Simple Minds

Greetings...

It has been a while since my last post. I stopped posting regularly because I did not have much to say. The trials and tribulations of being a targeted (gang stalked) individual does not have much variation. The song remains the same today and with my latest assessment of my past and current life, not much has changed. But, there is one thing that has changed and that is my sense of self. But, most important is the manner in which I view my-self within the realms of consciousness.

After five plus years of radiation and intimidation I have gotten used to it, to the point of it being normal. I am not afraid of the rather benign tactics of intimidation. I have found ways to reduce and even eliminate the radiation. Even the attacks on my biological energy centers are limited to the point of being a minor annoyance. 

I have learned the why of my importance in this strange reality. Why so much attention is being wasted on my simple life. Why so many people are being compensated to surveil my daily activity. It is their simple inability to control my actions and thoughts. I started to put it altogether recently. And the one night I thought to be chivalrous and defend a girlfriend's honor (now a very long time ago) was the key that lead me to my current theory. On that night I challenged a guy that touched my girlfriend inappropriately in a local bar. They guy was no match for me, but when I confronted him he punched me in the face. I pounced, then the bouncers grabbed me and we were both thrown out of the bar. I went after him outside the bar and for some reason I was unable to harm him in any significant way. It was as if I was being inhibited. I could not land a punch. All I could do was to grab him, but I could not inflict any harm even though I was completely sober. My ridiculous attempt to pound him into the sidewalk was broken up by two police officers and we went our separate ways. That night has puzzled me for a very long time. At that time in my life I was being controlled in someway. Since my journey through the void I have become aware of the control they had on me and with that awareness came resistance. With my more recent experiences, that I will describe in later posts, have allowed me to begin to formulate my current premise.

I have grown from my Protestant beginnings through eastern philosophies then settling on something that borders on agnostic atheism. I have tried almost every New Age trick and gizmo to get to attain and sustain some level of ascension or enlightenment. I now am entering a phase that I currently do not have a simple definition for. The only way I can describe it is by using the term simulation. Eastern philosophies have always regarded our conscious reality as a dream and since ancient texts were not familiar with the term simulation, a "dream world" fits the definition of a simulation. I have to admit that after viewing 'The Matrix' back in the late 90's there was something compelling me to pay attention to the simulated environment represented in the film. The key here is the simulated reality, not necessarily what we typically refer to as a computer simulation. It might be more along the lines of 'Simulacra & Simulations' a 1981 philosophical treatise by Jean Baudrillard, possibly a simulation without a substrate or definable construct.

I have experienced things I cannot explain and I had believed that I was certifiably delusional (that door is still open). But, I can function normally and go about my, so called, life reasonably well considering these extraordinary experiences. I have had experiences in my dreams that were concluded in my conscious reality while I was awake. My conscious reality and my dreams were dependent upon one another and all I was able to do was to watch it unfold before me. I have moved between levels of consciousness so often that I have become familiar with certain levels as well as the people and their characteristic behavior for that level. Mastering these changes in levels is tricky and their are issues concerning the appropriate time. Life energy (chi, prana, etc.) is crucial to levels of consciousness and those that use microwave radiation as a weapon use it to control access to levels of consciousness.

I have increased the strength of the energy that the original device was able to achieve. I have used this energy to sustain and maintain a level of consciousness within this simulation. I am still within an experimental stage using the devices and understand that the energy that emanates from the devices may be contributing to the experiences I mention above. My new course concerning this blog is to write about consciousness as a simulation. I will attempt to define this conscious simulation and how it might be possible to understand the simulated environment we call consciousness. I will also like to write about my experiences with certain people or beings that seem to be aware of the simulated environment as well as their possible roles in the maintenance of the the simulation for their benefit.

I hope that those of you reading this blog will comment and contribute so we can all explore this simulated conscious environment we call reality.

The Silence

The Silence by Om Unit

I am not sure if the link above will actually be embedded on this page, I'll fix it later, or not.

The Silence is a song that resonates in a perpetual manner within me now.

In the past I spoke of a golden seed growing within me. It seems I have been swept up into the tail of a comet, caught within its trailing vortex. The song seems to embody the blissful helplessness of this wondrous experience. 

I have opened up my heart and surrendered to the whole of consciousness fully. I now know what samadhi means.

As it has happened in the past the silence washes over me without warning. I sense it in the background, an ever present stillness. I can no longer differentiate between inner and outer realms of the self. 

