Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Rules for Ascension?

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We live in a society that has many rules (requirements, guidelines, directions). There are rules that govern just about everything we do. There are even rules that govern spirituality, a.k.a religion. Most of the rules concerning any mention of ascension primarily concerns the life lived prior to death, with death being the gateway to ascension and the life lived prior to death that determines if you ascend to some state of heaven, nirvana, etc...  In other words, the life you live determines if you will ascend (be rewarded) after death.

What I am looking for are the rules to ascend prior to death. I am asking anyone to show me where this knowledge exists. I have asked this before and I am still trying to find out if there are general rules that are well known, understood and practiced. Please feel free to provide the answer to this question in the comments section.

Just to be clear, I am not looking for rules that define ascension after death in the text of the Koran, Bible, Torah, Rigveda, The Diamond Sutra, Kangyur, Tao Te Ching, Bagavad Gita, etc... I am looking for rules that would allow anyone to ascend while they are alive. We have all heard that love is the true path to enlightenment, but does it also apply to ascension? If there aren't any rules or instructions to ascend, then why? It seems as if ascending to higher states of consciousness has been left out of our social dialog. Why is this the case? Shouldn't we all be trying to ascend and/or transcend our current state of being?

Let me be clear what I mean by ascension. Ascension is to rise to a higher state of consciousness where virtually anything is possible. To be able to be in harmony with consciousness in a manner that allows you to consciously create your reality in a more direct manner. To be connected to consciousness where all knowledge is available to you. It is a state where you no longer use your mind to think because you exist in a state of knowing. Because you are completely connected to consciousness, it is also a state of immortality.

Saturday, January 28, 2012

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For Every Action, There is a Reaction

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My last post must have been more accurate than I thought. I can always count on the Nameless to react to my actions that threaten the paradigm they depend on to maintain this grand delusion. Now that I am inspired by, and connected to, source consciousness my journey is taking me away from anything that might be an obstacle to my ascension in its many forms.

A Mental and Physical Workout

The day was a good day, just as I intended. I have been humming along guided by an undercurrent of well-being. It is becoming easier to connect to it. A couple days ago I was overcome with the fact that I am truly fearless. It was a new aspect of my new state of well-being. Everything I did had an air of confidence. I did not concern myself with worry about anything. I found myself living in the moment and within the moment everything was beautiful.

The day was beautiful. A bright sun and crystal clear skies were joined by a windy chill. I could not wait for a chance to go for a bike ride. Late in the day I gathered my gear and set off my ride and a chance to capture some pictures of the setting sun. I exited the house and rolled down the street. I saw the one of the Nameless minions (half-bred hybrids of the Nameless and their brood) that lives at the corner walking out with his cell phone in hand. I did not care, I just hummed along my way.

I am aware that all I see is there for me, nothing is a coincidence. This is my dream unfolding before me, co-creation with source consciousness. I pay attention and make adjustments, nothing is taken for granted. I  connected to the hum of source consciousness, set my sights on a wonderful ride and put the minion out of my mind.

I rode along the back roads I had not been on in a while. I saw the new homes and neighborhoods that have been built where there used to be nothing but pasture and open space. I was enjoying the ride and the accompanying feeling of well-being. I had traveled about 10 miles, I could have gone further, I wanted to,  but the sun was about to set. I turned around to head back home and started to look for high ground to take in the setting sun.

I turned into one of the new neighborhoods and climbed to the top of a hill. I watched the sun set and took pictures at different intervals. Soon after the sun set I rode down the hill and headed back home. I started to notice that I was starting to worry. One thought lead to another and soon my mood went into a downward spiral toward fear and frustration. It felt as if something was dragging me from my connection to source consciousness, kicking and screaming. I fought back and began to focus on the moment and more positive emotions. I was locked in a battle to rid myself of the negativity that suddenly came on with my own style of mental kung fu.

Friday, January 27, 2012

Vibrational Coherence

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Birds of a feather flock together. Because we exist in the same space we must be vibrating at the same frequency. We can only experience things of similar frequency, but what about things of the same frequency that are slightly out of phase? Is it possible to be slightly out of phase and not see something or someone that is occupying the same space?

Phase difference is the difference, expressed in electrical degrees or time, between two waves having the same frequency and referenced to the same point in time.[1] Two oscillators that have the same frequency and different phases have a phase difference, and the oscillators are said to be out of phase with each other. The amount by which such oscillators are out of step with each other can be expressed in degrees from 0° to 360°, or in radians from 0 to 2π. If the phase difference is 180 degrees (π radians), then the two oscillators are said to be in antiphase. If two interacting waves meet at a point where they are in antiphase, then destructive interference will occur. It is common for waves of electromagnetic (light, RF), acoustic (sound) or other energy to become superposed in their transmission medium. When that happens, the phase difference determines whether they reinforce or weaken each other. Complete cancellation is possible for waves with equal amplitudes.

Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phase_%28waves%29

This page has been broadcasted over a satellite network and out into space. This page and the information contained within it existed in a variety of digital forms and frequencies. Is it possible that this web page can exist on many different dimensions of time and space to be seen by beings of different vibrational frequencies? Crop circles might come to mind whenever I think about how this might be possible.


During the time when the Nameless were using their technology to drain my life force from me, the following day I went out to the market. I noticed that the neighborhood I lived in was different. There were sketchy people standing on the corners as if they were dealing in stolen goods. Most of the people I saw looked as if they were suffering from some kind of substance abuse. Everything looked as if it were run down. The vibrational level of my immediate environment was the lowest I had ever experienced. Just a few days before everything seemed normal, comfortable and pleasing.

The following days I was able to regain my energy and return to my normal state of being. I also saw an improvement in my immediate environment. The people I saw were healthier and the sketchy dealers were nowhere to be seen. The neighborhood was cleaner and clearer. I had always noticed the changes in my environment were a direct response to my thoughts and actions. These were the clues or breadcrumbs that sustained my curiosity and ultimately lead my psychedelic trip through the void and the resulting revelations.

Where the Nameless able to alter my vibrational frequency enough to change my conscious experience or put me out of phase with my perceived normal conscious reality? (Normal conscious reality? Is there such a thing?).

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Consciousness - Ver. 1

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Anyone that had ever taken the time to define consciousness, was for the most part, wrong. They were also right and somewhere in the middle. Consciousness cannot not be defined universally. I mean to say that it there is not one single answer (I realize that I am trying to explain, and ultimately define, consciousness - the perplexing fuzzy nature of consciousness). All answers are right, and wrong.

Religion is a means to describe and understand consciousness. Most religions define consciousness as God or Gods. There are so many different religious beliefs and manifestations of those beliefs that have come and gone probably far too many to know or be able to record. The many faces of mythology are proof that consciousness is multi infinitely faceted. Not all religions agree, but anyone can see a single thread that weaves them all together. What is consciousness? What if it was up to you to decide.

If I would say that you are the center of the universe, this would be an understatement on a very grand scale. It does not matter if you are sitting in your room, standing on a mountain or at the center of a galaxy, you are at the center of consciousness. It can be no other way. You view everything from a single point in consciousness, your consciousness (your very own private Idaho). This is true for you and everyone else. Nothing new here concerning the self centered philosophies of old. This is one of my personal facets of what consciousness means to me. I am sure it will change over time or become irrelevant.

There have been many times when I have attempted to define consciousness. Pages of words that regurgitate the words of those that have come before me. When I read the drafts, journals and notes of my own attempts I see that they are very different form each other. I do not see a single thread that weaves them all together. Some of them no longer connect with me. I am beginning to see why.

