the details of my encounter is intentionally vague to protect  the identity of the person I saw - not understanding their relationship with the Nameless).

They look as if they took certain positive physical characteristics from other people and manifested those physical characteristics in their own body. Or, I am unable to view them as they really are, due to my mind's limited frame of reference. It is difficult to explain what I see and interpret. There is something distinct about their appearance that is difficult to to understand.

I had noticed them in Hawaii before I moved to California, but I was in a state of survival and fear at that time. I could not welcome anyone into my life after recently experiencing the onslaught from the Nameless thugs. I can still see their faces and what they were wearing on that day near the health food store near S. King and University Ave. I could see the compassion in their eyes. Intention and emotion conveyed by the eyes cannot be faked. I am sorry I missed that opportunity.

I do not know if they are trying to help me or if they are being entertained, by my actions or delusional state of mind. I thought that it might be necessary to post this encounter just in case they are reading this blog (I feel insane, right now, completely insane...). I need to convey to them that I am aware of their efforts, but require a level of assurance of their intentions.

NOTE: This post was published mysteriously. I had not intention of publishing this post yet. For those of you that visit this blog regularly (thank you), you noticed that this initially was a partial draft.

Life is But A Dream

Seven pointed star that jumped out at me while channel surfing - Game of Thrones
A sacred symbol in Wicca and Alchemy - Sacred Geometry

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I am shifting between levels of consciousness. I have mentioned this before, but these shifts are no longer subtle or easy to dismiss. I witness events and then the following day(s) I am unable to verify that they actually happened. I ask a person involved in the event about an event and they stated that they did't know what I am talking about. Or, I have an experience I cannot physically verify the following days. This could be a sign of my increased insanity, my life would be easier if I was, but the fact that I am aware of this and attentive to these experiences is a good sign. My interest is how I may be able to use or integrate this quantum weirdness and its meaning? I am experimenting with my life consciously, some may say recklessly, since I believe that I have nothing to lose. After all, sanity is actually an agreed upon acceptable level of behavior set by a society that is far from sane.

Dreams have taken on a realistic character and I wonder if I am dreaming these instances where and I am unable to verify them when I am awake. This could possibly be the merging of my conscious and subconscious mind. Sleep seems to be some kind of interrupt between levels of consciousness or the conscious and subconscious. Waking up day to day is no longer the same mundane experience, each day is different, as if I have more choices (increased ability to manifest and create my reality). If I fall asleep during the day (nap) I can sense that something has changed after I wake up. It is not always clear to me what has changed, but I notice a change in what I focus upon. This has increased as I devote more tim and consistency to meditation. My meditation sessions have changed with greater focus, purpose and ease.

I seem to be entering a change in my life. It is very similar to dreaming. I am observing my waking life as if I am dreaming. The best way to describe this is to say I am detached from it as if I was part of the audience. I am caught between simultaneously participating and observing in this dream of my life. It is a strange feeling, but also comfortable in that it feels right, almost normal.

Nature responds to me. I sit in a parking lot waiting for an appointment and I am overcome with contentment. I feel compelled to look at a nearby tree and as I focus my gaze upon the tree I notice that it is shimmering in the sun light. It feels like I am picking up the vibration and resonating with it. The contentment grows and I thank the tree (nature) for the experience.

There is a large hill that I pass by on a certain road while cycling. The hill has a certain vibration or energy about it. I stop and take time to soak up this energy. As I focus my gaze upon the hillside I feel the contentment that I feel while in nature, something I have experienced in the past while living near the Santa Cruz mountain range. There is a strange feeling that a doorway or portal is opening, as if I was being invited. I don't know if it is a feeling or just a desire, my desire to escape this reality.

I am starting to believe that nature is the physical manifestation of consciousness. This is difficult to explain. When we dream while sleeping we create a construct in order for us to interact with the dream. There are the basic characteristics in order for us to function, ground, light, tactile senses, sound, etc. While we are awake, nature is the same thing. Nature is the physical aspect of the dream, but it is conscious and interactive  when presented with the correct state of mind.