While sitting and creating my day this morning my thoughts just stopped. I found myself in a meditative state that lasted about three hours or more (I can only approximate the passage of time).

I am experiencing a new sensation. I do not seem to be moving though life, but life (this conscious reality) seems to be  moving towards me as I surrender to the stillness within me.

Is this what they have tried to prevent from happening? What used to be so difficult seem effortless now. I cannot tell if they were real or the manifestation of my conscious ego. Not so important now. 

Blessings to all who have read this.

Extraordinary Contentment

As you may have noticed that I have not been updating this blog on a regular basis. I really do not wish to engage or reinforce a malformed conscious reality. My focus, now, is to recreate my conscious reality with a more desirable and beneficial construct. 

What prompted this entry was a realization that most of what I feel emotionally is false except for what should only be described as fundamental conscious constant. Out of all the emotions that are possible, contentment is the one emotion that should be allowed to dominate the moments of our lives. I say this because if you allow contentment to become the constant in your life consciousness will respond.

Negative thoughts and emotional responses are in absence of contentment. I have realized that I have unconsciously allowed negative thoughts to enter my mind, so to speak. I allow this to happen when I am not focused upon contentment and being conscious, or attentive. I guess today was the first time I realized I was floating on a raft of negativity upon an ocean of contentment. 

Time to dive in... 

Golden Seed

It has been three years since my arrival back to San Jose, CA. I was told that I would have to wait three years. It was a thought from some other worldly consciousness. I waited, wondering what would happen. I had a lot of time to think about it. I watched the days go by, some with great patience and many in absence of patience. I thought it would be over. Lay my weary he'd to rest and cry no more. 

Well before the eve of the end of my waiting I felt something changing within me. I fought it at first. I welcomed it also. But, it was not until this day that I realized that I can no longer fight nor welcome it. I cannot have any other emotional or intellectual reaction to its presence. It is and that is all I can say about it. 

I surmise that it has happened before. A sensation of change within one's physical or spiritual self. Much like growing up as a child, a surge of sexual hormones, wisdom teeth or hair growing where there was once none. You notice the change and then accept it because it is part of the natural process. But, I can't just write this one off as something that I may have been expecting because it is certainly unexpected and especially special. 

The best way to describe this change is that something has taken root. Much like a viral infection that slowly transforms the physical self this is a viral infection of the spirt and of the conscious soul. I fear it in a way because I have forgotten what it was like to feel this way everyday. It is somewhat foreign and yet very familiar. It is growing within me with greater depth and breadth every passing moment. I can feel it coming over me and there is nothing I can do to stop it now. 

I see it in the eyes of my family members. I seem to see it everywhere. It shines through the facade of our daily expressions and moods. Like a contagion, I feel it taking over. I feel it tightening its grip as I exhale. It's forcing me to remember my past before I was filled with distrust, fear, depression and regret. Even though I have had moments of feeling something similar to this it did not last. This is different because it's not going away. This is rooted in something far more substantial. 

I want to call it love, but love cannot describe it. Contentment and bliss are close but fall short also. There is no word I am familiar with that is capable of explaining what I am experiencing. I feel it welling outward. Sometimes it reminds me of those familiar butterflies without the emotional constituent. All I can do is surrender to it. I don't seem to have a choice - anymore. 

Thank you Rose...

My Big Experiment

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Updated 07.20.13 - Get out the aluminum foil hats for this one... As strange and insane as this may seem, it has worked for me. It saddens me that I have to post this material because of what people like myself are experiencing. I truly hopes this helps other victims of this insane targeting of individuals.

I have made a interesting discovery and have been able to reset my fight or flight mindset that was stimulated by the electromagnetic radiation I speak of here on this blog. I was influenced by another targeted individual that posted a cure for mind control. He spoke of using electrical frequency and this info lead me to remember that I once constructed and used a Hulda Clark (also Bob Beck) type zapper in the past for parasite control and prevention and also as a CES device.

Microorganisms

I understood that the human body (and the environment in which we live) is inhabited by parasites and bacteria (beneficial and detrimental). These organisms outnumber all other organisms on this planet. Beneficial bacteria in the intestinal tract is essential to health and wellbeing. Just taking in probiotics is not the complete solution, we must learn to feed the beneficial bacteria with soluble fiber, such as chia seeds, so that the bacteria can consume the fiber and excrete essential chemicals needed by the body.