Consciousness is a moving target. Consciousness is a metaphor, an apparition of the past present and future states of being existing in the moment. As I sit here again trying to put my feelings into words, I have a image in my mind of a child being tended to by its parents. I am a child of consciousness? I now get an image of cells dividing, expanding and again dividing. Anything is possible and everything is a valid representation of consciousness.

Before I posted this I was struck by the thought that any attempt to define consciousness also limits consciousness. A label or container that confines a concept. I can see why many people have used the terms infinite and formless as a means to describe consciousness.  They still do not do it justice.

I posted this against my better judgement. I want to see how these words effect my consciousness and how they manifest themselves within my conscious experiences...

Sunday, January 22, 2012

I Am Making Progress

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My goal is and has always been to ascend to a higher state of consciousness. When I discover how to transcend this plane of existence I will. I don't have anything to prove to anyone. I guess if I would have been successful I would not be maintaining this blog, I'd be connected to the source again and creating a new realm for me to exist in. Since that is not the case and I have run into a few sangs along the way, I continue my journey. With everything I have experienced, how do I know I am making progress? I pay attention to my conscious surroundings.

Everything that you experience is there for you. The moment when you change your world view to this paradigm is the moment when your life will change. There is nothing that happens in your life that is meaningless. Just as everything in a dream has purpose so does everything within your waking dream. The mind really does not distinguish a dream from your so called waking reality. When you sleep and dream you believe everything is real. You believe the same for the waking dream world, but you will not fully realize this until there is something else to compare it to.

I pay attention to what I experience during the day and just like my sleeping dreams my attention will be directed toward a significant character or event. When my life is stagnant or caught in a loop my life is uneventful concerning significant events. Sometimes I like it that way, considering my more recent experiences. The important thing to do is to pay attention to as many things a possible. To do this you need to be present in the moment. You will then notice the things that are trying to get your attention.

When I am paying attention I am connected to the source and in the flow of well-being. Things that need my attention get my attention and I am navigating the dream that is my life. When the activity of those trying to prevent my ascension is high I know that I am doing the right things. When their activity is low I know that I need to try harder. (There are other things I use as indicators that I am not going to mention at this time. There are some things I need to keep well withing the confines of my personal conscious realm.) They will always let me know when I am going in the right direction for me, and the wrong direction for them.

A couple days ago after basking in the glow of well-being, and posting about it, I felt the familiar sensation of having the life drained out of me. Whatever technology of ability that was used was identical to what I have experienced and endured in Hawaii and Los Angeles. What used to prompt fear in me know only excites me. As I felt the life being drained from me, I just smiled. I said in a low voice to them "c'mon you can do it" "send me back to the source". This was the first time that I had felt that sensation since moving back to California. It seems the Nameless in California haven't yet realized that I do not have a problem going back to the source. I will do the same thing I had done when I entered the void. I will recreate this life as I did before. This time, I will not be confused. The abilities and level of ascension I will attain will not be wasted the next time.

Soon after I acknowledged that I was ready and that I was not afraid, the sensation stopped. I cannot be sure if there was another intervention of some kind, if there was I am grateful nonetheless. After the effects of the experience faded I realized some things. I am ready to transcend by any means no matter what happens. The will is the strongest and important tool I have and with it I can do anything. And, when they do those things to me I know I am making progress.

They Can't Help Themselves

Today I went on a bike ride. Due to the weather I had not made a decision on my route. I came to a point in my ride where I needed to make a decision and so I stopped and checked out the direction of the clouds and waited for the right emotion to point the way. The Long flat route through the area or climb in the foothills. Foothills felt better than a flat ride because I also wanted to get away from the electromagnetic radio interference in the suburban sprawl, so I started up the hill. As I started to leave the more populated areas I suddenly felt that continuing up the hill would not be a good thing. I started to feel strongly about it and then I decided to turn back. As soon as I completed the u-turn, my attention was drawn to my left. I saw a Chinese couple, in their forties or fifties, staring at me. They were standing near the parking lot of a condo/apartment complex staring at me. One of them was smiling at me or smiling because of my action. I rolled down a few more feet and then realized what had happened. I turned back around and I peddled back up toward the hills and when I came back to the place where the couple was standing, they were gone. All this happened within a minute or less.

The Jedi mind tricks of the Nameless were in force, again. I am able to discern when they do this to me more now than before. There is a reason why I like to go to natural places that are free of the electromagnetic interference. I can regain and maintain a level of energy, or chi and I am able to make a deeper connection with the source energy (greater consciousness, life force, or God - take your pick). They know this and keeping me away from the natural places helps them keep me in check. They were there to influence me to ride within the confines of the suburban sprawl. It almost worked, but I am getting better at maintaining my attention and also realizing that my own gut feeling feels different than their Jedi mind tricks.

In the past here were many times when I felt a need to leave or suddenly change my mind. I believed that it was my gut, or intuition, that was directing me. I no longer believe this to be the case. The Nameless are capable to influencing you. Most of the time they do this to keep you out of an area they are occupying. Sometimes you may even encounter a person that will get right in front of you and stare at you. A blank stare with an intention to scare you off. They are effective in using your fear to do what they want. If this happens to you don't confront them, ignore them.

I do not need the Nameless. They serve me no purpose. I realize that there will come a time when I can stop writing about my encounters with the Nameless and write about my experiences as I continue ascending and transcending. They have my attention now, but I know that won't always be the case. Whatever they are and whatever they are attempting to do, they just can't help themselves.

The only thing standing in my way is me. I am more powerful than I realize. When I realize my own power within my own dream, nothing will be able stop me. Not even me.

I am the peaceful warrior...

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Today Was Different

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I had always noticed that the time before, during and after dusk and dawn are special or auspicious. There is a change in the surrounding conscious energy during those times. It is as if a window is opened to connect with some form of energy. When I lived in Hawaii I was being attacked by the Nameless on a daily and nightly basis. The most consistent and intense attacks would always begin a half hour before sunset and increase as the sun set and then would trailed off a half hour later. There was something that the Nameless were trying to prevent me from doing. I suspected that they were attempting to prevent me from manifesting my desires and thoughts during this auspicious time. But, today was different.

Yesterday I spent most of the day in a blissful state. Today it was not as strong, but there were lingering effects and I could tell that I was still in the flow of well-being. I set off on a bike ride just before the sunset. I focused upon maintaining my connection to the source consciousness and increased my pace in order to aid in settling my mind and focus my intention. Some time after the sun set a wave of contentment came over me. I found myself in the same state of bliss as the day before. I sat up and opened my arms to take it all in. I looked toward the setting sun, the orange and blue sky never looked more beautiful. I was again in the flow of source consciousness riding along on my bike, my hands freezing from the cold night air without a care in the world.

I returned home and I noticed that I am seeing the world differently. Everything is as it should be. There is purpose and significance to all things. I am lucid in my dream and I no longer have issues with all that I experience. Everything seems to be falling into place or I am now in harmony with everything.  I find myself experiencing things and then acknowledging that I understand its purpose. I pause and shake my head in amazement as I appreciate the significance of that experience. I can't help but want more of those experiences in my life. I think how cool this all is, but then I remind myself that this is just the beginning.

