Hacked

Been working on reestablishing some accounts associated with my sites. It looks like my Facebook site as well as the site I use for www.i-am-xam.com's email has been infiltrated. No known damage, but I could have lost some email from the past few weeks, after I started posting again. This is the second time this has happened, that I know of. I must be doing something right.

If you attempted to contact me and received a reply send it again, it might not have been me. If you did not get a reply from a previous email, send it again also.

Powerball

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I have a secret that I have been avoiding to post. When I first arrived back in California I had an urge to test the law of attraction, or manifesting my thoughts and desires in my reality through conscious intent. When I would go to purchase a ticket the Nameless were not to far behind. I assumed that they did not want a person like me playing the lottery in California because if I won they would have a problem controlling me. I have plans to travel and stay mobile to make it difficult for them to try to control and influence me.

The interesting part of this observation is that as soon as I purchased a ticket one of their minions would enter the store after I left. I did not go back into the store to see what they were doing, but it was too consistent. They started to intimidate me by waiting outside the store staring at me. I eventually lost interest in playing the lottery because I was unable to win anything and I had a feeling it was somehow being fixed by them. 

As large a presence the Nameless have in this reality I could see that they would use something like the state lottery to enrich their organization. If you are new to this blog and have not read the past posts, those I refer to as the Nameless have the ability to hear the thoughts of others as well as prescience. It would not be too difficult if the winners were their many minions giving the prize money to the organization or purchasing goods and services from their extensive network of business. 

Powerball

When Powerball came to California something interesting happened. I played one time using the kiosks or vending machines instead of going to a store and purchasing the ticket from a cashier. As I purchased a ticket there was someone behind me, slightly off to one side as if the were looking at the numbers I was selecting. 

I purchased some tickets at a later date, and suspecting that someone will be standing behind me, I selected numbers randomly as fast as I could, my own version of the quick pick, without knowing what numbers I was selecting. I finished with the first ticket I turned to see a woman standing behind me as the other person did the first time. She had a confused look on her face as if  she was having difficulty keeping up. I repeated the process a couple of other times as fast as I could and took my tickets and turned to walk away. A cast a glance in her direction and she looked down at the floor. 

Powerball is a multistage lottery and the Nameless might not have the ability to control the prizes even if they might have a high success rate using prescience (they might not have 100% accuracy using prescience) there are far too many players to secure sole winning tickets. 

If I win any sum of money I will post it here. Imagine if the Nameless with their abilities of prescience have been winning the lottery for some time. Talk about easy money. 

Etheric Energy Device

One of the warnings I received pertaining to the device I use is that it has the capacity to enhance the ability to manifest thoughts in reality. The warning came from the person that created the device after using several devices at the junction points of a tetrahedron he constructed. The tone of that warning was somewhat ominous. 

The device I am using has aided me in the ability to manifest my thoughts in this reality (enhancing the abilities I had acquired from the void and from the use of white powdered gold) but, this ability has been limited by the Nameless when they use their own electromagnetic devices on me in the past on many occasions.

NOTE: I had written this post as a draft at first and did not post immediately. The Nameless came out of the woodwork last night and did their best to keep me occupied. Their attacks lasted until after the Powerball numbers were made available and then all of a sudden the attacks stopped. I guess they were trying to prevent me from trying to manifest a winning ticket. I did not try, I still haven't looked at the numbers of my last ticket purchase, maybe I should. 

I will edit and update this post at a later time, I just wanted to get this out as fast as possible. The Nameless do not seem to be happy about my lottery activity. This needs more attention. 

More to come.

The Following Day

The day of the Powerball draw was interesting. My neighbors were home, not usual, and they were keeping tabs on me, even the neighbors that just moved in. There was a lot of foot traffic in front of the house as I was working on some projects. The entire day was a bit odd to say the least.

Today the neighbors are all away from home and it is pretty quiet, normal. The electromagnetic activity is lower, but still persistent. I am looking forward to the next draw to see if it will all happen again. The minions of the Nameless are pretty consistent in their behavior. They either can't resist or they aren't capable of realizing how obvious they are. This makes me wonder if they are a bunch of mindless zombies playing some sort of game.