Imbalances, such as dysentery, in the gastrointestinal tract can cause illness and or death. Most of the illnesses that occur have something to do with microorganisms like bacteria, parasites or the submicroscopic invaders known as viruses. If you are looking for nanobots, look no farther than bacteria and viruses. Bacteria and viruses are living organisms that are capable of altering DNA (Monsanto uses the e coli bacterial strain to create GMO foods). Science is capable of modifying existing bacteria and also creating new strains of bacteria for medical and industrial purposes.

Candidiasis is an overgrowth of yeast (bacterial used to make bread rise and the production of alcohol) that is at epidemic levels. The candida species has been shown to exhibit the behavior of bacteria and a fungus. Some state that the creation of certain yeast strains for industrial bread making processes (fast rising yeast) were responsible for the invasive nature of the strain, as well as mutation cause by the overuse of antibiotics. Current remedy for Candidiasis is the use of the yeast consuming enzyme cellulase, as well as, other systemic enzymes such as serrapeptase (silk worm enzyme).

Mind control? I often hear of different kinds of technology that is purported to be responsible for controlling individuals and the populace in general. The oldest known type of behavioral control has always come from nature itself. Microorganisms are capable or altering the behavior of the host in order to benefit the microorganism. Parasites can modify the behavior of an insect host so that it can complete its life cycle. Candidiasis causes the host to consume more sugar and wheat. Does candidiasis alter the sexual behavior of the host in order for the candida to be transferred to another host via kissing, intercourse and oral sex?

In my ebook I wrote about an experiment using my etheric energy device and a battery operated fluorescent (low pressure mercury vapor as in CFLs) black (ultraviolet) light . The energy created by the device and light promoted detrimental bacterial growth in my body. The onset was so rapid that I started to develop inflammatory type infections overnight.

Upon my arrival in Hawaii's tropical environment I experienced a increase in symptoms cause by Candidiasis that did not subside until I returned to California. It makes me wonder if the perps are using EM radiation to promote and propagate a certain strain of microorganisms to subjugate the population (pure conjecture). The medical profession is a booming industry in the USA. This is not a sign of prosperity, this is a sign of a sick populace. I encounter more of the Nameless in hospitals than any other profession.

Beneficial Frequencies

I have always been interested in alternative methods concerning physical and mental health. Differing frequency of sound and light (color filtering and flashing) have been used throughout human history as medicine and to bring about altered states. Meditation bowls, chanting, drums, Mozart effect, binaural beats, Rife frequencies, CES (cranial electrotherapy stimulation device), audio visual entrainment, biofeedback and others deal with altering physical biology and mental states through entrainment or direct stimulation. I also understood that ascension or achieving higher states of consciousness was dependent upon the overall health of the physical body. I have used the above mentioned techniques to increase my health and wellbeing throughout my life.

There is only one manner in which consciousness can be described, and that is vibrational frequency. Within the construct of consciousness everything has a vibrational frequency. At the core of the known atomic particle is a spinning, moving, vibrating group of charged particles called electrons. The frequency of the vibration defines the object. If you change the frequency you can change the object.

It has been shown that water, made up of two very powerful elements - hydrogen and water, can be altered by vibrational frequency. I use my etheric energy device along with a Rodin coil to alter the properties of my drinking water. Water is vital for almost all life on this planet, yet we treat it with a great amount of disregard and disrespect.

I built my own zapper using the widely distributed electrical schematic. I used the zapper tech to control bacteria and parasites as well as using the device for CES. I later found an article that provided instructions on the use of home audio equipment and computer to create similar effects of the zapper and CES. Since my desktop was already connected to my home stereo, I was able to start using the equipment without too much preparation.

While in Hawaii, I was using a 12v power supply powering and auto audio amplifier as a zapper and CES. The power supply mysteriously stopped working shortly before the more overt attacks began (I suspect that the equipment was sabotaged as was a net security cam).

I recently set up a spare home audio amplifier to do the same thing and almost overnight the fear and paranoid thoughts within my mind stopped. I have also begun using 3/8 x 1/8 (originally posted wrong size) neodymium magnets (north pole facing body - small compass's south pole will point to north side of magnet) to protect my brain from the microwave EM radiation much like the earth's magnetic field deflects the sun's radiation. The magnets are connected to a baseball cap and discretely work to protect the brain from EM weapons and other mind control tech.