Some Things of Substance

My journey through the void was the beginning of a conscious transformation that continue to this very moment. The Nameless were revealed to me, but they tolerated me. Occasional small doses of DMT were not an issue with the Nameless, but whenever I used cannabis they went out of their way to let me know that they did not approve. I remember how my life changed whenever I would take a toke while at a party during the days of my youth before I knew the Nameless existed.  There were even times when I would see an image in my mind of a future incident after taking a few hits and meditating. I never consumed cannabis on a regular basis. At that time I did not know how to use it properly.

When I was living in Hawaii I was using white powdered gold to bring about a change in myself. I was determined to transform into what I thought I should be. The image of a yogi, a monk, a peaceful warrior with an awakened mind was always in the back of my own mind. I was searching for something that opened my consciousness to the life I was living. I searched for simplicity. The alchemical powder was, and still is, of great benefit to me. I believe that when I combined the use of cannabis and white powdered gold there was a shift in consciousness that I was not aware of.  Life began to unfold in interesting a dramatic ways. It was at that time that the Nameless swiftly descended on me trying to send a message to stop what I was doing. Since that time I have since stopped using cannabis, but my experiences with my past use are of great interest to me.

The beauty and usefulness of substances that are capable of altering consciousness is that they offer insight into other possibilities. The realm of consciousness is vast. It should be explored, carefully. What we see in your daily life is such a small measure of what is possible that I cannot find a word that could describe it fully. Like a dream unfolding before you where anything is possible. As you live this dream your thoughts and desires influence the direction of the expansion of the dream in an infinite ever changing possibilities and directions. There are many layers or dimensions intersecting and interacting. Creation in constant motion, the whole of consciousness expanding in relation to this creation.

The expansion of consciousness expands the range of infinite possibilities we are able to experience. There is so much more to this experience than we are able to experience or possibly allowed to experience.  Don't allow anyone regulate what you can put in your body (as an adult) in the privacy of your own home.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012


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I have spent most of the day in a state of well-being and contentment. I wanted to share this feeling with everyone and anyone, so I thought that writing a post would be a good way to do this.

When I first felt a wave of utter contentment engulf me, it was when I was spending a lot of time meditating. I meditated as many times a day as I could. One day I was cutting wood late in the day in preparation for a stormy evening. The wind was blowing the leaves from the tress above me. Gusts of wind were roaring through the branches. The environment was exciting and full of activity. I always appreciated the power of our natural settings. It was always an awesome sight to behold when things were unsettled.  I sat down in a patch of grass and leaves to take in my surroundings, and the feeling of bliss began to wash over me. At first is was slow and then it began to build as I gave into it. Then I surrendered fully and it was nothing like I had ever felt before. There is nothing like the first time.

I have had several other moments of feeling blissful. I appreciate them when they come, even more so when I am able to sustain them. Normally those that are watching me do whatever is necessary to end my bliss, today was different. Even though I have become accustomed to having frequent days of bliss and feelings of love for everything, today was certainly the longest I have been able to sustain them.

In the past I had to focus and pay attention to it when it came to me. I would watch it rise and fall. It usually left me fighting to hold onto it. Today was different. Today it did wash over me, today if felt as if I was floating within it. I was caught in the flow of it. As I went about my day, I watched as it carried me along. It was always present even when I was distracted by my experiences. I could feel it pulling me along not allowing me to drift away. The time I spent with family members was flowing within it and everyone was happy. Life was easier.

Before I began to write, I felt compelled to sit and meditate and submit to it completely. It flows within me now even stronger than before and I hope that it will continue for the rest of my existence. If by chance when I wake up in the morning and not be able to feel its presence, it will not bother me. I now know that this will only be temporary. In its absence I will feel estranged, and I will realize that it is no longer normal to feel this way. I am beginning to believe that the state of well-being is our natural state. It is the way everyone should feel all the time. We belong in the flow of well-being to receive all that it has to offer. It feels like home to me. Like returning home after being gone for a very long time.

Today was different.

Love and light to all those that continue to help me find my way.

Friday, January 13, 2012

Hiding in Plain Sight...

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Something that I have been trying to understand is the why of my situation. Why am I (possibly others also) being prevented from ascending or expanding my consciousness. I have not come up with a satisfactory answer, but I have had an interesting thought that has demanded a lot of my attention.

The Nameless are people or beings that have formidable and varying levels of energy and abilities. It is their understanding of consciousness that makes them formidable. But, they have limitations or else I would not be here typing these words. Those limitations are possible because consciousness serves everyone, not just those that are using it to subjugate others.

Why are they trying to stop me and what do they have to lose from my ascension or conscious evolution? As I have mentioned in a prior post, the amount of Nameless I have experienced in Catholic institutions is very high. I have had close friends that attended various Catholic educational institutions. As I look back into my past I can see how a lot of my friends, girlfriends, seem to be associated with each other in one way or another. Even after ending my relationship with them, oddly enough, other people that tried to become my friend seem to have or had some connection to Catholicism. I even met someone studying to become a priest that tried to become my friend. My past relationships with my Catholic friends and especially the behavior of their friends and associates begins to make more sense to me now. My recent conversation with a childhood friend concerning the activity of people in his life closely resemble the activity of the people I call the Nameless. He belongs to a Catholic church and his perception of consciousness is very different from mine. I can see how he is being manipulated and the difficulty in his life stems from this manipulation.   

The answer to my question was staring right in the face. Something wicked this way comes and it is hiding within Catholic organization. Are the Nameless people of the Catholic faith that have discovered a means to evolve in some way or are the Nameless using Catholicism and its institutions as a front. I can not think of an older more powerful institution that would be a better place to hide in plain site. The Nameless are protecting their interests, power, influence and financial superiority within a well established global network that exists in almost every community and seemingly more powerful in affluent communities.

Whatever or whoever they are, the Nameless have acquired this power and influence with some extraordinary abilities. I have had first hand experience with some of these abilities such as, hearing the thoughts of others, disrupting the flow of vital energy in the body of others (causing illness), influence the thoughts and behavior of others and influence and manifest their immediate reality. As wild as this seems, it is very real (within the scope of consciousness). Their success with these abilities is because the rest of us do not believe it to be possible. I know that these abilities are possible I have had experiences with them and also used some of their abilities to expose them. There have been times when I am able to overcome the EM fields and tap into the greater consciousness and see what it has to offer. I can see what is available to me and available to everyone. 

In my ebook I describe my own use of white powdered gold and the abilities that it can grant the user. I have claimed that white powdered gold was used by the Nameless in order to gain these abilities to exploit others. But many of the abilities I describe were available to me before my use of white powdered gold. Some of the abilities I discovered after my journey through the void. I did not know what had happened to me and I soon pushed them aside out of fear and confusion. The Nameless ensured that my energy levels or vibrational frequency was diminished, by using electromagnetic radiation and drugs to prevent me from evolving consciously. White powdered gold was something that enabled me to regain a level of health, energy or well-being. It allowed my body to repair the damage the Nameless were causing since the my journey through the void and for the better part of my life. I cannot be sure of how the Nameless acquired their abilities, white powdered gold may be one of many or possibly something from another dimension, time or reality. I don't know.

Let's consider that the Nameless are consciously evolved Catholic priests and followers running the organization that exist in many forms today (educational, political, judicial, medical, financial, Vatican) and not using Catholic organizations as a front. Any established western religious organization would have a great deal to lose if everyone would begin to discover what I have discovered.  Mainly the deliberate prevention of the expansion of ones consciousness that would lead to ascension in any or many forms. This is not your everyday enlightenment. What I am referring to is to connect with the greater consciousness in its entirety, completely. The path to God, consciousness or whatever you want to call it, would no longer run through the church, temple or mosque. People would begin to connect (as individuals and not as part of a religious order) with the source and evolve consciously in greater numbers. The Catholic power structure would have the most to lose if humankind found a different path to salvation. 