More Fear

The long dark emptiness of the void

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LITANY AGAINST FEAR

I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.

The "Litany Against Fear" is from the novel by Frank Herbert's Dune series. Still one of the most important works of science fiction to date.

On the morning of my journey through the void, my very own spiritual resurrection. The fear was so overwhelming it occupied all of my senses. I was consumed by it. I ran from that fear. The violence that I thought I had perpetrated made me want to run. Hundreds and thousands of beings chasing me. Sirens were blaring as I ran fighting through a level of confusion I had never ever faced in my life (I cannot remember correctly, but I believe I heard them shouting 'there he is'). I ran under an overpass and turned to face the pack that was chasing me, but there was nothing there. Silence, peace and the unsettling emptiness of the void. 

I found myself at a familiar street corner S.O.F.A. South First Street Area in downtown San Jose ( S. First and E. San Salvador). There were beings, several of them, pushing me and calling me names. They were referencing my racial heritage they used every possible innuendo. I felt their hatred, it was the most hatred I had ever felt at one time. As I stood there in the middle of the intersection they where shouting and pushing me. They surrounded me. I felt their hands as they shoved me toward each other. I did nothing. I focused on nothing. I did not fight back and then it stopped. I was standing in my apartment covered in sweat, exhausted, but relieve the fear had passed through me. 

I now know the perpetrators of the horrors I faced that morning. The Nameless where there forcing that fear upon me. They were the ones pushing me. I can almost feel who they were now. I can almost recognize them. I can do this now because they are at it again. I can feel them focusing their fear upon me. It is distinct in that it comes from outside of my self. I can almost sense it's direction and source. It is not like a panic attack where the source comes from the mind generated by thoughts of known fears, this fear is without substance. Raw fear that allows you to fill in the blanks. 

I recite the litany against fear and focus upon the moment and the fear subsides. I recognize and focus upon the source. I look back at the perpetrator and the are forced to look away. I tell them that karmic retribution is at their door, it comes for them. I apologize, but note that it is not my doing, I am only the witness. 

The past few days, have been heavy with this fear. The Nameless know that I am able to manifest my thoughts in my conscious reality (as you do also). They know that if they can induce fear in me I will manifest my own monsters. Fascinating tactic, they plant the seed and I nurture the beast. 

They do most of their evil deeds when I sleep (radiation, inception). I am most vulnerable at that time, we are all vulnerable at that time. We wake up and the notion of fear creeps into our daily life. We look for it and then we find what we are looking or focused upon. 

They are persistent. Many, many sources. The minions are out in force staring at me from a distance dong their part. Poor soulless souls, slaves to empty promises. The pendulum now swings in the opposite direction. The age of fear is subsiding. I fear they will be lost forever, clinging to the bushes and grasses of this place for several eternities. 

Fear And Loathing in Hawaii

In Hawaii there was one rather large man of Samoan/Hawaiian descent. They would call him to follow me when I left my apartment. It was during the time I was writing me ebook. The fear they induced in me became real when I saw him. As this tactic continued I began to question what I was feeling and I would leave my apartment and then return quickly to an elevated parking garage at the apartment building. I saw him walking towards the apartment talking on the phone and looking for someone. I watched him standing beneath my observation post in the garage. He was waiting for me so he could play his part. The last time I saw him we walked toward each other. As we approached each other I looked him in the eyes and he looked away. He continued walking, nothing happened.

In the recent past they have sent strangers to my door. They just walk up when I am in the garage and try to act friendly in a menacing way. This stopped during my recent year of inactivity and has resumed again. I suspect that they will take it up a notch. I will post those instances here.

Fear As A Method of Control

We hear in America live in a perpetual state of fear. Constantly bombarded by news segments of impending harm, death and debt. We are not safe and there are those that offer resolutions, safety and sanctuary. Noam Chomsky stated that they create the problem then offer their solution. The solution often requires that you give something up in return (civil rights, liberty). The Nameless offer that they will stop this fear mongering if I stop posting on this blog. I can go back to a life free from fear if I give up my right to live my life in any way I choose to. I can not accept their meager offer. I tried to ignore them, but my life stalled in a perpetual loop indicating I had to act. I refuse to live that way.