During the writing of this post the EM radiation has increased notably. I was not wearing the magnets and I could feel the heavy headed effects of the EM radiation. After putting on the magnet cap could feel the effects slowly diminish (placebo effect?). My body still suffers from the increase in radiation, but this has only been temporary.

Audio Amp CES/Zapper

Here is a simplified home made version of a CES device. It can also be used as a Hulda Clark zapper that can offer 20-20K Hz electrical signal, or a Bob Beck pulser (with the appropriate audio signal).

This technique is/was available on the web (I cannot seem to find any links at this time?). The audio amplifier is used to strengthen the signal from an audio source such as a computer or iPod like music device. The audio signal can be generated using available free programs like Audio Toolbox (Mac), Audacity (open source MAc, PC, Linux) or other PC and smartphone audio signal generator software software.

For the purposes of regaining a positive state of mind, you are essentially creating a CES device. CES devices are used by modern physicians to treat anxiety and depression and have been scientifically proven to be effective. This homemade CES is not like the high voltages used in Electroconvulsive Therapy (electroshock) between the 100 to 450 volt range. Voltage output from an audio amplifier speaker output are not sufficient to cause harm, but caution should used nonetheless. Avoid touching the amplifier cabinet or housing when holding an electrodes.

I know this all sounds a little sketchy for those that are not familiar with audio equipment, but consider that there are millions of audio amps being used throughout the world with very little harm to those that install them and use them. Micro-voltages are used in CES devices so there is not need to crank up the power to receive the benefits.

Instructions

Electrodes are connected to one of the speaker leads. In the image above the wires are connected to the left or right speaker output. The balance on the amp is adjusted to maximize signal output to whatever side is chosen. This is done to protect the channel that is not being used. A speaker can be connected to the other speaker output and the balance adjusted so that you can hear the signal during use.

The above image shows the parts used to create the electrodes I use in the therapy. I have displayed two versions. The one on the right is the version I use with PVC insulators. The version on the left is a simplified version using a dry paper towel or cloth as an insulator. The PVC insulators require a little more work to cut to size and the PVC coupler has been modified to remove the plastic lip that stops the pipe from sliding past the midpoint of the PVC coupler.

Parts used: One audio amplifier at least 20 watts per channel. Two 4-3/4 copper tubes with an 7/8 outside diameter bought a the local hardware store, plumbing supplies. Two copper end caps 7/8 inside diameter (standard in the US). One set of alligator clips, about 12 feet of speaker wires cut into two six foot sections (you want enough length to be able to move freely, too short and you'll be constrained), paper towels, a rubber band, one RCA to mini stereo cable long enough to reach your computer (Radio Shack). My version includes a PVC light schedule 1 inch diameter pipe and two 1 inch couplers.

The above image shows the electrodes ready for use. The top is the simplified version and my version is at the bottom. The pen is used to help provide a sense of scale. The top version uses a small piece of paper towel doubled and folded to make a square and held in place with a rubber band. The dry paper towel insulator is wrapped around the length of the tube and insulates the current from traveling through your hand. The end caps are then wet with a salt water solution. The concentration of the saline solution can enhance or impair the electrical pathway from the electrodes. The paper towel insulator must remain dry.

The reason why I use a dry towel as an insulator instead of electrical tape is so that the copper tube can also be used for Hulda Clark style zapping. In this case the paper insulator is dampened with the salt solution and the tubes are held in the hands (one in each hand) and the current travels through the hands.

Critics claim that the electrical current will only flow on the outside of the body over the skin. I believe that it is not the electricity that is the component of the benefits. I believe that the audio signal frequency causes a change (entrainment) in the blood and tissue. In a sense you are turning the body into a speaker and altering the vibrational frequency of the body. Certain frequencies are detrimental to harmful bacteria and parasites (I try to get them all with an audio signal sweep generator). The human body's natural frequency (Schuman Frequency 7.5 Hz Earth frequency) has been altered by pervasive EM fields in our modern environment. This device is only capable of providing 20 to 20000 Hz. A 7.5 Hz frequency is not normally generated by an audio amp because it is well below the human hearing threshold.

Ensure that the audio amp is powered off and turn volume all the way down. Assemble your alligator clips to the wires and connect to the speaker output left or right. Do not connect the left and right positive and negative outputs together, this will burn out the amp's audio channel. Use either left or the right, not both. Set up your electrodes (for CES or zapping) and connect them to the wires with the alligator clips. 