Hasn't Catholicism (as well as other established religions) been destroying and preventing the right of individuals to expand their consciousness throughout its (their) reign. The use of mysticism, witchcraft, psychedelics, and other esoteric practices have been burned, buried and outlawed. Interestingly this is still being carried out to this day. In the U.S.A. freedom of religion is guaranteed as long as you choose from a list of acceptable practices (or any practice that does not include the use of psychedelics). The Nameless within the Catholic institutions are using their abilities (and technology in the form of electromagnetic radiation) to exploit you, to prevent you from evolving consciously and discovering those same abilities. They have been preventing people from experiencing what I have experienced for quite some time. I experienced an awakening that I was unable to understand some 11 years ago. I am now beginning to understand what had happened to me as I continue to evolve regardless of their attempts to stop or slow it down.

PLEASE NOTE: I do not have a problem with any religion. I was once a person that looked toward religion for answers. Religion serves a purpose for those that are looking for a construct to define their lives. The religious construct became to confining for me so I looked to the East for answers and methods to understand my life.  Religion was part of my experience and has formed my current frame of reference, but I no longer need it. Please do not misunderstand, I do not have any dislike for the people that practice Catholicism, or any other religion. But, what I am now finding disturbing is that there is an interesting connection with my experiences with the Nameless and Catholic organizations.

Don't take my word for it. Take a look for yourself. I did not write this to create conflict. Conflict goes against any path toward salvation and awakening to the source energy. I wrote this to create awareness and foster a greater awakening. Remember magicians must keep means of the illusion a secret in order for the trick to be effective. If you know the trick, it's no longer magic. There can be no delusion if you are aware that a delusion exists. And, when you become aware of the dream you suddenly have an urge to wake up.

Monday, January 9, 2012

Public Places (I See Space People?)

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It still fascinates me that I am able to detect most of the people that are different from most of the other people I see. I see couples together and notice that one has the characteristics of a person with a higher level of energy or vibrational state (some of those I call the Nameless). This tells me that these people or beings (Nameless) are integrating into our society currently as they have been for quite some time. I see them on various vibrational levels. I know that there are infinite vibrational levels that everyone can experience. Since I am consciously aware of this I have become a problem for some of these people or beings. It seems to me that the Nameless do not want you to know that there is an entirely different and positive experience available to everyone. The Adjustment Bureau was a film that struck a chord with me, but instead of some divine the Nameless seem to have a more sinister scheme.

The level of energy, vibration, that I am able to maintain determines what I am able to experience. This vibrational state should not be confused with the New Age terms often used and misused to describe what a person experiences. I am referring to states of conscious experiences that are defined by your actual energy level or vibration. This becomes difficult to describe, but for most of you that spend time in isolated wilderness areas you notice a change in your conscious experiences. You feel better when you are in those natural surroundings and you carry that back with you. You see that your reality or conscious environment is more positive then when you left. It is not by coincidence it is because your vibrational state has changed. The slowly it is diminished by the ambient electromagnetic interference of your urban home environment to a more negative vibrational state.

Looking at artificial positive vibrational environments like Las Vegas, Disneyland, etc. you notice that if you enjoy the experience it has the ability to create a positive vibrational experience for the visitor. This isn't always the case because people can still have bad experiences in these locations because they are artificial and not natural. Yes, I understand people can have negative experiences in natural environments also, but that isn't the norm.

It is your vibrational state that is influenced by the ambient vibrational state of your immediate surroundings. Natural environments have a very positive effect on your vibrational state. Urban environments can have very negative vibrational states. Your emotional state is an indication of your vibrational state. Positive emotional states are and indication of positive environmental vibrational states. The opposite is true for negative environmental vibrations. I have found that electromagnetic radiation can be used (is being used) to change the vibrational state of the environment to influence the behavior of people in that environment. My experiences with the people I call the Nameless have used strong EM radiation to alter my emotional state, health and wellbeing in order to prevent me from ascending, expanding my consciousness and manifesting my desires.

If you are feeling negative, uninspired, depressed, unhappy, bored, a general feeling of futility you are being influenced by the negative environmental vibrational state in your typical home and workplace.  Cell phone towers, wifi transmitters and receivers, are primarily responsible in disrupting natural positive environmental vibrational states. Wether or not this is intentional, it is possible to overcome. You have the ability to change your vibrational state with your thoughts. More New Age mumbo jumbo? No! It works and you do it all the time. Change your thoughts and your emotional state will follow. Positive emotional vibrational states will infect your consciousness and your conscious experiences.

There is a truly wonderful experience that is waiting for you. You just need to change your vibrational state in order to be able to experience it. What you give your attention to you will find in abundance. Give your attention to as many positive thoughts and ideas as possible. As they come into your conscious experience focus upon them and appreciate them and more will come. Don't allow anyone to prevent you from whatever makes you happy, brings you joy and manifests that powerful emotion called love.

Extraterrestrials, aliens, space people, angels, heaven, hell, utopia, etc. are terms that can limit the expansion of your consciousness. Do not allow anyone or anything define your reality. It is your right to ascend beyond your current reality. Ultimately there is nothing that can suppress your will. You might not yet know this, but there is much more to your current experience than you and some other people (beings) want you to discover. It is time to push beyond this current reality and create a new reality without limitations, boundaries and perceptions.

Friday, January 6, 2012

Now Following Ask Aliens


I cannot claim that aliens exist. The typical alien that we are all familiar with may or may not exist. I have not seen one, so I cannot comment on the existence of extraterrestrials. But, I have had some mind blowing experiences in the last year that have forced me to reformat my frame of reference.

I contacted Ask Aliens out of desperation, while I was in Hawaii and an interesting thing happened after making contact with whoever runs the site. The activity of the Nameless stopped considerably and I started to see some people that were very different from those I refer to as the Nameless observing me closely. Because of the attacks that I endured at the hands of the Nameless I wasn't in the best state of mind to approach anyone. Everyone was suspect and I did not allow myself to trust anyone.  Since that time in Hawaii there has been a shift in the behavior of the Nameless and their activity. They operate more covertly as if they are trying to keep their activity a secret not only to us, but also to other beings or entities in this plane of existence.

I cannot be certain of what may be happening, but things have changed considerably since contacting the person that runs the Ask Aliens Blogspot. I do not know if the Arcturians had anything to do with the changes I have experienced or that they are protecting me in some way. I am grateful in any case. Anything is possible, I for one am sure of that now.

Ask Aliens is promoting something that I am very much in tune with and that is to move toward a more positive state of consciousness. I will be posting more about this in the future. Take a few moments of your time and see what it's all about ask-aliens.blogspot.com.

End of Blog Transfer


This marks the end of the blog transfer. A good deal has changed since I started posting in August of 2011. There is a lot that has happened and I continue to be in the middle of something that I do not quite understand completely.

The move to this site allows for increased dissemination of my story and allows mobile users to access this blog which was not possible with the current original site. This blog will endure long after I have moved on and I hope that it serves the purpose I hope it does.

Much gratitude and appreciation for those that have been helping me to move forward. I hope that we can continue to communicate in as many ways as possible.