I have created another phrase by witch I refer to the Nameless. I have called them parasites of consciousness, but it seems the are also bullies of consciousness as well. The offspring (little demons) of their minions are bullies as well, practicing their craft at a young age to be applied in adulthood. Generations of bullies for their cause. Let's see if I can draw them out from behind the darkness and safety of their anonymity and coax them out into the light for all to see. That's what this is all about. They were revealed to me some 14 years ago and now I can no longer ignore them.

Fear prevents any significant movement to higher levels of consciousness. Fear interrupts the flow of energy from the heart (heart chakra) to the brain (crown chakra). Fear is the electric fence that defines the prison of this existence. Fear occupies the place where positive emotions can flourish. The evil of the Nameless is based upon fear. Subdue the fear and disarm the Nameless. Often the threat of harm is far more powerful than the harm itself.

Why Do I Persist?

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Update

The high amount of radiation that I reported while posting the previous entry did in fact effect me negatively. I still had a high level of energy, but some abilities that I was acquiring, again, were taken from me again.

I was starting to notice that I was starting to effect my conscious environment with my intent and witnessing immediate results. It is kind of like being in the zone all the time. I would pitch a balled up piece of paper into the trash and it would go in as I intended. I began to pitch and look away and it would fall right in.

I through some garden shears behind me and walked away knowing that they landed with the blades stuck in the ground. I would return to see that it was so. This was starting to effect my confidence level as this knowing was beginning to effect everything I was doing. Intent was starting to become natural, but then they took it away from me with a heavy dose of electromagnetic radiation.

This sort of thing is being shown on YouTube. Seemingly impossible trick shots performed by normal everyday people. One thing I know about the Nameless is that they love to show off. Arrogance is one of their characteristics and probably their undoing...

This is actually a good thing. I am learning. I know that my devices are working to reestablish my energy and my natural abilities. And I have also found that the sun is the source of this energy and with that energy flowing though my body I can replenish it with direct exposure to the sun. As I have stated in prior posts, the Nameless are actually helping me.

Why Do I Persist?

Why do I persist? Why do I continue this seemingly futile attempt to ascend?  

I've come to the most difinitive answer to date. I want my life back. I want the intimate relationship with consciousness that I gained after exiting the void. I want to reconnect with the greater conscious collective. I want to continue my evolution and ascension. I do not want to remain a prisoner of this existence, I want my emancipation.

After exiting the void and ignoring what the nameless were offering, the Nameless began to take away my energy. Like vampires the began to suck the life out of me. This vital energy is essential for ascension, it is essential for well being and physical health, it is essential to continue my journey and my purpose.

When I am content they do what they can to take that away from me. When I am in the flow of creative consciousness they take that away also. I am fight for a life of contentment, creative expression and to make a life for myself that is free from their influence and control. 

I am a warrior of consciousness and I refuse to give into the will of those within this existence that prey upon others. The Nameless are true parasites of consciousness and serve no other purpose than their own. They have been influencing humanity for ages and are responsible for our suffering and this futile human condition.

Take a look at the world today. There is much suffering and imbalance. We are entering a time of perpetual war under their control and influence. I defy them because I cannot live in a world of their making. I fight because I know that there is a life waiting for myself and others trying to do whatever is necessary to pursue and establish a world of peace and prosperity for everyone. I am not alone in this fight, they know that also...

Preparation

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I have noticed for some time that much preparation is being disseminated via the news and entertainment outlets here in America. They are preparing for us for something that will include China.

I am not referring to war. I am referring to China's role in our future. When I exited the void and returned to this existence the very first people I saw, save for the security guard, we're Chinese tourists. I referred to these tourists as time travelers, but more accurately they should be called tourists of consciousness.