Audio Amp speaker output terminals

Connect the RCAto mini stereo cable to your amp's CD or AUX input. The mini stereo plug is then connected to your computer or portable audio device. 

RCA to Minin Stereo Cable

Start your audio signal program on your computer and generate the signal (528Hz solfeggio or an number of beneficial frequencies available on the net - experiment to see what works best for you).

The image above shows the frequency using Audio Toolbox on my Mac. I open the sweep window and set the start frequency at 0 and the end frequency at 20000. The main window is not used at this time.

Select the left or right channel.

Set the "Sweep Rate" at whatever the rate you want. Using 1 will create a very slow sweep and generate every whole frequency in the sweep (.5 or .05 could also be used). If set to 100Hz the next frequency signal the sweep will produce is 200Hz and then 300Hz and so on in increments of 100.

Click on the "Free Running" button and it starts generating the signal. The signal will loop automatically.

If you want it to generate a single sweep then just click the "One Shot" button.

To generate a pulsed signal of the entire sweep then you would need to use a higher sweep rate of say 800 or more.

Audio Toolbox will allow you to create a file of the signal output so you can upload to an audio device or smartphone. Auidacity is a sound recorder and editor. You can generate several signals in the editor and playback the file on the computer or export an MP3, WAV or any other format for your audio player. Just set the audio player to repeat the sound file to prevent playing any other files. I do not know what will happen if one of Justin Bieber's songs started with the electrodes placed on your temples. ; )

Adjust the volume on the computer to about 50%. Power on the amp. Adjust the amp volume to 10% of full volume (start low). Place the wetted electrodes against your earlobes hold for the duration of the treatment 3-5 minutes. If you need to increase the output do so in small increments. Depending on the watt rating on your amp you could feel something similar to touching a 9 volt battery to your tongue. 100 watt rated amps can deliver enough voltage to contract muscles in the neck. Go about this with caution until you familiarize yourself with the equipment and their settings.

The wetted electrode end caps are held to the earlobes or bony part of the skull just behind the ears (temples or other places on the head and neck can be also be used). The volume of the amp and or audio device controls the amount of watts output to the electrodes. You could adjust the volume of the amp to where you just start to feel the electrical signal, but any small amount of electricity is sufficient to produce the effects.

When you use a sweeping signal the strength of the electrical signal from the amp will change as the sweep moves to higher frequencies. 100Hz will be relatively low voltage compared to 5000Hz. If you adjust the volume to feel a little tingle at 100Hz the tingle will get more intense as the sweep continues to higher frequencies.

There are many lists of therapeutic frequencies that can be used on the internet. After using the home made CES I started to feel more positive and the looping negativity, fear and paranoia stopped. It felt like I turned off whatever seemed to be stuck on or overstimulated. I believe that I reset a part of the brain responsible for this annoying negativity.

The therapy must not be overdone. 5-10 minutes is sufficient, once a day until the negativity subsides. You may feel a little head heavy, but that will subside. I waited a week after the first treatment and then used the therapy again. I cannot truley describe just how great I feel.

This information is for personal experimentation only. Please leave comments of your own experiences. I would like to know if this works on others, and if so this info can change a TI's life for the better. The gang stalking perps have faded into the distant background of my life. I wake up happy and filled with contentment. It has been a few weeks since this discovery. I waited to see if it was just a fluke, but so far it has continued to be effective.

Remember that this is not the only remedy. Diet, exercise, meditation can aid in improving your health and wellbeing. Do't allow the perpetrators to confine you to your home. Get out and defy them.

Here is a parting shot of my magnetic cap (I am using a well worn beani instead of a baseball cap right now). I use two magnets to clamp them to the cap (one inside and one outside) for a total of ten locations on the cap (20 magnets total size 3/8 x 1/8 neodymium disks). When the EM radiation is directed at me I put on the cap and go about my business. Larger magnets are not necessarily better. You do not want to disrupt your natural brainwave activity, you just want to shield it from those cowardly perpetrators operating their weapons from some dark corner of this reality.

Thank you for your patience in reading this post.

Who is Elisa Lam?

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I came across this video from a Targeted Individual Facebook group. Most of the attacks I describe on this site and in my ebook are mentioned in this video. There seems to be a lot of people being experimented on and controlled with weapons and a means of influencing the thoughts of people with microwave technology.