I am not in conflict with those I call the Nameless. I just want to continue my quest and my right to ascend to a higher state of consciousness. This is a description of my experiences and I hope that those of you that are having similar experiences can learn and also share your experiences with all that find themselves here on this blog.

Love and light to all who visit here (wherever here is)...

01.05.12 (Transfered from original blog)

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01.05.12 - Carlos Castaneda's books started me on my psychedelic quest for answers. I did not go into the desert looking for Yaqui indian shaman as many others have. I started out on my quest by myself and used psilocybin. I later read that Carlos's adventures were fictional and I believed that that might be correct, but I no longer feel that way. Carlos's adventures were real as our day to day lives are real. Carlos's experiences were on a completely different level as my experiences are. In the last post I mentioned that I am shifting through levels of consciousness, dimensions or parallel universes. I don't quite have a name for the realities that I experience. I do know that when whatever I see in one dimension I can carry it with me to the next. In my ebook I called my consciousness my cloud and that clouds of different people are capable of overlapping. Think of it as a Venn diagram with like components exist in two separate units where the units or clouds overlap. Carlos and Don Juan were able to experience each other over a common thread (string). In string theory vibration is the key components that allows things to exist. Like vibrational frequencies allow the two separate entities to exist and experience each other. Was Don Juan able to change his vibrational frequency to exist in the same realm as Carlos? I think that this is very possible. I also believe that I could be doing the same thing with these people I call the Nameless and other more positive entities that are helping me. I may have accidentally acquired an ability to shift into different levels of consciousness (dimensions, multi-verses, realities, whatever) or have had this unknown ability all along. I discovered that other people that are able to do the same.
    I remember the areas I used to feel drawn to while I took rides on my motorcycle. As I rode to certain destinations, did I shift into other levels of consciousness to experience an otherwise hidden reality. In other words was I unknowingly able to change my vibration to match the vibration I sensed in my original reality. Did the feeling of riding on my motorcycle alter my vibrational state? There are infinite possible scenarios that might fit this theory. There is also the possibility that my venture through the void has allowed me to exist between the two in that the overlapping components are greater than the unique components between the two dimensional realities. 
    Since my return to San Jose California I have been evolving or expanding my conscious experiences. I am almost like the Borg in that I am assimilating all that I experience into my consciousness. This is fostered by living in a less stressful environment. As my consciousness expands I become stronger or my consciousness becomes stronger. It is fascinating because it has taken on a life of it's own and I am now observing this as it is happening. In the film "Inception" DeCaprio stated that in a dream we are experiencing the dream as we are creating it. That is how my reality is beginning to feel. A dream that I am creating as I experience it. Bit by bit I am starting to consciously create as I go. I had this ability after exiting the void. The Nameless did all they could to help me forget what I had learned that night. It seems like the sleeper has finally awakened.
    The Nameless ares still trying to hinder my evolution, but they have been pushed back into the background noise. I still see them, but they no longer have the ability to cause me harm. My consciousness is capable of engulfing them and rendering them benign. I saw one of them standing in the middle of the Apple store watching me as his cohorts tried to inhibit the flow of chi energy in my heart. I no longer feel the effects of their attacks, just a lingering vibration of another failed attempt. My distant cousin's mother called my relatives the same day. She asked about me three times during the short conversation. I guess she did not have any good news to report back... I never really liked her, now I know why.
    Why the heart? I am starting to understand why they attack the heart. It is the flow of energy and the epicenter of love and other positive emotions. I never really understood the association with the heart and love. I always felt that love was an emotion that was experienced in the brain, or mind. Since the attacks have begun I am getting a better understanding of why they are focusing on this region of my physical body and my energy body. I remember the times when they were effective in causing pressure and pain in my heart with their abilities. It was a matter of restoring energy to that area of my body with my energy device and also by focusing on that part of the body to relieve the effects. There was a definite disruption of energy in my body. The disruption manifested itself in negative emotions of fear and depression. I now can see that the fear and depression were a result of the disruption of positive energy that is capable of manifesting positive emotions of love and contentment. I never really understood why, until recently.
    Emotions are a signaling mechanism of your vibrational state. Happy, joyful and loving emotions cause and ideal emotional state one that would allow me to ascend to a higher state of consciousness. Fear and depression would cause me to descend or return to a level where fear and depression are dominant. The Nameless were able to control my ability to ascend by inhibiting the flow of energy to, or through, my heart. During my ordeal in Hawaii, they focussed the electromagnetic energy at my sacrum. These targeting techniques are used to inhibit the flow of energy in the body to curb positive emotions that can manifest higher states of vibration. The higher (or positive) states of vibration ultimately lead to ascension.
    I have come to this theory because of a recent visit from a childhood friend that is having similar experiences with those I call the Nameless. He did most of the talking during our conversation. The level of his fear was enough to effect me. Towards the end of our meeting I said a few words to calm him down. After the conversation ended and we parted ways I could feel my body's vibrational state. It was both familiar and foreign in that I remember feeling this way before, but I have not felt that way since returning to California. It was as if we were two tuning forks and the vibration from one fork was induced into the other fork. The sensation was overwhelming until I focused on it. I was the observer and once I saw it for what it was it began to diminish.
    I now see that the vibrational state of fear is a highly active state where more positive states are calm. Again this goes along with different states I have experienced with psychedelics, herbal supplements, white powdered gold, medication, and meditation techniques. My level of ascension always increased when I was able to calm my mind or return to a favorable emotional state. My experimentation with rebirthing techniques (submerged in water and breathing through a long snorkel for an hour) always brought changes in my level of energy enough to ascend. The amount of Nameless I saw after my rebirthing sessions were always higher. My vibrational state was at a point to where I was able to interact with them at their level. I was not aware of it at that time, but they would subject me to E.M. frequency, after my rebirthing session, while I slept in order to change my vibrational state - more negative (I believe it to be a microwave frequency that agitates or speeds up water - intense E.M. waves were focused on my sacrum always heated up that area of my body - ie wireless networks, cell phones and wireless home appliances). No matter how many times I used the rebirthing technique I would always fall back to the level of fear and depression after a few days. I see what they have been doing to me all along. I see this in other people I know. 
    I know this is beginning to sound like science fiction, but these people I call the Nameless are controlling levels of consciousness, they are controlling who gets to ascend on a very large scale. This is happening right in front of our eyes. Anyone who is aware of this gets more of their attention, but most of us don't have a clue. We believe that what we experience in our current level is normal. We believe it is normal because we have not experienced anything that would foster an idea that something is wrong; such is life. The role cannabis plays in modulating emotional states in people inhibits their ability to keep us in fear. I can also see why MDMA (the love drug Ecstasy) has been made illegal. Anything that has the capacity to cause extended states of wellbeing is detrimental to their cause. The contrast gives rise to questioning why this reality is so unfulfilling. Extended states of wellbeing is attractinve because it is our natural state of being. It is the normality we are unknowingly seeking.
    I began to use cannabis in Hawaii because I believed that I had an illness, indicated by a loss of body mass. I later discovered that the illness was cased by the Nameless when they were entering my apartment and placing chemicals in my food and supplements. Cannabis eliminated my depression and modulated my fear. I felt better and as my state of wellbeing increased so did my vibrational state. I would spend my time under the influence of cannabis meditating and even rebirthing. I was feeling my best and I began to notice the changes in my conscious cloud. I began to ascend and that is when the activity of the Nameless increased. They were unable to hide from me. They had to scare me into submission and for a period of time they were successful.
    The Nameless are the demons of our time. They are people that have ascended to a level of consciousness and are inhibiting others for their own selfish reasons. What is fascinating about this is that these ascended beings are in a direct contradiction to what they meed to stay in an ascended state. Their minions (demons) are doing their dirty work for them so they do not have to be directly involved. This can not be sustained if people begin to realize what is going on. We see this happening in our conscious experiences, our reality (as I am writing this I am being blown away by what I am writing). 
    Entropy, they are watching the decline of their institutions. The reality that they have meticulously created is falling apart. They are seeing the end of their time. They are witnessing the awakening and expansion of consciousness for everyone. They are fighting to maintain their secret and in doing so they are hastening their own demise. Those that have knowingly enlisted with them will be consumed.
    The actions of the Nameless created me, the anomaly. I returned to the source energy when I entered the void. They were unable to distract me with this delusion they have constructed. I always knew something was wrong and I continued to search for answers. Now, again, the sleeper has awakened. I am a witness to their delusion. I am not afraid. I know their tricks. I see this reality for what it really is. I am reconnecting with the source energy without any need for supplements and herbals. Once the source energy begins to flow within you there is nothing that can stop it, there is nothing that can stand in your way... It is the ultimate enlightenment. The door is open, it's now time to step through it.
    This morning I woke up before dawn and I was connected to the source. I was communicating and affirming what I am discovering and experiencing. It is as if I am communicating with a part of me, but it is so much more than that. I have these sessions more frequently now. These sessions fill me with joy and contentment. A considerable amount of contentment comes over me as if i was being filled with it from an outside source. I have to give into it and go with the flow. Something is growing inside of me. It has manifested itself in me and nothing can stop it. I can't stop it even if I wanted to - why would I ever want to. This connection to source energy runs through me at different ties of the day. Waves of contentment and joy gently wash over me and I can't help but smile and accept it. If this is the beginning of insanity then I welcome this blissful state of being.
    It occurred to me that this energy source is like a seed. When the environment of the body is in disharmony the seed remains dormant. When the environment of the body is right the seed begins to sprout. What I am noticing is that once the seed begins to sprout there is a change in the body. There is a noticeable feedback from the seed itself and that feedback maintains the harmonious environment of the body. Again there is this tuning fork effect. The vibration of the source energy from the seed is induced into the body and the body begins to vibrate at the same frequency. Initially the vibration comes and goes like a car being started on a cold day. Once the body warms to the vibrational frequency of the source it then opens up to accept more energy. This becomes self perpetuating in that the body resonates with source energy and source energy responds and delivers more.