While living in Hawaii the two ethnicities that at the forefront of my subjugation were Caucasian and Chinese. They are also the most dominant ethnicities on the planet. Dominant not in the militaristic sense, not the financial, but dominant within the higher levels of consciousness itself. I can only speculate as to why this is so because I do not have the necessary evidence to backup my assumptions yet. The nature of consciousness is very subjective because our conscious perceptions are dependent upon our level of accession, energy and our inherited cultural beliefs. The nature of consciousness is too personal to be explained succinctly.

China has a long history of understanding the human body's energy pathways (chi, meridians), consciousness, the role of the moon (full moons are auspicious for the Nameless), divination (I Ching), folklore (supernatural powers of Kung Fu and Tai Chi). I believe that the Chinese may have mastered consciousness itself. How they are using this knowledge is not known to me at this time, but they are trying to keep me from this realization as with others like them.

One thing I have noticed is that China seems to be pillaging the earth. Are they doing so because those in control have found an exit?

Ley Lines and the Nameless

Ley lines are the natural paths of energy flow on our planet. They are near places of ancient temples pyramids and ancient cities. The lines could be considered to be an electrical grid, but most importantly it is the places where the lines intersect that provide intense power (bioelectric energy). Pyramids have been reported to have been discovered in China. It has been reported that these structures have been painstakingly hidden from view. There is a lot of censorship in China, just what are they hiding from the world?

While living in Hawaii I spent most of my free time in the ocean. I surfed in the morning and would alternate swimming and cycling, along the coast, in the early evening. One thing I began to notice was the way I felt after surfing. The more time I spent in the waves the more energy I began to accumulate and when the ocean was flat and I did not surf this energy would diminish. It was not until I returned to the mainland that I would discover why this happened. I received a hint through my intuitive channels and it pointed to the ley lines particularly the intersection or vortex near the Hawaiian islands (must not forget the land vortex of Kiluea - ref. Nassim Haramein).

I have been trying to define the Nameless ethnically in the past, but it has been difficult to do so. But when I started to understand the relation between ley lines and the energy vortex positions it started to become a little more clear. The island of Maui has the greatest Nameless population density that I have ever experienced, but there were a lot of bicultural (mixed racial heritage) in the people that I saw. Vietnam is near a ley line vortex and I have seen many Vietnamese Americans in San Jose that have the attributes I ascribe to the Nameless, people from the country of India, Mexico, Europeans as well with each having powerful ley line vortices within their geography. There seems to be a connection between powerful ley line vortices and ethnicity or nationality within the group I call the Nameless.

The Nameless are using the relationship between these energy vortices and consciousness. I believe that this energy has the ability to aid in ascension. I believe that this energy has the ability to cause conscious metamorphosis (awakening). Although I have been unable to attain the energy levels I once had in Hawaii, I believe that I can if I visit these places where the energy is most abundant (not necessarily a ley line or vortex). As I mentioned in my ebook Yosemite's Half Dome is one of those places, it is the first place I noticed a change in my own level of energy. There are many and one in particular that I visit regularly, that is occupied by the Nameless, is James Lick Observatory on Mt. Hamilton (I now remember that there were high concentrations of the Nameless in the Bear Mountain area near San Bernardino CA. also).

Nature

In nature the other species that inhabit this planet are well aware of the benefits of this energy, where it accumulates and how to use this energy. The most obvious place is the ocean's waves. The image above is of a brown pelican. If you spend time on a beach where ocean birds are present you will notice the birds surfing the waves. It looks like they are surfing the air being pushed by the wave, but I believe they are recharging or feeding off the energy (bioelectric) of the wave itself. Dolphins, seals, sharks and other large fish do this also. There is something contained within the wave that is vital to life itself. I believe that this energy originates at the ley vortices within our oceans and is carried to our shores by the waves. The levels of ozone in the air along our coasts may have something to do with electrical nature of this natural energy.

If anyone has spent time in nature they notice there is a difference, but they may not know why. Our lives in cities are filled with artificial radio waves and artificial structures that disrupt the natural energy of the earth. In cities we are disconnected, stressed and depressed because were are not receiving this vital energy. Surfers that are unable to surf become depressed and agitated because they are unable to recharge or bathe in the natural energy of the earth transported by the waves not because of the activity itself.