The above video has offered proof that what I have been experiencing is not a result of my lack of sanity. What I have endured and still endure is a real effort to silence what I have discovered. Even though I remained silent for a bout a year the microwave electromagnetic radiation did not. During that year, I continued to experiment with methods to increase my bioelectric and spiritual energy and they ensured that anything I did to raise my energy levels they countered with these weapons.

For me there is still unanswered questions I have concerning those I refer to as the Nameless. They seem to be at the center of this in my experiences. My relationship with these people is tangled. I recently stumbled across a few of them and in response to this they sent another stalking perp with a handler to try and scare me again. These are the same people I can sense when they are near me. They can sense me also, and often try to run off while hiding their face from me. What happens to them when I see their face? It is a strange aspect of my experiences. It seems like I am able to expose them, but to whom?

A lot of this is beginning to unravel for myself and others. When I hear the testimonials of victims I shutter in recognition of what they have to endure. I recall my own experiences and the hell they put me through, but what saddens me the most is that there is a group of people willing to do this to another person. There is someone (something) sitting at the controls and aiming a microwave weapon at them to torture them and to control them. Considering the amount of people reporting some kind of control or torture there must be thousands of people operating this technology. Who would do such a thing? Who would work at a job that tortures people on a daily basis? I never thought that it would be possible for a human being to do such a thing to another human being. The thought sickens me. What state of mind must a person be in to participate in torturing targeted individuals? A very sick mind...

One characteristic I have noticed. Whenever I had been mistaken by one of the minions of the Nameless, to be one of the Nameless, they have offered to help me. I have been helped in stores by people that did not work at the store. It was as if I they were programmed to respond. Women have stood next to me with their heads slightly lowered waiting subserviently to be acknowledged by me. I have run into many store cashiers that had suddenly become strangely confused and disoriented when I am purchasing goods. It makes me wonder if these people are mind controlled slaves for the Nameless. I have often hinted at this sort of thing, but the above evidence presented in the video might be used to create these mindless slaves. This is even a bit too much for even me to want to believe.

I have faith that this sort of thing cannot continue. I believe that consciousness cannot sustain such evil and unchecked malevolence. Karma is a law of consciousness that cannot be ignored or avoided. It is the force of karma that has allowed this information to be disseminated and once more people become aware of this the more these people and their organization will be revealed. Once it is out in the open the people of the world no longer allow it, and better yet consciousness will not be able to sustain such evil.

Watch the video (there are two parts) and visit the site. Tell other people about this strange thing called targeted individuals and gang stalking. Help us spread the word about this tragic era of torture and mind control we have entered unknowingly.

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Email Account Access Problems

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I have been experiencing problems accessing my email associated with xam@i-am-xam.com. Please use this forum to contact me. Even the comments on this blog can be deleted by my gang stalking friends. Please be patient and persistent. Will turn off moderation so comments will post immediately.

I will find other means of being contacted. I will join other forums and start posting conversations here. Let's find out what they are capable of, shall we. 

Not just casual stalking going on with me. Seems like the have some technical assistance from some crafty hackers. 

Stay tuned...

If all activity from me ends, the they won. I'll be helping from the other side. Stay strong. 

Gang Stalking

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Now how about that. There is a term for what I have been experiencing. Thank you, thank you, thank you, Herr A from Germany. A special thanks to Carissa Conti for her site and insight into this phenomena.

Now I know how to handle this. You cannot imagine what a relief this is for me. To know that there are many others that are dealing with this sort of thing. This actually gives me purpose. I now know I can beat this. I now know I can beat them. Let the games resume you poor pathetic little parasites. Like I told you last night, I will find you...

WTF!

What the fuck do they believe they are doing. I am both angered and elated. Whatever is controlling this is feeding off of our fears. Lately I have been in control of my fears and the Nameless have had difficulty controlling me. If you feel no fear and essentially ignore them as well as show them courtesy and send them love they will have a look of defeat upon their face.

I just subscribed to the subreddit /r/Targetedindividuals now seven readers strong (LOL). Here are some other links to this phenom:

http://gangstalking.wordpress.com 
http://educate-yourself.org/cn/gangstalkingoverview15sep06.shtml
http://whatreallyhappened.wikia.com/wiki/Gang_Stalking
http://whatisgangstalking.blogspot.com
http://www.youtube.com/user/gangstalking
http://www.blogster.com/somebody/vacation-france

Just a few from a long list of sites.