12.24.11 (Transfered from original blog)

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12.24.11 - When I first moved to Hawaii, specifically Honolulu, I encountered some native Hawaiians that mistook me for one of the Nameless. I was on my bicycle waiting for the light to change when a car with three Samoan occupants took a pulled up next to me and looked at me as though I was not supposed to be there. I did not react the way the expected and they sat in their car and watched me as I rode away. I did not realize what had happened until after the attacks some two years later. Every once in a while I would be riding along the beach and would encounter a group of young Samoan guys. One of them would point me out and start to move out of the way. When he indicated to another that I was coming one guy said "I don't care who he is". I would pass them without incident, but there was still some indication that they thought I was someone, or something, I was not. Looking back at much of what happened in Hawaii, it is clear to me that there are other people like myself that are aware of the Nameless and are resisting them in one way or another. I have been mistaken for one of them many times in the past and still do to this day when I enter a new area.
    The greatest concentration of the Nameless seem to be in certain specific locations. I have seen a good deal of the Nameless on the island of Maui. They look very similar to the people I initially encountered when the attacks began earlier this year. There is something different about them and when I was on Maui it was clear that they may have made up the majority of the people I saw. It makes sense since the Nameless are mostly upper middle class income and above and the island of Maui is an island mostly inhabited by wealthy people. I guess some of them flew into Honolulu from Maui to take care of me. 
    I cannot say that the Nameless all look alike. They do not. Most of my encounters are with people of European and Asian (Chinese, Japanese). I have seen people that I would call lower level minions that come from different types of income, backgrounds and ethnicities, I assume that they are of mixed ehtnicity. The people with high levels of energy or auras are mostly attractive in some way, but there are also some that are extreme looking. I was walking through Nordstrom in the Ala Moana shopping mall in Honolulu and I saw an extreme looking man in the distance. He was talking to a rather attractive sales lady. The area of the store they were in was empty. I could only see the sales lady and what I can only describe as a male with dark skin large body and a large head. He had exaggerated features almost as if they were abnormal. I was struggling with the way he looked. He was, to put it mildly, pretty ugly in an extremely intriguing manner. I began to walk in their direction, but as I approached I felt an urge to leave the store. I suspect that my mind was having difficulty interpreting what I was seeing and feeling. I may have been unable to see him for what he was and so my mind created this image of him from what images I have stored in my mind. Kind of like how people in a dream are created from parts of things you have seen during your waking experiences. 
    I had a similar experience at the Great Mall in Milpitas California. I entered a bakery in the mall and I immediately felt the aura of person or being with a high level of energy. I wanted to leave, but the person I was with wanted to buy some things and so I stayed and watched them from a distance. The person was seated at the table with some other people. They looked normal. They fit in. One of them was watching everyone as they went about their business. Two of people were watching me as I watched them we all felt each others presence. It is an uncomfortable feeling for me. It is the same feeling I had when I met the wife of my distant cousin. I left the bakery without incident. I now realize that they have an ability to make people feel that way. Some kind of aura that keeps people away from them or me away from them. I now realize why they have been keeping tabs on me. When they know where I am or where I am going they can keep the higher level people out of sight. When I identify one of them that seems to create some kind of problem, I am not sure what that problem is yet. Possibly if I see them they become a part of my consciousness and whatever I see I suppose those that are aiding me can see them also (pure speculation at this point).
    I encounter the Nameless everywhere in California. The places of high concentrations are mostly in affluent areas, but they are not always in those areas. But, they do seem to segregate themselves from what I call regular or normal people. They form communities within the general population and they take care of each other. An interesting thing I have noticed is that a lot of the Nameless are associated with private educational institutions, mostly Catholic. Mitty High School in Cupertino California, USF, Pepperdine, Santa Clara University. Both the students and faculty are the Nameless. I did encounter some faculty members at San Jose State University that I would consider part of the Nameless, but not many of the students. At the time of my awakening (trek through the void), some of my instructors were covertly letting me know that they knew what I had accomplished and some students were trying too hard to become my friend.
    Locations in California that I have seen high concentrations of the Nameless are in Milpitas, Fremont, San Francisco, Malibu, Santa Monica, Venice, Los Angeles (mostly wealthier areas of Los Angeles), Huntington Beach, Santa Cruz, Pacific Palisades. I have recently encountered them in Santana Row at the Valley Fair shopping mall after making a snap decision to drive through it. Stanford shopping Mall and The Great Mall in Milpitas are also active with the Nameless and their minions. While I lived in Los Angeles and went to Rodeo Drive I did not see as many Nameless when I would walk through on a weekend. The same goes for Melrose shopping area in L.A. I have also encounter the Nameless in the sleepy little towns along the coast of California. Those small out of the way towns seem to be a good place to live undetected. The highest concentration of the Nameless I have ever encountered was in Calabasas California. When I visited the markets, there were a few times where they tried to intimidate me to the point where they followed me to my home. Three of them stood outside their car and stared in the direction of my house. Calabasas may very well be a stronghold for the Nameless with high levels of energy.