The Nameless seem to be aware of this change and have been active in suppressing this change with their electromagnetic radiation. One thing I did notice is that I am recovering faster. The latest volley of radiation was at the levels of when I lived in Hawaii. Just recently the satellite TV signal dropped at the onset of the attack. I was almost incapacitated, but never an ounce of fear entered my mind. I just entered my faraday cage and fell asleep. The following day I usually feel fatigued, but I rode to Grant Ranch taking Quimby Rd. back home, not an easy task. 

Skipping

There are days when the Nameless do not interfere with my life. They are not present. Their slaves are not overt in their activities. My life is normal (whatever that means). There are also days when I feel I have ascended to a higher state of consciousness, life is crisp, clean, smooth and flowing. I see some of the Nameless (we are attracted to one another). I interact with them and then they notice something about me that is different. Fear and surprise is usually the response I get and they watch me closely until either party leaves. The following day I notice a change (as noted above - shifting levels of consciousness) and the level of radiation is higher as if I was a flame that they were trying to extinguish. I then notice that I am back at a familiar level one that is full of their slaves and absent of those with higher levels of consciousness, dark and dreary. I feel like a stone skipping across a lake. Sometimes I can sustain the skip, sometimes I sink.

Lucid

My current experiments concern my vulnerability when I am asleep. They have been successful in influencing me while I sleep. Since I have been making changes in where I sleep I have been waking up refreshed without a depressed state of mind. I seem to be able to protect myself from most of their effort to influence my waking dream state. Consciousness seems to be more malleable than I thought possible. Once you begin an awakened relationship with consciousness, consciousness responds. Being attentive and patient during my waking state is necessary to witness all that consciousness is conveying. Things pop out and others fade into the background. Consciousness communicates directly in this manner once it has your attention it will stream a series of events together. I am not too adept in interpretation at this time, but I am learning.

Images, stories, articles, people, locations jump out at me. I can search for  something online and be lead to a specific site with a subject that is too compelling to ignore. If I do ignore it, I find myself back at the site. The little television I watch I end up catching the same movie at the same scene until I acknowledge the message (or what I believe to be the message). It's actually pretty annoying until I figure out the message. I have recently come to understand that people who are clairvoyant have these experiences. I don't consider myself to be clairvoyant.

NOTE: One of the things that popped out was a video on extraterrestrial disclosure. I have no evidence that extraterrestrials exist and I have never seen one. I perceive The Nameless to be human with a higher state of consciousness. Many of their malevolence and petty characteristics are evidence of their humanity. I have not seen any evidence that they are highly evolved, if so they would not be malevolent.

When malevolence is part of the social construct of a society you get this reality (poverty, war, suffering). When benevolence is the only paradigm within a social construct the possibilities are endless. The conscious trajectories of each social construct completely differ in speed (evolution) and direction (purpose) that they may never cross paths in the infinite space within the whole of consciousness. 

I am skeptical all of UFO's (this will persist until I see one myself), although I did claim in my ebook that the initial attacks were from some kind of aerial vehicle. Other beings on other planets and levels of consciousness is something that I believe, but have no evidence to support this, yet.

What is the message in this video? I don't know yet. I'll try and post these pop out messages from my conscious experiences here so you can help me interpret what might be happening.

Chess Match

The game I am playing with the Nameless gets a little to intense at times. I get caught up (distracted) with them and lose sight of what I intend to accomplish (ascend beyond their kind). The previous post was an indication of this. I was provoking them and they were responding. As things escalated I needed to take a step back and assess how my thoughts and actions were effecting my reality (my attention to them retains them within my conscious reality). I am back at it again (posting and provoking), so the Nameless need to call their spook to gas up that motorcycle and follow me on my bike rides up the mountain again. It is interesting how they are able to introduce characters into my waking dreamworld and effect my actions and thoughts, fascinating to say the least...