What About The Rest?

I have had some other experiences that cannot be explained by Gang Stalking. The Nameless or ascended beings and their abilities to read the minds of others as well as the ability to cause a heart attacks as with, my assumption of, Rosie O'Donnel's close encounter with one of the Nameless (Also my theory that Steve Jobs was also a victim of the Nameless and their stalkers - Steve was standing in the way of the NSA PRISM program). And of course the Nameless hiding their faces from me, as well as leaving an area I enter. It seems that I have something they fear in me. And what about the etheric energy device I use to replenish the life force they sap from me on a daily basis. We'll figure all of this out in time.

I am a witness of consciousness. I asked for help and assistance and consciousness delivered. I cannot convey in words how I feel and the appreciation of those that have helped me since it all began in 2011.

"Forgive them for they do not know what they do"

http://iamxam.blogspot.com/2012/01/030111-transfered-from-original-blog.html

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This is might be a valid reason for all that I am experiencing. I will have to take a look at what Carissa Conti has to say about my experiences and possibly be prepared for what might still be coming.

I have asked for guidance and it seems to have arrived. I did not expect it in this form and noting the date of Herr A's comment it was presented to me almost a year ago. Obviously, I was not ready to hear nor heed its message. I will do some reading and research to see if this is what I am experiencing.

What lead to this has been noted in my Daily Journal. The strange and menacing behavior may be explained by the above comment. The character of these people are animated similar to a cartoon charter. Possession? I don't know if I am now influenced by the comment, but it kind of makes sense.

More on this on the next post...

Magicians, Deities and Consciousness

Call of Duty

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Landing a helicopter in the early 1800s to talk to and help the citizenry with the knowledge and technology of our time would seem magical or downright godly.

The first time the Nameless used their technology on me I thought I was dying. They used their technology on me on a canyon road in Topanga CA. possibly hoping I would pass out and veer off of the steep clifs on that road. It happened again and after I made it home safely I made a farewell video for my then wife and family. The two instances caused me to think I was having a heart attack. Interesting since I was running from Topanga to Pacific Palisades on the trails of the Topanga Wildlife Preserve at least three times a week. I needed to be pretty fit to run the hills on those trails.

The next time I was hit by their E.M. beam I was in Hawaii. It was the climax of my escalating relationship with these people or beings. I remembered how the first two attacks felt and I knew I wasn't  having a heart attack, I knew they were doing it to me. On the day of a series of attacks I was telling them to fuck off and goading them to try and take me down. I moved from room to room trying to avoid the beam. I could feel the energy dissipate when I left one room and then build as it tracked me into another room in my apartment. I did not leave the apartment because I was afraid that I would lose consciousness in the hallway or elevator. The prospect that they might have been waiting on me to leave was also heavy on my mind. I ended the first evening wrapped in wet towels in the middle of my apartment in the fetal position. 

The next night it started again. Not knowing what was happening I began to apologized and begged for them to forgive me. I thought that some kind of UFO or aircraft from some powerful alien race was punishing me.I thought their ship was hovering above the apartment targeting me with another barrage from their death ray, Gods sent to claim my soul. As the attacks continued I was able to fend them off with aluminum foil and then a hastily and loosely constructed Faraday cage out of cardboard and foil grounded to the plumbing under the kitchen sink. I started to be able to discern where the beams originated from as the altered the position of the weapon to exploit the weakness of the faraday cage. Most of the remainder of the attacks where from a building adjacent to my apartment building and from the apartments above and below my own. Needless to say that what I once thought were Gods were just the acts of petty humans. The great Wizard of Oz was revealed to be a group of people living, or stationed, at my apartment complex. The journal of those attacks is located at the end of my ebook.

The last time they used their weapon on me while driving I pulled off the highway and moved amoung other drivers in close proximity. A few hazardous maneuvers placed me back on the highway without feeling the weapon again. I knew that the weapon was being used from one of the vehicles near me. It wasn't from an aircraft of any kind. They continue to use the weapon on my at my current residence, but since I am aware of them and their tactics it no longer frightens me. I know that they do so because I have reached a level of energy or life force that allows me to ascend to a higher state of consciousness. I know they just want to put me back in my place.