    The most startling thing I discovered was a vocation with a very high concentration of the Nameless. Doctors, surgeons, nurses and other hospital staff are positions the Nameless people seem to have an affinity for. The many times I have accompanied family members to hospitals, I encountered many of the Nameless that make up nearly 80 percent of the staff. The discovery was startling because, if you want to control a population or keep people from self realization, then you can do so through the medical field. My experiences with electromagnetic radiation that the Nameless used on me the last several months was able to lower my energy (the vibrational energy that effects health and wellbeing). I left Hawaii 30 pounds lighter than when I arrived. Most of the weight I lost was during the last 40-50 days in Hawaii. This was mostly due to the E.M. fields that they were subjecting me to on a daily basis. Normally I would have went to the hospital for some tests, but I did not because I knew what was going on. If they used the E.M. field on someone else and they went to a hospital for tests there would be plenty of Nameless physicians and medical staff to complete whatever they are trying to accomplish. I speculate that this may have happened to Steve Jobs. Now that I know more about Steve than I knew in the past (specifically his use of LSD), his behavior is similar to mine, in that he was suspicious of the people around him. He may not have had a similar awakening, but I believe he may have been able to sense these people I call the Nameless. Is this the way they take care of people that refuse to comply with this conscious reality? Subject them to E.M. fields in order to mimic a symptom then induce the illness when they go in for testing and diagnosis? Who would be able to refute this when all the physician are from the same organization?
    They are in about every profession and career. They are in law enforcement, politics and other government agencies. They are in the military, positions within technology, construction workers, sales people, stock brokers, insurance sales people, professional athletes, actors and musicians (isn't that right J.V.). It is amazing to see how they have been able to saturate this level of consciousness. Their ability to hear the thoughts of others is an advantage they have used in creative ways. When I encountered these people long ago and they were able to know what I was thinking at the time I did not even consider that they were able to hear my thoughts. I would have a negative judgement about the person and I could watch their disposition change. I never knew how that happened, I thought it was just me. Now I know and I use it against them and watch a completely different reaction on their part. Yeah, I know what you are...
    I know that I am struggling with consciousness. I am discovering that I am shifting through various levels or dimensions. At first I was unaware of what I was doing. My experiences are teaching me new things about abilities I have gained or they are showing me new possibilities that are emerging in this new era for us all. My first indication that I was unknowingly shifting through other levels of consciousness happened some time after my experience through the void. I met a popular street magician at a coffee shop in San Jose. After I introduced myself, he asked me how I knew who he was. I stated that I saw him on television. He looked puzzled. It was as if he could not understand how I could have seen his television appearance. I thought nothing of it at the time and I said that I was a big fan and then said goodbye. I walked away from the table and went back to my friends and told them who he was. My friends did not know who I was talking about. I thought it was funny that they never heard of him. The magician later came up to me and a group of my friends and began to perform some card tricks. One of his friends was recording the impromptu magic show, the camera periodically focussing on me. The Nameless have a way with using cameras to record the images of people like myself. That was one of many pictures that were snapped of me since my exit from the void. During the card tricks, I could see that his friends were paying too much attention to me. I starting to understand what is happening to some degree. The lines between consciousness, dimensions (string theory) and alternate universes is being blurred. I am able to manipulate time and space on a very small scale. As my consciousness expands so does my understanding of what I am experiencing. Is this what the Nameless have been trying to keep me from discovering?
    I am in the process of purging the Nameless from my consciousness. I view them as invading bacteria that have made a home in my body and are now being eradicated by my immune system. The light of my awareness and ever expanding consciousness is harmful to the Nameless parasites. They no longer can feed upon my fear. I see them around me when I go about my life and they still try and attack, but I am aware of what they are doing and that awareness gives me greater immunity...
    I have not used any psychedelic substances, mainly THC and CBDs, since my short term use in Hawaii. I know that marijuana was able to enhance some of the things I have been experiencing. I was able to tap into levels of consciousness that were the same as the Nameless, literally opening doors into other realities or pulling the veil from my eyes. That's when the Nameless stepped up their need to stop me. I can now understand why marijuana (cannabis) is outlawed all almost everywhere in the world. It is the one substance that may allow everyone to see things as they really are. I may also be interfering with the ability of the Nameless to influence others. That's something I believe the Nameless are attempting to prevent...
    A little bit more about me: I am an avid cyclist. You can find me riding up Mt. Hamilton road to the Lick Observatory at least once a week. I have smiled at some of you that have realized who/what I am. I have sensed you as you have sensed me. Forgive me for not starting up a conversation, but I have to be careful of who I invite into my conscious realm. I see you. I am grateful that I am able to connect with you for that short period of time. Now that things are changing, and I am better able to discern friend from foe, I will be able to connect with you.
    I am trying to get a lot of subjects on the blog. I have been noticing that the Nameless are attempting to continue their E.M. radiation on me as I continue to evolve. Since my arrival to my new home the effects have diminished as my health increases. I find that they turn up the intensity when I feel the best. When I am joyful they are very persistent. I have noticed this in the past. They do not want me to have continuous feeling of wellbeing. Fear and depression is what they require to keep me under control. When I am joyful, I can make better sense of all of this, I can push past this level and expand into the next. The internet may be the place were all levels of consciousness can come together and share their journey.

12.16.11 (Transfered from original blog)