There is nothing like the feeling of being propelled by a wave. I miss the times when I was swimming at Ala Moana beach park during high surf. The motion of the waves lifting my body as I swam through the water was the most relaxing and energizing feeling I have ever felt. You cannot get the same experience swimming in a lake, it's just not the same.

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I am aware that most of this is speculative and based upon my observations and experiences. But they do coincide with observations others have made public. This blog is not a definitive assessment of all of consciousness. It is a journal of my experiences that I hope will be a guide to others like myself that are seeking answers to the nagging questions concerning their own journey through consciousness. Believe it or not we are all in this together, all tied together. There is much, much more to this existence than we are capable of understanding. Don't allow anyone to deny your right to experience the limitless expanse that consciousness has to offer.

Interestingly Nassim Haramein and Marko Rodin live on the Hawaiian Islands. My ominous adventures and discoveries climaxed while living in Honolulu. Something is happening in Hawaii.

NOTE: As I was preparing to update this post there was a very strong electromagnetic wave of radiation that came over me 05/09/13 12:53 PST. It was the strongest I have felt in quite some time, since the attacks in Honolulu. It just stopped and I do not feel drained or adversely effected by it. What it tells me is that they do not want this information to be disseminated and I am evolving beyond their technology.

Validated

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I stirred up the hornets nest with yesterday's post concerning the Illuminati and Rosie O'Donnell's heart attack and the tactics they deploy. They sent an relatively benign looking old man in a floppy khaki green hat, shorts and hiking boots as I was shopping. When he passed me I felt the attack and turned around and followed him to the register, I wanted to see his face. From a distance he knew I was focused upon him and he looked at me with a bit of a concerned look on his face. I uttered a phrase asking consciousness for retribution and walked away. I will begin to take pictures of these people and post them here in the future.

I felt the effects of the attack, but as usual I just shrugged it off and went about my day. The last thing that I am going to do is confront them, that would make me look crazier than all this sounds. What they need from me to assist in their form of harm is to be afraid. Fear is a big part of the attack. As fear sets in, your connection to consciousness diminishes and the flow of energy within the meridians (heart and crown) of your energetic bio-body begins to wane. This is where the damage occurs as your ability to receive energy from consciousness suffers (like air being restricted from your lungs).

I knew I had struck a nerve with the last post as they ascended upon me while I was riding my bike last night. Their minions and thugs parading by me in the SUVs staring at me as they ride by. I am getting comfortable with this when it happens. The more it happens the more I will be able to ignore it. I am waiting to see what they will try next. Surely it would be easy to run me down on my bike, but that has not happened and everyday I go for a ride.

I am not taunting them directly. I am curious to see what happens. Can they put me in the hospital? Can they cause a fatal accident? What will happen after death? Will I do the same thing as I did the first time while I was moving through the void? Will I go through another transition and come back even stronger?

Rodin, Quarts, Neodymium and Xenon

I have been using a device (found on this blog) to protect myself from the harmful effects of electromagnetic radiation and the effects of the attacks mentioned above. It was not until I began to use Marko Rodin's coil that things began to change.

The coil allows me to introduce sound into the device to temper the energy from the neodymium magnets, crystal (very important) and xenon flash tube. The configuration for the parts that work for me is: the magnetic scalar field (north poles bucking against one another), the silicon dioxide (crystals, sand or powder), and then the xenon flash tube connected to a 12v electronic flasher (the parts can be arranged differently, but this works for me).

The sound is run through the coil in opposite directions and same direction while altering the phase of both right and left channels. The placement of the coil must be in the path of the energy emitted from the device. The amplitude can be adjusted to attenuate the energy, but caution should be used in to avoid distortion of the sine wave. Solfeggio frequencies (396, 693, 963, 174, 417, 741, 285, 528, 852) are being used with positive as well as interesting results. The coil seems to enhance the effects of the solfeggio frequencies. I have found that the so-called enhanced frequencies noted on the internet are not as effective.

Sorry for being vague, but I cannot be too specific about the design at this time, for obvious reasons. This info is free to use as it is a design from different known technologies on the web. This design has been released for use by anyone for any purpose freely as noted in my ebook.