Today they resumed the attacks, but they were not as effective as they hoped. The EM field can be felt, but it is not as debilitating as it once was. I do not know if I am becoming immune or if I am being protected by some other source, but today was mild compared to the others. I went to the office of my appointment and the minions were just leaving, as they always do, casting a glance in my direction with the look of disdain and defeat.

It is not magic. It is not godly. It is not the behavior of some ascended being from another world. It is the behavior of humans that have acquired technology and use it to subjugate others to maintain power and control over others. It is the same behavior we have seen time and time again throughout our history. It is an unfortunate characteristic of people that have lost their sense of humanity and their respect for themselves and others. They do so without conscience and it can nolonger be tolerated by consciousness as a whole. Petty humans need to leave the magic to the real gods.

Magic

Is there such a thing? If someone was able to levitate or move over vast distances with a thought, would that be magical? Are we capable of such things? I have a feeling that we have always possessed these abilities, but they have been purposely hidden from us at this level of consciousness. Could you imagine this reality full of people floating around and poping from place to place. Supernatural abilities in the hands of a populace with our kind of maturity would be interesting to say the least. Should these abilities be purposefully hidden or obfuscated.

Are we not capable learning to use these abilities as any other ability. What about the simple act of walking. We did not just spring to our feet straight out of the womb. We learned to do so over time, both as a species (if you believe in evolution) and during our lives. Are we not capable of learning to use and respect our known and unknown abilities as we evolve and progress? Is this the reason why we are here in this realm? Are we too primitive to handle these so called supernatural talents that the Nameless use to exploit us on a daily basis?

Magic is just a word that describes things we are not capable of understanding or have not yet been able to understand. Consciousness is mysterious and magical because we are unable to interpret what consciousness itself is showing us. Consciousness uses this to invite us to take a closer look so that we may discover all it has to offer. Science has discovered the quantum weirdness of the universe. Things that do not make sense are usually written off or made out to be some sort of universal constant with some mathematical value. It may just turn out to be that consciousness cannot be explained with numbers and formulas, it may turn out to be far to dynamic and intrinsic to consciousness itself to warrant an explanation.

I have been reminded of Carlos Casteneda. His work has been dismissed as fiction. Much like my story has been dismissed as delusion. The greatest story ever told has garnered millions of followers. Why has it been so easy to believe in a story about magical events that had happened thousands of years ago but when someone talks about the experience of some magical or supernatural events in their life they are simply explained away as an act of God or dissmissed as lies or delusions? We have been conditioned to react this way. We have forgotten to look for the mystery in life. We have lost contact with consciousness and the magic and wonder held therein. Consciousness is trying to get our attention to the all the wonder, mystery and magic that it is willing to provide us. All we have to do is break from our inherited delusions. The easiest way to do this is with psychedelics. Psychedelics are an important part of our consciousness or they would not exist within it.

My Waking Dream

The Nameless are beginning to be more overt. They are antagonizing and provoking me. Standing in front of my home (female Mexican witches with their male handlers - they always come in pairs), driving slowly in front of me on my bike rides (typical minion thug), flipping me off on the highway (caucasian male in a blue BMW Z4), making faces at me when they drive by while I am riding my bike on congested roadways (goofy looking male of Asian descent). They are even sending their adolescent spawn out to provoke me (I have always wondered about the nature of the spawn of the Nameless and bullying in schools - as well as violent retaliation from others in events such as the infamous Columbine Massacre).

I no longer react because I view them the same as when I see them in my sleeping dreams. The menacing characters can do nothing if they are unable to incite a reaction. I am lucid in my waking dream and just view them, avoid them and laugh. This childish behavior is very odd, but it reveals that they are as petty as I have always stated. They have come to their wits end and the true nature of their character is coming to the fore; childish petty demons of myth and folklore. The oddity of our sleeping dreamworld is usually recognized just before we wake up. I am hoping that these odd experiences are an indication that I am close to my eventual awakening.

It may very well turn out to be that I am not insane, I am just starting to view this reality as the insanely delusional world it actually is. What does that say about an insane person that starts to view normal people as insane? The more I witness this kind of behavior the more contentment I find within my own conscious reality. This is truly a mind fuck...


NOTE: I must apologize for the hastily written entry riddled with errors and typos. I did not have time to reread the post at the time ts was posted. I hope that I have corrected most of the errors. Much is starting to happen. I try to post as soon as I experience them.