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12.16.11 - It has been pretty clear that the Nameless wanted me to stop posting to this blog among other things. I attempted to let them know that I would not continue my blog if they would leave me alone. They never really stopped completely, they just toned down their activity. So since they were unable to stop trying to control my activities I feel a need to continue to tell my story. 
    A lot has happened since my last post and I will be posting it here in the near future. I am still confused concerning my experiences, but that may be caused by the seemingly endless possibilities that are available. I am slowly understanding what I need to do and interestingly it has nothing to do with the Nameless. It has to do with my conscious perceptions of my world view or cloud and what I give my attention to. It also has a good deal to do with my connection to the greater consciousness in general. This is very difficult to explain, but it is a fundamental part of our existence. It is staring us in the face on a daily basis. For me it has been very obvious, but I was unable to understand what I was experiencing.
    Throughout the years of my life I have had a feeling that something was not right. I just kept that thought in the back of my head and went along with my life as other people around me did. I did what I was supposed to do in order to exist in the life that I found myself living, the life that I inherited. That's what we all have done, we all have followed in the footsteps of those that came before us. We inherited this life, or social construct, from our parents and others as we developed our world view. We inherited this grand delusion that has taken us very far away from the reality that exists beyond this grand delusion.
    Most of my life I never stopped feeling that something was wrong even during good times when life was easier. Life just seemed to be limited and restricted. I remember myself thinking if this was it. Is that all there is? I felt that I was not seeing the entire picture. I was not living the life I could have and something was holding me back. The feeling became a dominant belief and my life, in being deeply influenced by that belief, it created my current set of circumstances.
    If you have followed this blog or even purchased my ebook you know that I am having some difficulty with people I refer to as the Nameless. That difficulty could have eventually cost me my life (the word "life" is becoming a subjective term that does not fully define this experience), but I am still here ("here" is also a subjective term that does not consider that we all shift through space and time as we ascend and descend in differing states of consciousness). I am in a better place safe and protected by family and also those positive forces that remain hidden to me. Now it seems that I need to make some adjustments. I believe that I am capable of recreating my life in profound ways. I have proven this to myself many times, but now I have a better method in which to create a better more positive experience. The Nameless no longer have a place in the life I now create. They were responsible for my current level of awakening. They were necessary and I am very grateful for the attention they have given me. Now I need to direct my attention away from them because they no longer serve a purpose in my life. Like a relationship that has run its course I will move on. They no longer have the ability to inhibit my progress. The light has illuminated their role in my existence. The Great Oz has been unveiled and he no longer holds power over me.
    My last post I had referred that the Nameless might be some advanced alien race, I have now chosen to not make any assumptions concerning their origin. Consciousness is a complex and interesting construct with endless possiblities. I do not know who or what the Nameless are or if they are any different than the rest of us. I have encountered some people with intense auras of energy (?), but they are still people that look no different than anyone else. With the endless amount of possibilities that this existence has to offer I can not begin to, nor would I want to, continue to speculate as to their origins because it no longer serves a purpose. Call them what you like, they may be just a group of people that have figured out a way to maintain power and control with technology, their will, the truth, or some Jedi mind tricks. I only know that they are effectively hiding the truth (reality) from a lot of us for a very long time, but that time has come to an end for me. I am now going to change my relationship with the world, or universe, and align myself with a world view that has no limitations and restrictions. I want the type of life I feel can exist. The life that exists behind the veil of this grand delusion. 
    As I progress, I will tell you a bit about who I am. I will tell you a little more about what had happened the past few months and then I will continue to tell you about my journey as I change my intentions, thoughts and actions. I am consciously going to manifest my life as I see necessary. To disinherit the habits that I believe to be destructive and limiting. To forget the behaviors that were a result of my social conditioning and begin to become the architect of my own life in a world without limitations. I do not want to fight or be in opposition to the Nameless. I want to continue my life's journey in a direction that leads away from the Nameless and other similar realms of conscious existence.
    A little about me: My trip through the void occurred in an apartment across the street from the university I was attending in San Jose California. The security guard that waved to me the morning after exiting the void was standing in the doorway of Uchida Hall at San Jose State University. The construction workers that pointed me out ("there he is") as I walked past a construction site a few days after my trip through the void were working on the San Jose Repertory Theater. The landscapers that commented "there he is" as I walked to class were employed by San Jose State University. The location, where I encountered the people I referred to as "Time Tourists", was across from the Starbucks coffee shop adjacent to the San Jose Rep. And, the location where the significant attacks occurred during the first couple of months of 2011 happened in Honolulu Hawaii, the result of those attacks stripped me of 30 lbs. of body weight. I am now back in San Jose California, back where it all began. More to cone...

08.22.11 (Transfered from original blog)

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08.22.11 - I recently read an article concerning extraterrestrial contact - Hoping to Contact Extraterrestrials? Think Again. It was more of a warning about extraterrestrial contact than anything else and they did make an interesting and ominous statement: "Just as we did to those beings, the extraterrestrials might proceed to kill, infect, dissect, conquer, displace or enslave us, stuff us as specimens for their museums or pickle our skulls and use us for medical research... ". This might not be too far from what is going on at this time to some degree. As I have been trying to figure out the origin of the people/beings/whatever I have encountered, the term alien extraterrestrials often comes up (at this time I do not have any evidence to support that the Nameless are or have descended from another planet). I then started to think about the term alien and how it is used in our language. We call things alien when we refer to things that are not from our country or planet. When we use the words alien extraterrestrials we are talking about beings from other planets visiting our home planet as if we were the original inhabitants. I am now wondering if that is actually the case. With the beings that I have encountered, and continue to encounter, I am beginning to believe that we may not have been the original inhabitants or native species of this planet. There is too much information that is missing that links us to primitive humankind. The missing link may not even exist. We may be aliens of this planet or some sort of genetic colonization project that was started by the Nameless or some other advanced race of being. These people or beings that I encounter have been here for a very long time. They have been involved in our lives on a daily basis. They have been guiding us by helping to create the stories within our cultures and religions. The alien terrestrial myth may be just another diversion to keep us from the truth that we are the aliens or created by aliens.
    I am an anomaly. On one of my recent encounters with one of the Nameless (or a more sympathetic evolved being), they covertly suggested at a genetic mutation. The message was delivered with a slight air of revulsion. When I consider that I may be a genetic mutation it begins to explain a lot of things. It explains the amount of hatred or "genetic discrimination" that I have endured since exited the void and I have declined becoming part of their organization. I may very well be some kind of genetic mutation that they need to keep monitoring or controlling. I am beginning to think that there are a lot of genetic mutations like myself that have certain traits that are similar to their own. I speculate that that most of them are part of the organization, either knowingly or unknowingly. It begins to make sense to me as I continue to rehash my past experiences. The things I have witnessed and the abilities that allowed me to be above the average in some areas of my life. The opportunities that were presented to me as well as the people that were present in my life at that time. Since I was able to notice what was going on in my life intuitively, or otherwise, I became suspicious and distrustful. Instead of following along or conforming, I diverted my attention away from the secular or material they were providing, or tempting me with, to the spiritual. As I became more interested in the why I am this way and experimenting with psychedelics and white powdered gold I began to encounter the wrath of the Nameless. My persistence brought me dangerously close to evolving into one of them or something close to them. My short lived ability to hear the thoughts of other Nameless was immediately quashed by days of intense electromagnetic radiation to eliminate that ability. They still use that radiation to control and prevent me from evolving and limiting my health. I believe they are stunting my health and eventual physical and spiritual (?) evolution.
    Most of my life I have seen things differently or seen things that others are unable to see. Since I became aware of them, I have always wondered what was going on. It might be that I am a lot more different than I had thought possible. If I am a mutation then what does that make me? A more important question may be what are we? The notion that we are a crop of humans that were grown here on this planet by some of the more intelligent, more evolved humans makes more sense than all the other stories that make our human experience. Our Nameless caretakers and their offspring live among us and weed out the anomalies and mutations (those like myself that have seen beyond the delusion of this reality) so that they can preserve this existence. If this notion has any merit, then we are pieces on a game board being manipulated in some sadistic experiment. We are prisoners of this existence and consciousness is our only exit.
    There seem to be different factions of the Nameless and they may very well be using us in their battle for control. The ancient alien theories purport that our ancient history is rife with evidence of wars between aliens races or among the aliens themselves. Our current state of affairs between nations, corporations and beliefs may be a effect of their conflict. The people I have referred to as time travelers or tourists come to our planet to view the drama and spectacle of this human condition as if we were some sort of zoo. Our news and television programs are only a means for advertising. Our planet sits on the outer edges of our galaxy like an amusement park located in an unincorporated area of a city. They come to watch us struggle through our primitive existence... I could be way off base or spot on, I just don't know. The Nameless that I had encountered in the past tried to end my life, put me in the hospital or make me crazy (or all the above). Whether or not they are alien beings from another planet, I just can't say.
     I don't want to be too negative, so I have to repeat that there are other beings, or evolved humans, among us that are helping us. I know this because they are helping me. I am still here because of them. Maybe they are just helping me to add to the drama of the zoo called planet Earth. Call it divine intervention if you want, but I believe that there may be a more spectacular, albeit a little more mundane, explanation. Our planet may be more of a mixture of nationalities, races and cultures than we are aware of at this time. Highly evolved beings that have been with us throughout our existence have been right along side us. There may be no such thing as aliens or extraterrestrials at all. We may be nothing but a lower form of an alien species from some other origin.
    One word for the next post - Bacteria...