Latest modular device design without Rodin coil

CAUTION: This is experimental. I am able to feel the effects of the device, some people cannot. Overdoses of energy is possible with symptoms ranging in over excitation and numbness. The energy emitted is believed to be etheric or zero point energy. When the device is in direct sunlight (solar radiation) the effects are enhanced.

WARNING: Those that I refer to as the Nameless are effected adversely by this technology, use at your own risk. Do not use this on anyone without their consent.

If the Nameless continue to attack I'll keep posting (self perpetuating ordeal). When the posts stop, they were successful and I am in transition.

Until next time, B+...

Karma

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Karma

Today was a heavy day. I was involved in conflict for most of the morning and afternoon. I was consumed by my emotions. It was not until I remembered something I have been demanding of consciousness. I demand that karmic retribution must become a priority in this realm of existence (that which you do will be done unto you). I demand that all beings are subject to this law of consciousness, including myself. I feel there is a need for it to be swift and immediate before the perpetrator can forget the act that caused it. As I reflected upon this, I recalled the action I committed that brought the wrath of karmic retribution into my conscious experience.

My conscious evolution continues to surprise me. When I am able to recognize that my actions are reflected back and manifest within my life, it is very rewarding regardless of how I perceive it (positive/negative). I am well aware that I need to make more changes in my life. I know that I am not the person I want to be. This nugget of information came to me as I put forth my conscious intentions. I desire to manifest a utopia, but one day I realized that I would not want a person like myself (currently) to be a part of that utopia. Needless to say that epiphany was significant.

Illuminati

On a more ominous note. I often think about my difficulty with those I refer to as the Nameless. I have to ask why they are so prevalent in my life, so obvious. There may be reasons why this is so. Many use the term Illuminati in regards to the new world order and indicate that the Nameless may be associated with the Illuminati. Interestingly my grandfather was a Free Mason. I attended his funeral at an early age and the wake included a man standing in front of the casket holding a sword between the body and the viewers. What does that make me? There are still far too many questions, than I have answers.

Heartmath

Since, I resumed updating this blog I have been receiving an increased dose of electromagnetic radiation. I suspect the radiation to be in the microwave spectrum, same spectrum as our pervasive cell phone technology. This is happening on a daily basis now, when in the past it was increased whenever I was overcome with a feeling of contentment and bliss (they don't want me to be happy). These feelings of contentment and bliss are more frequent now then in the past regardless of their attempt to suppress these feelings. It is my belief that the feelings are an emotional response to a connection to the greater conscious realm.

There is a connection between the consciousness that animates us and that of the greater consciousness. I am starting to discover that this connection involves the heart or meridian known as the heart chakra the brain or crown chakra. Although we are always connected to consciousness, but the strength of that connection differs wildly during our life. Futile attempts by the Nameless to disrupt these connection points has always resulted in some remnant, albeit mild, discomfort. It is necessary for the attacker to be close to the victim for this to happen.

I make it difficult for them to get close to me now (they are also keeping their distance from me - something I will elaborate on at a later time), but they have tried to bait me and play upon my emotions. A child and mother were riding their bicycles in front of my place of residence. They were having some problems with one of the bikes. I began to walk forward to offer help and then felt that I shouldn't. I went inside and they were able to resolve the problem themselves. I remember the strength of my intuition, it was a definite NO!

A few months later I read about Rosie O'Donnel's mild heart attack. Her heart attack happened as she was helping an elderly person. This reminded me of my own experiences of how they sent an innocent little old lady to cause me harm. Rosie's experience seems oddly familiar, and relevant considering Rosie's views on the government and possibly Hollywood. Please note I am well aware that these statements are purely conjecture, I have not talked with Rosie to verify these statements, but the similarities are striking.

My connection to consciousness is getting stronger everyday. There will come a time when that connection will never be disrupted. That is all that I have been trying to achieve. I want to connect to that which I came. This has always been my purpose and always will be.

In the next post I want to talk about my work with the Rodin Coil. Until then, stay positive...